Happy Birthday Jack!

Jack,
Today is absolutely a great day.
A year older, a year wiser.
Best thing of all, you're with me.

We could spend time together.
We could talk our heart out.
We could have dinner together.
We could hangout together.

Damn,
Life is great, isnt it?
When you're back.
Being by my side.
On this special day.

I've missed you.
I've waited for you.

Today,
The day is finally here.
There's too much to celebrate today.
I'm just eager to meet you.
Seriously missed you.

Today,
I could hold your hands.
I could see your smile.
I could be angry at you.
I could argue with you.

Just because you're here.

You once told me that you didn't celebrate birthday.
Too bad, you have to celebrate that with me.
Because i cherish birthday more than anyone else.
And i'm gonna make sure that you enjoy yourself today.

I promise.

Happy Birthday Jack.
I hope you like your present ;)

Ace

Tipikal Sikap Melayu

Aku cakap aku mau tambah bisnes,

...diorang kondem.

Aku tanya soalan serius,

...diorang jawab main-main.

Aku buat survey market,

...diorang komen merapu-rapu. konon lawak. HAKTUIH.

Aku tengah lakar layout blog,

...diorang cakap aku tipikal seller. jual benda sama.

Aku mahu majukan bisnes,

...diorang sibuk suruh aku kawin. katanya biar husband jaga aku. WTF?

Cara-cara berbisnes pantas dikalangan manusia begini:

• Isnin aku pi amik barang.
• Selasa aku celebrate birthday Jack.
• Rabu aku pi clubbing dgn *menziarah* kawan2 kolej aku.
• Khamis aku balik Penang.
• Jumaat aku setup. Aiza @ Budak Kecik wajib mai!
• Mampoih pi kat angpa nak ckp pa pun, aku bukak kedai SABTU ni!

Dalam masa 4 bulan ni, aku KEJA KEJA KEJA KEJA KEJA.

Januari tahun depan aku masuk Bachelor of Arts (HONS) in Visual Communication Semester 7 bayar fees guna profit yg aku dpt tu.

Settle.

Ang tak puas hati tang mana habaq mai kat aku,

Tasha Leow

Komen entry ni kalau hang still baca blog aku sampai hari ni!

Fuh ramai rupanya readers aku ni lagi. ramai rupanya masih suka aku menulis. yang peliknya, korang suka sgt aku kritik org. adeh. wakakakaka. yer aku tahu blog ni dulu mmg penuh dgn ayat2 sarcasm. mmg aku pun mcm tu org nya. aku mmg sarcastic. tp aku rasa skarang ni aku dah mellow down. ntah. cuma blog 10 KRITERIA POMPUAN TAK SEDAR DIRI  tu entri yg aku dah tahan lama sgt. mmg aku tak puas hati dgn diorang. byk email aku receive. suruh continue menulis. anyway, aku pun mmg dah mula menulis balik. semangat aku dah kembali. 

blog ni dah rakamkan mcm2 pengalamaan hidup aku. empat tahun aku dgn blog ni. byk benda yg aku ceritakan kat sini. aku pernah kena saman sebab blog ni. aku pernah bergaduh sebab blog ni. aku pernah dituduh tak setia sebab blog ni. byk lagi lah. kadang2 aku mmg rasa nak tutup je blog ni. sebab aku dah rasa aku menulis tidak lagi ikhlas dan jujur. terlalu byk hati nak dijaga. blog ni dah terlalu expose. ramai kawan and keluarga aku baca blog ni. even my beloved Jack pun dah mula hooked dgn blog ni.

for now, WHAT THE HECK, i'm back and i'm gonna continue writing. for best or worst, this is me.

take it or leave it.

as for Jack,

maybe this is the best platform for you to know me, study bout me and learn the truth of my life. honestly, there's no lies in this blog. none. written straight from my heart. 

aku maki org ka, puji org ka, meluat kat org ka, fall in love dgn org ka, mmg aku tulis direct. takde nak simpan2. yes, that's my style. again, let me stress is out, TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.

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...if you dislike this blog. 

for the heck i care?

i do believe, i strongly believe, despites all haters out there, there's still a beautiful human creature who still loves me just the way i am.

i'm back,

that devil named Tash!

Earring!

