Monday, June 16, 2008

Most Precious Birhday Wishes!

Time: 20:22

Venue: Still in Medo’s place

Mood: Bored

Condition: Dunno…

Currently: Reminiscing life!


I was supposed to sit here and do my assignment, but instead, I choose to come here and talk to you.. Medo, is sleeping, I guess he’s tired.. i opened my mail just now. I have one folder that keeps all the email that I wanna keep. I opened one email that I last open on 20th May 2008. It says,

I may not be by your side…

Celebrating your birthday with you…

But I want you to know

That I’m thinking of you…

& wishing you

a wonderful


Well, do you realize that I didn’t post any blog on my 20th birthday?? I was sad actually… not because of this email… but because all of my friend was not there just like before.. what happen to us?? I don’t expect much on them.. just a simple meet up and being crazy… anyway.. thanks to Medo, for being there, having nice dinner with me and not to forget, the gorgeous necklace and ring. Honey, I really don’t know when you bought that ring! You were with me all week! Well, this might be a little bit late, but THANKS a lot for those beautiful present…

Frankly speaking, I was really down because my friend was not there with me… but I know they have responsibility… at least Tasha Renee, Soya and Raymond came to AC that Friday… the rest was busy with assignment and test.. well, I was cheered by that birthday email.. my intention of writing this blog today is to say thanks to the person. You make me feel that I’m not forgotten. Thanks for remembering my birthday, or at least putting it in your calendar or something. Your email was simple, but touchy. Again and again, you never failed to make me feel better. That’s one thing I love about you. I’m glad that I used to know you. Yeah, you changed, but, there’s some part that never change, your KINDNESS and CARE. You’re such a great person to know and believe that I’m proud to have you as a friend. I wanna tell you that you’ve touch my life and you’ve teach me precious lesson in life. Thanks once again, for everything you’ve done for me. It really meant a lot for me, Imran.

To Su Weng, Papa, Hairie, Emi, Dekkai, Choo Yen, Soya, Aunt Ain, thanks for the sms birthday wishes. To others that I can’t state here ( the list is too long!), thanks for the wishes too… and of course, thanks for the present!!!! I know this is a bit late post, but I really don’t have time for this blog nowadays. I’m so busy with life and studies. I’m trying my best to coup.

Actually I wanna write more, but my friend is messaging me in MSN, asking for help. I need to help him ok. I GTG. Bye.



(Only you call me with this name)

Some Survey I Did Just to Kill My Time

Time: 13:48
Venue: Medo's Place
Mood: Bluurrr
Condition: Ok!
Currently: Listening to Malay song!

Endy, this is just a quick survey i did... hehee... got it from a buletin posted in friendster by Wanie, my ex-schoolmate!

If you were really upset, who is the first guy you'd go to?
Medo :P

Who is the first girl you go to?
Maryam and Tqah!

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Like duh... i'm the most straight-forward you've ever met!

Do you prefer to take showers in the morning, or night?
Does it make a different? my time is upside down!

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
Yes i do! i know i affect their life coherently! haha...

Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
Part of it.. S.K. something2... haha...

Which year has been the best so far?
2003 is still in memory, 2007 is also in memory, but this year is the best year for now...

Last text message in your inbox?
Which phone? hehe... from Soya and Nick

Break someone's heart or have your heart broken?
my heart is still broken.. but someone is putting it back in pieces... thanks Medo!

Three feelings at the moment?
Happy, worried, whimsical!

Last movie you watched?
serious, couldn't recall!

Last song you sang out loud:
Usher - Love in the Club, and i'm still singing it loudly now!

What's your favorite number?

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
wow, this is the hardest thing in the world... i have a freaking long list! hurm.. maybe 1 tera of harddisk will do!

Who makes you happiest right now?
with no doubt, MEDO!

What's the last thing you thought about?
to skip my Video Production class!

Do you think a relationship can last 6 months without cheating?
Yes, cheating is not my kinda stuff...

What is one thing you question a lot?

Are you married?
theoretically NO!

What did you do last night?
things i do the best, WASTING TIME, surfing the net!

Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
for sure, sunset! i'm not even awake when the sun rise!

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
doesnt make any different to me! single or taken, i still rule my life!

Have you ever liked someone who treated you badly?
not only like, I LOVE HIM and i still do! but it's all cool... i'm deleting you outta my life!

Last person you said I love you to?
You know yourself :P

What are you doing tommorrow?
Programming and Video Production class + staying back for 3D assignment... sounds fun huh? WTF???

Do you think you'll be married in 10 year?
Hell no!!!

Why is your relationship status the way it is?
because i love him and we trust each other!

Who do you dislike currently?
oh, another long list! hehe...

Are you in a good mood?
hell yeah! hehe....

just me,

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Harga Minyak Naik(Fuel Price Hike)

Time: 18:55
Venue: Still in Medo's place
Mood: Angry?
Condition: A bit sick, period pain
Currently: listening and reading through complaints of our Rakyat

i'm just dropping by to paste something that i got from my YM... well, i think i wanna share it with our dear malaysian... as everybody knows, the price of our fuel has risen from RM1.92 per liter to RM 2.70 per liter which is RM0.78 rise! all consumer are mad now... well, including me! electricity for home use charge increased to 18%. seriously, wtf is wrong with our government. i'm sure after this all the cab will take this chance to rise up the charges... man, i really wanna get out from Malaysia... we suffer a lot.. and yet, our government is not poor! i really want Dr. Mahathir back! ok, i dont want to talk much... if i were to complaint on this stupid fucked up country... opppss... i mean the system.... i will take like 100 years to finish complaining.... i really miss states now.. i wanna go back there!

