Monday, February 27, 2012



Satu komen yang sangat-sangat touching.
Thanks bro, you made me realize that I have something out of that game after all.

You made me happy.

1. Breakfast with you.
2. Went to the beach for a quick smoke with you. Really enjoy the beach *heart*

1. Lunch with Linda, Syafiq and you.
2. Went to checkout place for your gathering in Batu Feringgi.
3. Tea time with all of you.

1. Watch MU match with Nisha and you.
2. Watch Carling Cup final with you.

So yes, YOU made me happy.
YOU know who you are.

Thank you.
For being the fantastic you.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

A life lesson from Fazlin.

I met an old friend.
Last time i saw her was 12 years ago.
She was recently married to a very nice man.
That man was her classmate back in high school.

From what I've heard...
she doesn't really go through the process of "relationship".
They were casually meeting up and going out as friend. (correct me if i'm wrong)
Decided to get married on 31st December 2011.
Now, she's pregnant.

My observation,
She look happier than ever.
Still being herself, the girl i used to know 12 years ago.
The stories she told me was really really funny.

She complaint bout her in-laws, her husband being hopeless-romantic, etc.
But if you see the glow on her face, the endless happiness in her eyes...
There's no words that could elaborate those feelings.

I envy her.
She's lucky.

but... to think of it.
Maybe that is the way?
Stop the relationship crap.
Be casual, and, when the time comes, tie the knot.

P/s: Fazlin, only god knows how happy I am for you. You've found happiness. You've settled down like totally. CONGRATULATIONS! Also, Thank you for opening my eyes, that happiness could be that simple.


Friday, February 24, 2012

Day 2.

Day 2...

Finally feeling sad.

I want a hug, like, SERIOUSLY.

Remembering all those memories, beautiful memories, made me cry.


Thursday, February 23, 2012

God answered me.


I guess, no more hide and seek game.

God has given me his answer.

And now, I'm torn in every single way.

But hey, at least I MOVE ON!


Wednesday, February 22, 2012


It's time to seriously make decision.
Question is, what will i decide?
Am i doing the right thing?
I love you, but, it seems that you've lost the spark.


Friday, February 17, 2012

It's bitter when...

...he doesn't call as much as before.
...he stop paying attention to you, online or offline.
...he talk to other girl more than he talks to you.

I'm done talking. You do the talking now :)

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Soul searching...

What is love? Sometimes i wonder. Will it really fade, or true love just doesn't exist, and romeo and juliet stays as fiction. I need answers because from my observation, love is just a bullshit stuff. How do i determine which is right, which is wrong? I need some guidance to look into this matter. Have you ever wonder, where will a relationship leads you to? 

Yes, there's sad and happiness in every relationship. But what if all you see is darkness ahead? do you call it off and start a new one? Or do you just face the facts that no relationship is perfect. We need to work our ass out to make it perfect, to fit in into each other. The question is, if you know that you're no longer happy, why stay? Don't you just get sick of the same process again and again?

Sometimes you just wonder, why the fuck am i here? Arguing, then reconcile, argue again, make up again, had a big fight that both really got fedup of each other, then reconcile. When will this end? If you were in that situation, what is your action? 

Well, from my observation, if i'm in that situation, i'd say that he's no more interested in me. As if he's forced to be with me. The question is, why does he want to continue that relationship when he's already fedup of that girl? Why wait when he's already happy with someone else? that someone already stole his devoted attention, and now, even when he's around, you'll feel like he's just there as a statue. Doesn't really have a function. The feeling is just different. It's like having a cold beverage. You relieves your thirst, but it will never be enough.

The most confusing thing is, why things have to change? Is all men the same? They just made the best effort before they get you, and after that it's all bullshit. Am i too demanding if i want him to treat me the same way he treat me when we first started dating? Is it too much to ask? Is it the rules of universe that men just got fedup after some amount of time in relationship? Does beauty really matter in this case? When time flies, even the most beautiful woman can't keep her man loyal, because his love will just fade. Don't you just think that this is a FACT. not just my two cents of opinion.

Is there such thing as happily ever after? I don't think so. Right now, i sort of believe that love fades through time. Men will always get bored of their woman no matter what she did, No matter how much she sacrifies for him and no matter how much she have loved him. Maybe they're just blinded with the fakeness of the world. Or maybe the relationship that we all started is wrong in the first place? If so, what went wrong? Where did i do my mistake? By putting so much trust and hope on a man? By opening my heart so wide that he get the chance to steal it away and fool around with it?

Trust me, it's not worth it to have someone beside you, but not having him devoted to you. Even the smallest thing that hurt you or touch your heart. If he can't handle even the smallest responsibility, neither can't he on a big on, right? Am i asking too much from a relationship.

In life, i do believe that there's a ladder in every relationship. Friendship, lovers and family. You'll somehow develop a strange bonding, and the relationship will grow higher and higher. Relationship CAN'T stay static. It's either you climb up the ladder, or you climb down. Which will you prefer? from what i can see, most relationship among us are always declining. Why?

Imagine that you're put in that position. What will you do?

Take it, or leave it?

Archived of 26th April 2011, written via E71, by the beach.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Valentine's spoiler!

Last year was maroon. This year I'm going for purple :)

1. Dark purple dress 

2. Gold accessories
3. Blue-purple nail color
4. Swarovski watch
5. Silk stilettos
6. MAC Vera - Dessert Cloud: deep blue purple 
7. A surprise gift.

Happy Valentine's Day.
Hope everything turns out well.
Please please please turn out gorgeous Tash. 

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Word of wisdom of today

1. Hot
2. Pretty
3. Gorgeous
4. Not good looking person
5. Someone else is better than me
7. You're BLIND.

Courtesy of A.H.

And they said woman are complicated?

I rest my case.

Thursday, February 09, 2012


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