Just wanted to share my love!!!

oppss sorry my table is kinda messy. i'm in the process of re-arranging everything back.

Ok, i've been gloomy these few days. i just want to get rid of that gloomy environment. so i just kept myself busy with the stuff i love the most. this is the updated collection of my earring. oh yes, dont ask how i manage to collect this. i'm not really a keeper. there's some of my readers even ask;

"how did u keep all your earring without LOSING them"

"it must be expensive having that earring collection hobby"

omg i dont know how to answer question number one. because, YES i lost lots of them. most of it left in my friends' car, my friends' house and etc. i tends to take out my earring when i feel that they're annoying. there's a few more earring in my car dashboard actually. that's for emergency cases. whenever i suddenly need to go somewhere and i need to look a lil bit effortless chick, i'll just grab that one and wear. lol. i dont know either you've notice or not, but i love OVERLY done earring. the extra drapes. the extra texture. and the extra blings. hence the BIG gold earring.

oh another thing. i think i'm into bangles too nowadays. since i'm back to that tasha that wear jeans and shirt, so, i might want to style it up with bangles. the one i have on the right is my most favorite one.why? recently bought maybe. lol. i'm gonna collect more from now on. but they dont really have pretty design here in penang. i need to shop in kl. seriously! and.... i need a bangle holder to put all of my bangle.

trust me, the only way to NOT TO LOSE your item is to buy one of these things. so that u wont just put it in your drawer and forget bout it. things will ended up mixing anyway! that metal earring frame is kinda pricy if you buy retail. but if you want, i could buy for you wholesale. there's also cute design like the doll design. but it's not practical for me, as i have many earring. the doll can only hold like 5 or 6. can't recall. they also have the tree design. butterfly design. bla bla bla. mine was RM110 wholesale. the quality is very good and the metal is sturdy. not just the cheap metal u see in the silver shop.

eh wait, why am i promoting that metal?

yes i know you girls will ask me that question. oh well, i dont mind helping u buying it. just email me if u want to ;)

ok i wanna continue watching youtube. trust me, watching others collection are tremendously FUN! here's one to start with.

CLICK CLICK

p/s: i dont want to put the video here. no point since watching it in youtube is faster!

10 Kriteria Pompuan Tak Sedar Diri

1. Suka ambik port hal orang.

woi pompuan apa la masalah ang ni. aku beli baju salah. aku beli kasut tiga pasang salah. aku bercinta dgn mat salleh salah. aku dgn Jack pun salah. wei siyes angpa ni tadak life ka? free sgt sampai boleh korek aktiviti aku. please la. yes hidup aku sangat happening, ada kawan sana sini. aku ada life yang sangat fun. berbanding angpa yg kejanya 24 jam kat facebook dok terhegeh2 tengok pic2 yang aku post. WTF? sorry to say la, we're from different class. angpa ni ditakdirkan keja jadi kuli sampai mati, pastu kawin dgn mamat2 melayu yang tah hapa2, beranak 3-4, luaskan generasi pompuan tak guna. ang blajaq masuk U pun aku tak heran, sebab kat U tu ang cuma dpt pelajaran buku ja la. ang takdak pelajaran HIDUP. pastu bila tgk org, mula la kata org kena culture shock la apa la. aku tak kena culture shock. aku mmg macam ni dari kecik!

2. Talam dua muka.

perghhh aku nak maki pun ada pakai tatabahasa melayu lagi. ok part ni paling best beb. kat depan kita, depan kawan2 yg lain, dia la paling baik. baju tutup aurat semua. lengkap dgn tudung, legging panjang, sweater tah fesyen zaman bila, dgn baju ketat depa. depa kata tu tutup aurat la. taktau la pulak aku kan. setau aku tutup aurat ni pakai baju longgaq2, tudung labuh tutup dada, kaki pun tak boleh nampak kot. dia ni pakai ajaran matahari la kot. well, aku tak heran sangat la pasai aku pun bukan tutup aurat kan. aku pun pakai skirt pendek dgn singlet ja. pastu bila kita kata apa-apa depa takkan balas. tp kot blakang dok sembang mcm paria ka lagi. patut ka? tak puas hati habaq mai depan-depan. konon akhlak terdidik. mengumpat org tu tak kira berdosa ka. depa ni satu geng sama ja. 5 ekoq pakai tudung apa semua, tp perangai mcm nak haram lagi!