-------------------------the thing that i wanna paste earlier, it's in Malay--------------------
Mari kita bandingkan harga minyak di negara pengeluar minyak lain.
Adakah Malaysia yang paling rendah?
UAE– RM1.19/litre
Eygpt– RM1.03/litre
Bahrain– RM0.87/litre
Qatar– RM0.68/litre
Kuwait– RM0.67/litre
Saudi Arabia– RM0.38/litre
Iran– RM0.35/litre
Nigeria– RM0.32/litre
Turkmenistan– RM0.25/litre
Venezuela– RM0.16/litre
MALAYSIA– RM2.70/litre

p/s: they also include one URL for us to visit. this is a petition online, collection signature for Pak Lah to step down. Go check it out people! I did sign anyway, even though i know the voice of the Rakyat is useless!


Family Crisis + Final Sem = Fucked up Tasha

Time: 1.56 a.m. (according to my phone)
Venue: Medo's place
Mood: Fucked up!
Condition: Worried
Currently: Thinking of my parents...

again, i have to apologise from you... i know it's been a while since the last time i talk to you... and i have to apologise once again for being such a selfish friend... i'm only here when i'm having problem... Endy, i really need you now... i need all of my friend to be here beside me... i need Yam... i need Tiqah... My parents argue to the max nowadays... well, you know that i dont talk on family matters here. but right now... i just need to talk to you... i really do... my biggest problem now is i dont know who's lying... is it my dad who's having another girl, or is it my mom who's turning crazy? since last week, i've been listening to their complaint towards each other... my ears started to bleed by now... too much unsure things... yes.. i know everybody will ask me... why dont they sit down and talk??? the problem here is... my dad thinks that my mom is an idiot and my mom believe that my dad is a hot-tempered, egoistic guy (which is true). so... i dont know who to believe now... and i dont want to choose to believe any of them.. i'm not on anyone's side... i tell my mom, if u cant take it anymore, then just call it a break... there's no point living with someone that you couldnt respect anymore... i mean, that's for me.. me and her, we're totally a different person...

my mom called the girl that my dad were dating(that's what she said), and that girl complaints to his boss... so, my dad is getting the smash over there... he asked my mom and she refuse to admit that it's her... so just now when i was nicely trying to sleep, my dad forward to me a sms that he wrote to my mom, saying that he's gonna report to the police about the number that called that girl... my mom is worried right now... she asked me what to do... well, my solution is, to report that the number they used as lost... well, i dont know either this is a good way... for me, now both of them are having a very high ego conflict that will never be resolve if they dont sit down and talk as an adult...

well, as for my side... i'm so fucking stress right now... this is my final sem.. i keep telling them that fact over and over again... yes, i know they needed someone to help them out.. or at least someone to listen... but come on... do i need to talk on the phone like 1 hour for each of you EVERYDAY? this is so stressful... i'm supposed to pass up my 3D assignment on 4th June and i couldnt finish rendering the model(thanks to this fucked up slow laptop), so i decided to pass it up on Friday... which means, i'll lose 5 marks for late submission... i have no choice... i rather lost 5 marks than passing up a fucked up work... next week i'll be having my programming test... and i have to pass up the programming assignment by next week too... next two weeks is the deadline for my video assignment and i dont even start anything yet... i'm being busy thinking about this matter... well, i'm not trying to put the blame on them... and i'm not being lazy... it's just that, in my field(multimedia), we cant force ourself to do work... it's not easy to create a piece of art... i mean, how do you expect me to create an art when my heart is scattered everywhere??? whatever it is, i thank gods that the oracle assignment deadline is in July... but i still need to worry on my final project... the website...

frankly speaking, i have too many things that i wanna talk to you... but i just dont have the time to sit and type everything... i'm worried bout my parents, A LOT! anyway, i hope things will get better for me... i know i'm not having the worst condition right here... but i just cant keep it to myself anymore Endy... my dreams on my photography world is gone... i'm trying to live my life with the fact that i'll never pursue my degree in photography anymore... and now, my parents is making another fuss... i'm depressed... i'm frustrated... i'm sad... i'm down... but, i know i will survive this... tasha survive anything... it's just matter of time...

i'm having period pain right now... awfully painful... and my head started to get dizzy now... the wire cant take the load of problem that is inside i guess... my body started to get weak... my mood is pulling off... the only one that makes me smile is him... i know he's worried about me.. and i really thank god that i have him now... he really care bout me... he understand me, VERY WELL! Honey, thanks for being here with me... i do appreciate it.. and i'm sorry if i hurt you with my silentness... i just dont know what to answer when you asked me "are you ok?" you know i cant lie to you... so if i answer yes, means i'm lying and you'll know it straightaway, since you know me very well... and if i say no, means you'll be worried bout me... trust me, i'll be fine... i just need some space... to sit and think about all this shit... and also... most important thing of all, MY FUTURE!

Bye Endy!

i'm their daughter,
their one and only,

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