2008 is Ending Soon...

Time: 16.45
Venue: Bukit Jalil
Mood: Blurrr

Endy,
I'm back in KL and i'm going out with Suba later... New Year with Alex? no freaking way! lol... that fucker is inane! he's flying to Singapore later on... i believe he's gonna see her! lol...

i cant wait for 4th January... my Ipod is coming!!! i'm preparing stuff to be junk into my Ipod! lurrrrve it... so... what should i put inside a 32g Ipod? lol....

i gtg.. bye..

oh ya...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

wishes u goodluck,
Tash

Err... Tag??

I was browsing u-jean's blog and i found this interesting stuff... plus, i have nothing to do now and i'm freakin bored.. so, imma try it out...

The rules

Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test

I don’t watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friends’ ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I’m obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

ok... now i wanna stab:
1. Emily
2. Maryam
3. Ain
4. Eta
5. Boi

In love with Jamie!

Time: 17.00
Venue: Home!
Mood: Happy!
Currently: Full!

Endy,
i'm watching Jamie Oliver cooking Pumpkin soup and baking cupcakes.... it looks so tempting, makes me feel like going to the bakery. now, any chef out there available? can we date? lol... i'm going to be even bigger than now! my shirt size is going to swift from medium to large!

gosh... one day i'm gonna meet this Jamie guy and congratulate him for being such a good chef! hehehe... Endy... shit..i have to go... my mum asked me to cook for dinner.... ok bye....

feeling hungry now,
Tasha

Mesmerized with the power of relationship!

Time: 17:56
Venue: Still here, Home!
Mood: Happy!
Currently: Just ended up talking to him.

Endy,
I watched i very nice movie just now. that movie reminds me of him. sometimes i wonder, can we actually last forever? does forever even exist? i dont know what to tell myself. i dont know how to comfort myself with words, for i am a very realistic person. that movie actually open my eyes to a new meaning of a relationship. we doesnt have to be together to be called lover. we can actually have each other's spirit and live our life knowing that we're actually loved, somewhere across the seven seas.

sometimes i do wonder.... what is this sick feeling of being alone. not having him around is just weakening. depressed. frustration. unstable. that's what i feel now. surprisingly, i dont feel home here. why is this happening? i'm confused. i dont know what else do they want from me. feeding me with all the sick stories, tales of their life. do i really need to know? what ever happen to the terms of privacy? yes, i'm a child. yes, i'm supposed to make them happy. yes, i'm the eldest in the family. but no, i'm not interested in your problems.

for me, i'm leading quite a stable life now. i mean, having friends, even though most of them are fake. the only thing they do best is to think of a way to fully utilize me in the name of FRIENDSHIP. well, that's sick! i miss tiqah. i knew she's struggling now in India. pity her. Bangalore is not the best place to study medicine. still, she have to obey the government's placement for her. as for me, i'm graduating soon. as the matter of fact, i'm already a diploma holder. it's just about time, for it to be official. i'm quite happy with my self, even though my CGPA is not that good. a 3.3 CGPA is nothing to be proud of....but in my world, examinations doesnt judge. people's perspective on your artwork does judge your career.

a piece of art could be useless or it could also worth millions. in this case, i dont know how to explain on how they actually judge "art". sometimes i wonder how Pablo Picasso became famous? is it because of Les Demoiselles d'Avignon? or Three Musicians?? i mean, it doesnt matter what makes him famous. yes, he's talented and he's one of my favourite artist, even though it's pain in the ass to memorize his art for my exam. well, i guess i dont have that much passion of art yet. i need to emphasized on my art from now on. i'm catching up now Endy. i hope it's still not too late.

phew...
what the hell am i crapping? maybe because i'm too bored? well, Medo told me that he's going to Langkawi with his cousin. then he's coming here to meet me. I'm so happy. I miss him. I do. A lot. Anyway, i do love Picasso and Michaelangelo. i still have the scrap book that i made for my art research on the chronology of Michaelangelo's artwork. i love it. it's so vintage. it makes me miss my drawing skill. i need to practice drawing once again! Endy, let me stop my crappy entry ok??? i need to learn to write properly. what happen to my writing essentials nowadays? shit! More reading less watching, Tasha! what happen to that little hobby called "reading"?