3. Suka "nasihat" orang.

wei, kalau orang tu nak pi kelaut ka, nak pi menjalang ka, nak pi mampoih ka, angpa sibuk tang mana? anak ang ka? konon saling menasihati tu baguih. nasihat dulu la geng2 ang tu. suruh baguih skit. konon dok susun ayat, nasihat pung pang pung pang sana sini. berlindung disebalik nama ISLAM la konon. kalau ang betui nak ikut cara islam, jgn kluaq lepak dgn kami, jgn kluaq dating dgn bf ang, jgn pi tgk movie, jgn masuk shopping mall and mcm2 lagi. tu semua melalai kan dan menggalakkan maksiat. angpa ikut buat pa???

4. Gedik tersembunyi.

Haaa part ni aku palingggg suka! depa ni kalau kat luaq punya la beikk. punya la sopan. gelak pun tutup mulut. sembang pun lembut. tadak la mcm aku ni kan. aku ni mmg sembang sora kuat, gelak pun mcm jantan, duduk pun tadak sopan santun punya. tp kalau angpa nak tau, depa2 ni la paling gedik, keloloh semua lah. senyap2 depa nanti pi msg org tu, org ni, dok bersembang. konon2 nya kawan lah. padahal tgk cara taip pun angpa dok menggedik. awat dok meghela sgt taktau? awat angpa ingat angpa laku ka? jantan ni selagi boleh layan, dia layan!!!!! BODO!

5. Jeles tahap teruk.

yang ni lagi aku tak paham. aku ni lawa sangat ka? vouge sangat ka? awat boyfriend aku turun dari langit ka? semuaaaaaa angpa nak jeles. aku pun tak paham. semua tak kena. aku pakai apa pun semua angpa nak mengata. apa angpa ingat aku taktau angpa dok mengata aku kat blakang? ni kawan beik angpa sendiri habaq angpa dok kutuk kasut aku, dok kutuk baju aku, kutuk beg aku. apa masalah sebenaqnya ni? mai aku habaq kat angpa, aku tau angpa jeles sebab angpa tak boleh pakai macam aku. sebab angpa tu pompuan kampung yg takut org kampung berbunyi bila angpa pakai macam aku. pakai baju merah terang kena kata. pakai beg warna gold kena kata. pendek kata semua kena kata. ish kesian. abeh tu angpa plak terbawak2 perangai kampung tu mai dok kl. adeiiii. semak!

6. Dress up makcik2.

ok ni lagi aku tak paham. konon2 nya angpa semua ni bekerjaya. pompuan2 elit konon lah kan. padahal keja opis ja, semua perasan korporat. KEPARAT ja kot. kawan2 aku semua bakal peguam, bakal doktor, bakal tour agent, bakal remizer tak ckp banyak pun? dok bangga terlebih la sgt. ni la antara pompuan2 yg terkena syndrome "perempuan Guess". ada aku penah cerita dulu dlm blog ni. dok bangga pakai Guess. haprak la, beli 40% diskaun ckp byk. adei. you know what, from what you wear, i can tell you which collection it was, which year it came out and when it was on sale! trust me girl, i know all that shit. stakat ang pakai last season punya barang, sorry wa tak layan! benda2 second hand, maybe sama kot dgn ang.

7. Ideologi yang sama.

kalau bab ni, aku suka sebut bab kawin. fuh depa punya sembang kawin pompang tahap pa tah. aku pun tatau. uih kena ada ini, itu. dok buat serupa boyapren depa tu sapa la. blah la wei. takayh dok berangan la. ni nak habaq mai terus terang, angpa buat la best lagu mana pun, aku punya wedding sure 100 kali lagi baguih dari angpa. ish pastu dok nasihat kat org, buat mcm tu, buat mcm ni. jgn buat mcm tu, jgn buat ni. tak baik. tak ikut adat. tak hormat org tua. kita anak pompuan ni kena jaga maruah keluarga. satu geng sama la pemikiran. dok nasihat org lebih2 pasaipa. awat angpa semua dah kawin ka? aku tengok sekoq2 dok desperate ada la. dok love love sgt kat tenet ni. last2 jantan tinggai apa pun tadak. angpa tu paling koman pun 5 tahun tua dari aku. jgn sampai nanti tak laku sudah. jantan pun naik meluat tgk angpa. dah la rupa pun tadak. angpa ingat angpa boleh nasihat2 aku dgn ideologi angpa ka? MY ASS!

