sekian terima kasih :)
Friday, July 30, 2010
i want a new life.
a brand new life.
i want to forget him, real fast.
as fast as him forgetting me.
and got himself a new girlfriend.
when all the poem that used to be mine, are now written for that girl.
when that little boy that i used to hug and kiss, are not there anymore.
but thank god that...
HE always send me an angel when i'm down.
and this time, it's Jack.
it'll take time for me to heal.
yes, i am a slow healer.
in fact, i was never healed.
whenever i think of it back, i cried my heart out.
i never forget them, never ever want to forget them.
because they're the greatest thing god had given me.
can i ask you a question Jack?
do you like me or do you love me?
do you adore me that much or is it just a phase that will stop eventually?
are you willing to wait for me?
even if it takes forever for me to heal?
Sunday, July 25, 2010
bout life, bout feelings, bout religion, bout family and future.
i was so unsure at first.
i thought he was fooling around.
i thought he was looking for more options, you know, girls.
i was wrong.
he's absolutely serious.
he adores me for who i am.
he said, so far, whatever he thought of me, is all right.
he said, nothing surprising, so far.
i told him to look for someone else.
he said he wants me, not that someone else.
today has been one of our greatest conversation.
it taste important, matured and again important.
i felt important. as if i am his priority in everything.
i've got all the important stuff that i really want to know about.
he cleared out everything.
5 hours on call.
had never been so refreshing for me.
as everyone knows, i hate calls.
i prefer face to face talking.
but this one is an exception.
something that i'd love to do it again.
for making me feel this way.
i think, i'm starting to fall for you.
you're cool, you're relax, you're so matured ...
.....and you know how exactly to make me feel great.
i am sorry that i cant get over him.
it'll take time.
because i love that guy so much.
he had gave me the best 2 years of my life.
please forgive me,
for talking bout him to you.
i know it kills you silently.
but you just keep listening.
because you always wanted to be there for me.
Friday, July 23, 2010
I dont know why, this song reminds me of you.
I am sorry for what happen these few days.
I know, I'm not suppose to miss my ex.
I'm suppose to get to know you better.
you're so relax and laid back.
be mine, please?
Thursday, July 22, 2010
......for good, SOON.
without even telling me.
without even saying goodbye.
when will i ever see you again?
when will i ever hear your voice again?
not even a call before you go back?
what am i worth to you after all these years?
i dont want much.... i just wanna meet you for the last time.
just for the last time.
to thank you, for everything you've done for me.
to thank you, for taking such a good care for me.
for listening to my crabby story endlessly... without even getting bored.
for tolerating my childish attitude and playing along with me.
for putting me back from pieces.
i miss calling you B.
i miss calling you Little Boy.
i miss calling you Crabby.
..........i miss being your Little Girl.
Aku mohon, kuatkan hatiku. tabahkan jiwaku.
untuk aku lupakan dia. untuk aku terus hidup tanpa naungannya.
berikan dia yg terbaik.
berikan dia kasih sayang yg melimpah.
berikan dia perempuan penyayang.
berikan dia hidup yg bahagia.
berikan dia kesenangan dalam apa saja.
give him your best shot.
tasha fuck it. stop crying u fool! STOP!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
to a woman with a big heart.
who fight for the best in her life.
who taught others to appreciate their lifes.
who inspired the rest of us to strive for the best.
that woman, that I adore, had a breast cancer.
and today, she leave us, all the memories, all the pain and joy.
i won't be reading on her new entry anymore.
May Allah bless you.
you've done your part in society, and i think it's time for us to do our part.
Visit her blog: OneBreastBouncing
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
Trip: boarding a cruise!
Duration: 4 days 3 nights.
Dress code: beach wear, formal dress, casual dress, nightwear.
Things to bring:
1- Two swimsuit. (yes, i cant wear bikini because i'm fat lol)
2-Three formal dress.
3- Three casual dress.
4- 2 nighties.
5- Body: lotion, hand and nail cream, sanitizer, sunblock, tanning oil & cologne.
6- Hair: Serum, UV mask, shampoo, conditioner, hairspray.
7- Face: makeup remover, cleanser, toner, serum, moisturizer & sunblock.
8- Others: 2 heels, 1 sandal, 2 purse, hair clip, accessories, charger & book.
9- makeup. (mind u i wear lots of makeup)
Him: Babe, lets go for cruise this weekend. We're celebrating Jason's graduation.
Me: SURE! (0ver-exaggerating)
Him: Pack your stuff, we'll leave in the morning.
Him: By the way, we're BACKPACKING. no need to bring lotsa stuff! more fun that way.
Me: WHAT IS BACKPACKING?
Sunday, July 04, 2010
kenapa susah sgt nak lupa kan dia?
aku kalah hari ini.
sampai bila nak macam ni, Tasha?
jangan lemah sgt.
jangan ingat sgt.
jangan ikut emosi.
aku sayang dia.
sampai mati aku tak lupa.
kasih sayang, perhatian, jasa dan budinya.