Till then,
Tasha Leow

Blogging from the Pearl of island, Penang!

Time: 23.30 p.m.

Venue: My house, Penang!

Mood: Happy..

Condition: errrr..... ok delete this thing from now on!

Currently: Chatting with him...

Endy,

I'm finally in Penang! been planning to go back since the past few weeks... i kinda miss the island... nothing much to say today... kinda blur and exhausted due to long distance travel.... anyway... i think santa receive my letter... lol... i talked to my mom bout my baby d700... and she seems to agree.... hehe.... so let's check my list once again... okay?

1. Nikon D700 (actually i want Nikon D3, but nah... i'm an amateur) ~ yay! i'm getting it soon, with the wide lens!

2. Ipod Touch 32g (this is my christmas gift for myself this year) ~got it, faster emi!

3. Ipod Shuffle (buying this for me and Medo)

4. Elizabeth Arden Blockbuster Edition.

5. Salvatore Ferragamo resin clutch in violet.

6. The Christmas edition of O.D.M. watch, in white!

7. A nice dress for christmas party. ~got it, orange in color

8. A pair of nice necklace, to go with the dress... lol! ~going to hunt for it tomorrow!

so for now... i've got 4 out of 8 stuff i want... i really like what i got... hurm... i'm kinda blank now... is it ok if i continue tomorrow? it's kinda noisy here! ok Endy, bye...

p/s: I miss you!

truth,

Tasha

My Christmas Wish @ Letter to Santa!

Time: 9.45 a.m.
Venue: Somewhere i love...
Mood: Happy?
Condition: errr... i thought i wanna get rid of this condition thingy?
Currently: Getting intimidated with song titled Tong Hua, by Michael Wong.

Endy,

忘了有多久
再沒聽到你
對我說你最愛的故事
我想了很久
我開始慌了
是不是我又做錯什麼
你哭著對我說
童話裡都是騙人的
我不可能是你的王子
也許你不會懂
從你說愛我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我願變成童話裡
你愛的那個天使
張開雙手
變成翅膀守護你
你要相信
相信我們會像童話故事裡
幸福和快樂是結局
你哭著對我說
童話裡都是騙人的
我不可能是你的王子
也許你不會懂
從你說愛我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我願變成童話裡
你愛的那個天使
張開雙手
變成翅膀守護你
你要相信
相信我們會像童話故事裡
幸福和快樂是結局
我要變成童話裡
你愛的那個天使
張開雙手
變成翅膀守護你
你要相信
相信我們會像童話故事裡
幸福和快樂是結局
我会變成童話裡
你愛的那個天使
張開雙手
變成翅膀守護你
你要相信
相信我們會像童話故事裡
幸福和快樂是結局
一起寫我們的結局

oppss... sorry Endy.. just enjoying the song! lol... i'm singing it out loud now... dunno why i'm addicted to it now... well... nothing surprising since it's a famous piece of art... even Aliff Aziz is singing Cinta Arjuna inspired from this song... hurm... the meaning of the song is a bit differ though.... anyway... let's get into our stuff...

Santa,
i have lotsa thing in mind now... so many thing to plan yet i'm still chilling and playing RPG games... i'm using up all of my time watching all of my downloaded series which i dont have time for it before... anyway... today... i wanna list my christmas wish! i wanna have few things for christmas!!! those are:

1. Nikon D700 (actually i want Nikon D3, but nah... i'm an amateur)
2. Ipod Touch 32g (this is my christmas gift for myself this year)
3. Ipod Shuffle (buying this for me and Medo)
4. Elizabeth Arden Blockbuster Edition.
5. Salvatore Ferragamo resin clutch in violet.
6. The Christmas edition of O.D.M. watch, in white!
7. A nice dress for christmas party.
8. A pair of nice necklace, to go with the dress... lol!

err... Santa.. number 1-3 i'm getting it myself... number 7-8, someone is getting it for me... can you handle the other, number 4-6... pleaseee....

ok endy... gtg... going out with ma~ peepss....

i wish,
Tasha

Just a list of great Photoshop Tutorial

Time: 06.40 a.m.
Venue: My place... duh...
Mood: err...
Condition: seriously i need to get rid of this 'condition' format from my blog...
Currently: lack of sleep? due to over-napping yesterday!