8. Desperate tahap nak mati.

fuh, agak2 kalau ada jantan mana-mana ajak kawin lari pun dia ikut kot. time ni lupa la adat, agama bagai. jantan tu terang2 dok muhung dia pun dia boleh plak percaya. aku tak kata satu geng la. ni kat sorang ahli pompuan tu lah. fuyoo, punya la dok hebah2 kat org, bf dia terbaik, bf dia baguih, semayang tak tinggai. siap berangan nak kawin la apa la. pastu sampai cerita dlm kain pun mau habaq. apa dia sembang dgn jantan tu kat telefon pun nak habaq mai kat aku. last2 aku dpt tau rupanya bercinta kat telefon. jumpa pun tak penah. apa gila desperate ang ni? kawan2 dia pun sama la. lebih kurang ja cerita. depa ni ukan byk kawan pun. kawan2 depa ni byk aku kenai jugak. jantan2 ni pun dok mai bercerita dgn aku gak. aku dok melepak kedai kopi dgn depa. angpa tau ka depa siap cerita kat aku semua, SAMBIL GELAK-GELAK. angpa tak malu ka?

9. Tukang Hebah.

Fuhh... yg ni depa mmg otai. benda kecik, jadi besaq. yg besaq, boleh buat kenduri lah! topik paling hangat depa suka, topik ngata Jack aku. aku pun tak paham apa yg syok sgt mengumpat Jack aku tu. aku malas nak cerita pasai topik org len. cerita pasai aku cukup la. ada saja yg tak kena. Jack itu, Jack ini. padahal aku tgk kawan tu tak buat pa pun! mai kat aku dok sembang itu ini. konon nak nasihat elok2 la apa la. apa la masalah angpa ni. aku dgn Jack dah happy pun. dia happy, aku happy. toksah la dok buat cerita sgt aih. sampai satu tahap punya dengki kat aku dgn Jack, sampai menyamar jd org lain. konon2 nak sampai kan cerita. hello........ I TRUST MY JACK!

10. HIPOKRIT.

OK bab ni angpa mmg siye. dok ngata aku dgn kawan2 aku masuk club, masuk pub, bla bla bla. mampoih pi kat kami la. oo semua tmpt tu jahat. pi karaoke tak jahat la kan? sebab angpa pun buat. ni meenachi... kalau angpa nak tau, pompuan beik2 duduk umah kemas umah ja. takpayah kluaq pi mana2. biaq org jahat mcm aku ni ja pi kluaq melewaq. dok buat beik sgt. padahal angpa sendiri kempunan nak kluaq meronda. sudah2 la perangai hipokrit angpa tu. buat2 beik ja lebih. semayang 5 waktu angpa, agak2 tuhan terima ka dak?

Sekian.

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P/s:

Rasanya lama dah aku tak menulis mcm ni.

Aku mau berubah sebenarnya.

Cukuplah entri-entri cynical selama ni.

Aku tau blog ni pun ramai readers sebab penulisan cynical aku.

Tapi hari ni, serius aku perlu tulis entri ni.

Maaf semua.

Tak ada rasa cinta dalam penulisan kali ini.

Tak ada perasaan bahagia dalam entri ini.

Tak ada ayat-ayat gembira aku kali ini.

Tasha Leow

odd feelings

i dont feel good these few days.

something is definitely wrong somewhere.

i'm worried bout everything especially my Jack.

what is going to happen?

i have weird dreams every night.

i was gasping for air when i woke up.

i hope it's nothing serious, just my dumb feeling.

Jack, balik la cepat. i really need you.

i spend every moment worrying.

p/s: lambat lah nak tunggu 28th. damn risau. omg. please let this just be my feeling. damn.

Ace

the man that i respect the most, my entire life...

lets go watch pls pls pls pls pls! i wanna go!!

i sort of memorize his journey of life, career in politics, his thoughts, his writing and his contribution to our nation. watching this with bunch of intellectuals who actually follow his journey would be really fun!

I salute you, Mahathir. For you're the man who proves me wrong, who proves me that there's still an intelligent malay man.

*proud*

tasha leow

Just a thought

Sometimes,

it's funny when the person u trusted the most....STAB YOU.

you feel hurt because that person never really understand you.... BUT JUDGE YOU.

that person that you hope will lead you through a great beginning... CRASH YOU.

the funny thing is,

you gave your heart to that person you adore the most,

and he kept throwing it away without thinking twice,

and you keep picking up that pieces he threw,

hoping that everything will go back to normal.

worst of all,

you have to pick up,

that broken pieces of your heart,

one by one, every single piece,

putting it back together,

in a painful long process,

just like playing jigsaw puzzle,

looking for a perfect match of each piece,

so that it'll be just as perfect as it used to be,

hoping that it will hold still,

until the day you find that eternity happiness.

i guess it's true, the saying,

"Women forgive but they don't forget"

for i have forgiven you, but i can always retrieve it all back.

May I ask you a question?

What do you doubt in me?

What did i do wrong?

Wasn't i good enough for you?

Why did you have to ask me such a question?

which all ruins my beautiful feeling towards you....

need i say more?

for i've fallen for you.

Ace

FUCK YOU JOHN HACKER

OR WHATEVER YOUR REAL RETARD NAME WAS. MAYBE YOUR MOM WAS FUCK WRONGLY BY YOUR FATHER.........THAT YOU TURN OUT THIS WAY.

YOU HACK MY GOOGLE ACCOUNT, I GOT IT BACK IN 5 MINUTES. GET A LIFE BITCH!

I CHALLENGE YOU NOW, I HACK AGAIN.

SEE IF YOU CAN GET IT AGAIN.

I GIVE YOU 24 HOURS.

ELSE, I'LL DECLARE YOU AS FAGGOT!

mom's agenda

Today,

mom dragged me out of bed. urging me to get ready, as she wants to go to Queensbay for facial. Took me about 5 minutes to switch on my brain functionality. I got up and have a quick shower. Well, since i'm in a rush, i just put on my jeans and shirt. Something that you dont see me wear everyday. That's just me being lazy. lol.

As usual, i park my car near HSBC. i'm so lazy to park inside Qb. lol. we walk pass Kitschen and mom like one printed shirt. she try it on and she bought that. Then, we pass by Focus Point. Mom wanted to show me a shades that she's been wanting to get. Oh well, she's always been a Versace fans. In my opinion, it looks fake. So, i suggested she try on Dior. It's more chicks, i think. Yeah, she change her mind, and bought Dior shades. Very Paris Hilton kinda thing. Lol.

next, we were hunting for lunch! lol, trust me, choosing lunch wasn't easy. it's been a while since we, mother daughter, went out just the two of us. we decided to go fro Dave & Deli. we want something filling, but not fattening. hence the Dave & Deli. Both ordered quarter chicken, preferring the drumstick part. i always demand for drumstick. lol. had a great talk with mom. bla bla bla. yada yada yada.

After lunch, we went straight to Aster Spring. Mom wanted to try Dermalogica. for me, the facial is kinda pricy, RM298. i dont know bout you. my facial is usually less than rm200. then mom sign up for the Love Reward membership. they're offering 5 facial session + RM500 voucher for their product. total of those suppose to be rm3209, but there's a rebate. kinda good rebate though. mom only paid rm1650. then there's add-ons on the product. she wants this and that. so total up RM2069 or something like that. phew... i'm not gonna pay that price, seriously! 2k could get me ten Charles & Keith shoes! Ten ok!!!!! i'll be in heaven by then.

The facial will take about one and half hours, so i dont want to be dreadfully waiting there. my arse will be rotten by then! i walk around, and check out Clinique. i need to resupply my skincare. my Clinique is almost done. Mei Phing, the beauty consultant, wasn't there. she's on leave. take note that she's an excellent beauty consultant, plus, she's generous. there's another beauty consultant named Erica. i told her, i'm just looking around, and she served me well. thumbs up for them :)

Damn, i seriously hate floitering around alone in a mall. I've got an idea. i quickly walk to Borders, and straight to LBD section. i bought Saris and the City and Hysterical Blondeness. yeah, my whole gang love reading LBD. we have a huge collection of LBD book, which we pass among us. saves money, right? well, dont blame us. Books are extremely pricy here in Malaysia! yet, the government still promoting us to read more. the first step of promoting that is to reduce the price of a book! ok, i'm blabbering! next!