Endy,

I'm currently keeping myself FREAKIN' busy doing housekeeping on all my hard disk... putting all of my collections in order... arranging them neatly... you know... that kinda stuff... now i know what stuff i have... what stuff i've forgotten about... and what stuff i downloaded twice... lol... i lost count on my movies, series and other stuff... but i surely know that i have 7 gigabyte of Vector... hahaha.... now i'm looking for the best way to catalogue them so i could browse them easily after this... anyway... this is not what i came here for today...... let's move on...

THEN

i found a stack of photoshop tutorial list in a notepad which i named GVJFUTYX which obviously named by me by pressing whatever key my finger could reach that time! lol... wonder how am i gonna get rid of that habit... YES! it's a habit of tasha to actually put whatever name she wants... and the best part is... the name is not even making sense! for example... GVJFUTYX... even me myself was wondering what the hell was that for???? but the good thing is.... i have such a high curiousity level... i tends to open all of the WEIRD file... well... this time... it turns out to be an advantage for all of us... photoshop lover... enjoy those links ok! see ya!

http://www.thewebmachine.com/
http://www.good-tutorials.com/
http://www.stridingstudio.com/tutorials/
http://www.computerarts.co.uk/tutorials/2d/
http://www.deepspaceweb.com/
http://www.phong.com/tutorials/
http://www.spoono.com/tutorials/photoshop/
http://www.eyewire.com/tips/photoshop/
http://www.spyroteknik.com/
http://www.dubtastic.com/
http://www.designsbymark.com
http://www.effectlab.com/
http://www.jlswebsource.com/tutorials.html
http://www.designsbymark.com/
http://www.eyeball-design.com/page09.htm
http://www.absolutecross.com/tutorials/photoshop.htm
http://www.myjanee.com/jnetuts.htm
http://www.eyesondesign.net/pshop/tuts.htm
http://www.photoshopcafe.com
http://www.planetphotoshop.com/tutorials.html
http://www.pankpages.com/
http://www.stewartstudio.com/tips/phototip.htm
http://www.aqa-d.se/
http://graphicssoft.about.com/cs/ph....htm?once=true&
http://www.rtideas.com/ticks/
http://www.screaming-art.com/tutorials.php
http://www.digitaltropic.com/tutorials.htm
http://www.perfectpixels.com/index.cfm?method=photoshop
http://www.distortion.co.uk/freebies/tutorial.html
http://www.arraich.com/ps_intro.htm
http://www.teamphotoshop.com/photos...ials/ps_tut.php
http://www.eyeland.com/tutorials.php
http://user.fundy.net/morris/main.html
http://umojan99.tripod.com/
http://www.webteknique.com/
http://www.nebulus.org
http://www.wastedyouth.org/tutorials/
http://www.tutorialforums.com/index.php?referrerid=62
http://www.dreaminfinity.com/tutorials.php

oh ya... i'm not responsible for whatever happens to you when you open those tutorial sites.... e.g. lack of sleep due to addictions.... hehehe... bye..

Just sharing,
Tasha

I'm in a good mood!

Time: 4.46 a.m.
Venue: My room
Mood: Don't you read the title? duh....
Condition: Kinda exhausted due to 24 hours surfing!
Currently: Wanna forget bout degree for a while. too much excitement and stress!

Endy,
Well, after a week of moody Tasha, i'm finally back with myself. i'm suppose to start writing back to you once i hit my holiday. this one month holiday was suppose to be fun! but, it turns out to be such a stressful and important December. usually my December will be filled with parties with ma~ peeps or just hanging out at Qbar drinking my fav. cocktail! too bad it's close now! donno why! or at least i will chill at 15 with all those pool addict! will be playing for hours and just when i got out from there, it's already morning. lol...