I almost gonna enter Starbucks, then i remember one article i read from Yahoo News. The 9 Things They Don't Want Us To Know. it's all about food facts. one of it is coffee. one ice-blend coffee is equivalent to 6 scoop of ice-cream. OMG, such sinful drinks! So i went next door, S1. ordered Mocha. Sat there for practically one hour. read to page 61 then mom called. She's done! Finally!

Then we headed to Dior counter in Jusco to get lipstick. my mom loves Dior Addict. she always buy that particular item. she choose few color, then decided to buy shocking pink color. Next, went to Clinique to get my stuff. i want to wait for Christmas sale at first. but come to think of it, it's still a long way to go. So, as usual, i bought the 3-step item, turnaround serum and sunblock. the best part of it, mom paid for that. LOL. saves me from paying rm613. Thank you mom.

Zura, my mom's worker, invited us to her open house. so, we went straight after Qb. Ate rice with lamb there. kinda tasty but i have to watch my weight. i've already lost 14kg, i dont want to gain it back. Yes everyone, i lost 14kg in 3 months time. but i still have to loose 9kg. Good luck to me! lol. BTW, thanks Zura for inviting us.

it's been a while since i last went out with mom. i'm happy to see her happy. i always tell her to do whatever she please. we live only once!

p/s: today has been a tiring day. seriously. i'm so worn out. i'm still going out with Aiza later. she wants to get stuff for tomorrow's bbq. damn that budak kecik! ish! ok gotta get ready now. she's on her way!

Belacan & Paku is my favorite!

OMG they're just hilarious!!!!

Eid?

Everyone been talking bout Raya.

We're all excited to celebrate the 1st day of Eid.

Every muslim has been waiting for this moment.

After fasting for a long tiring month.

Preparation has been made.

We bought new clothes, in my case, baju kurung.

We bought new shoes, in my case, stiletto and heels.

We bought new house decoration, in my case, NONE.

We made kuih raya, in my case, ordered from my mom's friend.

We cook our traditional dishes such as lemang and rendang, in my case, NONE.

We service our car for Balik Kampung journey, in my case, NONE.

Usually on 1st Syawal,

we wake up early to go for prayers and seek forgiveness among family members.

we sit down and eat together as a big happy family.

we talk, have fun, joke around and just spend quality time with family.

we visit neighbours, aunts and uncles, friends, also other relatives.

we invite others to our open house, with an open heart.

Well, that is Eid in Malaysia at least.

that's typical celebration of Eid amongst the malays.

at least, that's what i see.

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How i envy such a family.

who's celebrating raya with such joy.

would you trust me if i tell you that i've never been there.

i mean, we've never really celebrate it properly.

sometimes, i felt like i'm the only one with the spirit of Raya.

i feels the joy of it, and i can't wait to celebrate it.

the saddest thing bout it is, i could only taste all that family tradition in someone's else house.

yes,

i'm not suppose to expose this.

it's humiliating to expose your family's weakness.

my parents has been such a darling all these years.

despite all that, i failed to see us as FAMILY.

i'm sorry, mama, abah.

for i've failed to see us as family.

where is our value as family?

or is it normal this way?

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Ya Allah,

jika kau terima amalanku sepanjang Ramadhan ini, kembalikan keluargaku.

jika kau nampak usahaku menyatukan keluarga ini, bantu lah aku.

Sesungguhnya aku sangat ingin melihat satu keluarga yang bersatu.

Aku lihat wajah mama ku,

aku nampak kesedihan.

aku lihat air muka abah ku,

aku nampak kekesalan.

aku lihat adik-adikku,

aku nampak ketidaksempurnaan.

Aku lihat diri sendiri,

aku nampak penyelesaian.

Apa perlu aku buat?

untuk baiki keadaan ini?

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Untuk semua kawan, pembaca, follower (sorry aku tatau follower in BM apa) dan anonymous;

mintak maaf kalau-kalau ada entry yang tak menyenangkan dalam blog ni.

mintak maaf kalau-kalau ada entry yang menyerupai kisah hidup korang.

mintak maaf kalau-kalau aku ada termaki, terkutuk dan apa saja.

mintak maaf kalau-kalau aku ego tak mahu list blog korang. itu prinsip.

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My best best best friend in the world, Raja Nur Maryam, Atiqah Ayob, Siti NurHasnas;

I've known you girls for at least 9 years.

During those 9 years, sure there's flaws in me.

I'm sorry my dear friend,

for those words which might hurt,

for those attitude that might annoy,

for every sarcasm i made.

for every anger i've shown.

for every cat fight we've been.

for every silent treatment we've done.

for.......every single thing during those years we've been BEST FRIEND.

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For My Jack,

We're still learning on each other.

Therefore, there's always flaws.

Negative, positive, i've swallowed it all.

For I've forgive you in everything......

......and i hope you've done the same.

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aku menulis,

demi kepuasan,

bukan untuk menyakitkan,

jauh sekali menyusahkan.

aku cuma seseorang yang mahu escapism.

maafkan aku untuk semua yang tersalah laku.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

Truth,

Natasha Farhana Leow

Day 3

Today,

When i'm working, with lot of customer today, I THINK OF YOU.

When i reach home, extremely exhausted, I THINK OF YOU.

When i'm about to fall asleep, I THINK OF YOU.

When i woke up at 3 in the morning, I THINK OF YOU.

When i login my Facebook, I THINK OF YOU.

When i look at your profile, I THINK OF YOU.

When i'm playing poker, I THINK OF YOU.

When i look at our happy photo, I STILL THINK OF YOU.

When i'm typing this entry, I STILL THINK OF YOU.

I'll hold you in my heart, till I can hold you in my arms.

I miss you, Jack.

Ace

Jack's in love.....

.........................with my blog. LOL.

he asked me 3 times today, when am i going to update my blog. yes, i did write 3 entries, but it's still in my draft. will finish it tonight, insyallah. i dont want to write yesterday. why? i'll tell you later ;)

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Jack,

i know i've been talking a lot bout you lately.

i dont know either you like it or not.

but i just want to share my feelings.

i hope you feel the same too.

today,

suppose to be the sweetest talk ever.

since you're leaving to Sabah for two months.

it seems that we had some misunderstanding.

we talk, argue, had a sad moment, and reconcile.

i wanted to ignore you for a while.

but i know that i can't do that.

i know that last night is the last night we could see each other.

Jack,

don't be gloomy for what had happen.

i'm glad, for it had shown your love towards me.

everything happens for a reason.

Last night,

you said the most wonderful thing that a girl could imagine.

you did the most shocking thing that i never thought you would.

the best thing of all, you touch my heart.

i'm touch of your words, your sincerity and your kindness.

Just now,

before you left, i know you're waiting for me to say something.

you hope for beautiful words to come out from my mouth.

you hunt for sadness in my face and my voice.

and i know, you found none.

don't be fooled Jack.

for i am a good actor.

i know how to hide my feelings.

i've been doing that for years.

to be honest, really honest, i miss you too.

i'm just in the phase where i could spill the words just yet.

maybe i'm just not ready, to be fully committed.

don't get me wrong, never ever get me wrong.

it's not that i don't trust you or i don't love you.

i'm just taking my time falling in love with you.

trust me that process is beautiful.

i want to enjoy every single moment of it.

i want to do it slow, because i like it that way.

do you know how proud i was when you told your friend that i'm the one?

do you know how happy i was when you call me sayang?

do you know how honored am i when you hold my hands tight?

do you know how touched am i when you try your best to please my heart?

do you know how sad i was when we say goodbye?

do you know how hard i try to act cool when all of the above happens?

do you?

trust me, it's tough to hide feelings from you.

for i've fallen in love with you.

and all i want right now is just to be with you.

holding hand and just talk our heart out.

beautiful isn't it, Jack?

starting today, life gonna be different.

because you're not here with me.

you're so far away, far far away.

what i'm gonna do, Jack?

just few things i want you to remember.

remember that i love you.

remember that i miss you.

remember that i'm right here waiting for you.

that's all.

Take care Jack.

I'm yours,

Ace