Anyway, i'm kinda happy today because i finally found season 6 of my favourite series. well, i cant state what series here since someone will bring me to court for mentioning their name... hahaha.... what-so-ever! getting sick of people reading my blog and messaging me asking this and that. you wanna read this blog, you're welcome... if you dont get what i mean, it obviously show that you're OUT of my coverage... so, get yourself comfortable with my rules... i dont like it here, or you dont like straight forward person... you can get the hell out of here...

ok ok... i know you're kinda sick of me being so moody and frustrated towards people nowadays, Endy... well, it's just me. i dont get it.. why people like to buzz in people's life... not for me... i'm too busy with my life even to bug people's private life! so... my advice to those who dislike me or what-so-ever... JUST GO GET A LIFE...

opps... i'm doing it again... i'm being mean again... sorry endy... it's just nature.... ok lets get back to the topic...

ok... after 3-4 months of hunting for this season, i finally found it on a foreign website... dunno what language is it... why dont you check it out yourself... you might find something useful there... the site is best2u.sk.. opps... am i getting into trouble again for posting this? hahaha... opps... sorry.. being synical once again.. sorry... hehe... now, i wanna hunt for season 7... i've go through more than 100 websites to search for this 7th season... hope i could get it... and Endy please remind me to get a new hark disk and a DVD-R... i really need it.. so many things to get, yet too little space to keep!

oh ya, i forgot to wish... to all muslim in the world, all my bro and sis all over the world;

HAPPY
Eid al-Adha
(Arabic: عيد الأضحى ‘Īd ul-’Aḍḥā) or the Festival of Sacrifice

I'm kinda sad because i didnt celebrate it in penang... i was suppose to go back, but i dont know... i just dotn have the will... maybe i'll try to go back next week... i miss my mom... hurm... i'm emosionally unstable right now since i didnt go back for Eid... i didnt do anything much anyway... just floitering around and arranging my degree stuff... pheww... that's another long story! they needed almost everything from sunway in order to push me to 3rd year... everyone, please do pray for me! i really wanted to enter 3rd year... i want to finish as soon as possible...

on the other hand, i've got the offer from Academy of Art, to join 2nd year of photography... the good news is, my friend is helping me out on the financial issues... now, how does it sounds like? it spells HEAVEN for me! but still, my dream school is NYIP! i still wanted to go to NYIP... so, do i go to New York, or do i finish my degree here first and go there with more knowledge... it's a tough world out there... i will need more strengh than just this lame diploma! hehehe... oppss... underestimating myself again... hurm... well... i've got my own ruler and i know how tall do i stand... and i do realize i stand at a very low level of art! need to improve hell lot more!

i have so many thing in my head... so many plans yet not so many time... lol.. if i take my degree here in malaysia, i will be able to join 2 type of degree... i know this is strongly not encourage by the government, but yeah... it's my life... so i decide it myself! hehehe... how am gonna get through the 2 degree... that's another thing... i dont care... i'm calling someone to handle that for me!

ok that's option number 1... option number 2 is to go to NY.. but if i go there, i cant take 2 degree.. because it's against the law of the financial thing... i have to endorse only 1 degree.... thats crappy for me... because i think 5-6 subject per-week is just not enough... i need more... i cant waste my time! i wanna learn a lot.... i want all those knowledge to be stuck in my head, then blended well with habits! when all the knowledge became habit, then we're talking business here, mister!

gosh, what am i blabbering about?

oh ya... another thing... (i've got just enough thing to update you until the next year!) Nicholas, my besties and pool partner, went to Australia, for good... well, kinda miss him already... he's one of the person who understand my mean jokes, my lameness, my sarcastic word and etc.... i'll visit him when i got the time... i hope he'll do great there... how much is salary of a programmer there for a bachelor graduated student? hurm... i bet twice better than malaysia! man, this country have to change a lot!

anyway Nick, good luck on your new journey of life... i hope you'll start blogging soon... oh ya... dont forget to send me all the photograph you took! Endy, FYI, Nick is now addicted to photography... haha... i have another gang! yay! BTW Nick, my Vaio is better than your MacbookPro... hahahaha... and no matter how good the computer is, the picture editing still depends on the person, not the computer, you idiot! haha... really miss you pal! hope to see you soon... and... dont worry, i still remember to get your transcript from SCT... i'll get it tomorrow morning!

Endy,
i'll catch up soon k... wanna browse the net for now! bye!

NY or...
Tasha