1 week of madness!

Time: 6.16 a.m.
Venue: My Kitchen
Mood: Happy
Condition: Worried
Currently: Listening to Sayang Sayang, sang by Alif Aziz...

Endy,
Again, for i dont know how many times, i have to apologize to you.... i'm really sorry Endy... sorry for abandoning this blog... i lost interest in lots of thing nowadays... maybe because i was too busy with my brand new life with him... well, life still goes on as usual, but i have to add an extra slot for him... i want to spend quality time with him...

so, it's like almost a week i didnt write to you right??? the last time was the time i declare to you that i'm taken... well, today is thursday... i dont have class later but still going to college to finish up my video assignment... i still need to shoot video... me and Melita are doing ghost movie titled Dare Not. well, her part is done... now left mine... i have to design SCT flag for our Sports Carnival too... i'm done with the players' list.... FINALLY! that Yong is useless... bugging me with the list.... so, today i'm gonna go to college, grab some food, meet Corrine for my Video Camera form, then go to lab to do some research on the flag design.... next, i'm gonna meet Victor for the flag design.... Melita and Raymond may tag along... we have to finish it by today... if not, Victor is gonna kill me! hehe... and i really have to finish up my video today... tomorrow is the last submission date!

i skipped lots of class nowadays... i'm fucking up my 3D classes mostly... i hate 3D... but Mr. Asmadi s trying his best to help me, since i skip lots of class.... dont worry Sir.... i'm smart... i could catch up... i'll prove it in my assignment! hahahaha... lansi!! oh well, speaking of 3D, reminds me of the lab work that i have to pass up... by Friday! hahah... damn stress!! today is really gonna be a busy day for me! i'm suppose to go to Bukit Jalil but i cancelled it... because my workload is just too much! i'm sorry dear! i know i already promise you... but i just cant... works comes first...

Endy,
since i havent write to you for almost a week, let me briefly update what i've been doing for the last 6 days... well, last Friday, i went to Mr. Asmadi's class, fool around with the 3D Max Studio and i skipped Mr. Tee's class.... i hate programming... seriously... but dont worry Endy... i got the notes from SuWeng.... hehehe.... thanks SuWeng... you're such an angel.. you're always an angel...

on Saturday i attend that stupid 4 hours Oracle class... phew... it was seriously boring... come on Sir... we do have basic in MySQL... so, basic Oracle shouldnt be a problem for us! after that killing class, i went Pyramid to get a new bag... and yes, i finally bought a bag... remember i promise myself that i'm gonna keep my saving for something else??? yes, i really manage to spend a little money for my bag... i'm so happy for myself... i actually liked few bag.... but i finally bought this huge black shiny Nike bag... i'm in love with it... i'm proud of myself! then i get some other stuff like my sandal, nose-ring and etc. then, Matthew finally arrived! we plan to go to Bukit Jalil together.... so, from Pyramid we hoop on a bus to KTM Subang Jaya and took the train to Bandar Tasik Selatan station... then... blablabla... we change 3 train in order to get there.... trust me, it was fun! Matthew is so not used of taking train! he's so spoilt! we stayed there until Sunday... we have so much fun! we dont really go anywhere... but hanging out with crazy people are really fun... Sunday night, Nick came with his last minute assignment... he asked me to help him, due to my bombastic english vocab (according to him).

we went back quite late.. around 4 something... i overslept for Mr. Johnny's class... shit man!! but i went for Mr. Ken's class... well, i love Mr. Ken's class.... he's good... and one thing bout him is he love photography too... he's concern bout his student... especially me... haha... sorry Sir... i skipped too much class... but i'll manage it... dont worry... on Tuesday i skipped his class, but this time with his permission... i went to Bukit Jalil... because we're going to Myanmar Festival in Inti Nilai... phew... speaking of the festival... i have too much fun there!! seriously... well, the party was not that great... i mean, compared to all of the party i've been too.... but this one is special in the sense that it's full of Myanmar student studying in Sunway College, Inti, APIIT and etc.... we have water fight for hours at the party... and you know what... i'm the victim for the guys... i dont know why! maybe because i'm tough to defeat... hahahaha... too bad guys... you're messing with the wrong girl...

Mido and me agreed to be single on that night... hehehe... at first we're single... but when the party is ending, we're sitting together and all.. people start staring at us... and again, we become the water victim... come one guys... dont envy us! we're newly coupled! hahaha... i am so proud when he intro me as his girl... yes dear, i do... i do appreciate it... makes me feel special... well, guys... one thing i have to confess for sure.... Myanmar chick are hot!!! especially when they're wet!! haahhaha.... the party finish around 12.... but we came back to Bukit Jalil around 4 something... me and Mido was really tired, cold and hungry by then... we went to Ja's place to grab my stuff and 7-eleven for cigarette then went straight home... i fell asleep when Mido is bathing... hahah... thats shows that i'm really tired.... honey, thanks for the food and coffee (even though you put cinnamon in it)... i love your cooking! hehehe.......

i came back from Bukit Jalil around 11 and again, i skipped my programming class... nevermind... i'll catch up... i sleep until 2.30 p.m. then, i went to Mr. Asmadi's class... i was late because i was discussing bout the namelist with that bugger, Yong! Mr. Asmadi is being such an angel, teaching me personally on how to draw the plane.... hehehe.. thanks Sir... after class, again, i took a nap... or does it considered as nap?? i slept at 5 something and woke up at 7 something... phew... i sleep a lot!! i'm just tired! too much activity for this week... then, i went to Bidara with my roommate... we ate dinner there... next, i head to AC... phew... i love AC so much!!! hahaha... there, Nick, Mido and Matthew is already waiting for me... they were playing already... damn... hahaha... Ja couldnt make it since he had some problem... well... i miss him!! my greatest big bro ever! 7-inches!(his nickname)... hahahah.... we played pool for few hours... then i went down to Starbucks with my dear... he needs coffee... haha.. you coffee addict! after coffee, again, i ate dinner... hahaha... i ate dry curry mee... damn nice! it's my fav. food in AC! next, we went up again... play pool while watching ManU vs. Barcelona... comments??? sucks!! the game sucks!! hahaa... ok-ok.. i better shut up now....

so, what's next?? haha... i came back around 5 just now... get a quick shower... and here i am now... typing to you! hahahaha...

Endy,
i felt happy... i finally felt happy... i'm happy because i know i'm not in love with him anymore.... the feeling are gone.... thank god... now... i learn from my mistake... dont depend on others too much... hurm... i have no comment when it comes to relationship... but i'll try to play it save... i dont want to get hurt once again Endy... not anymore... i'll always be careful... and honey... one thing for sure... i adore u.... thanks for everything....

Endy,
i wanna chat now.. i'll continue next time... hopefully i wont take that long to write anymore... hehehe.... bye Endy... i love you the most!

Truth,
Tasha

I'm Taken!

Time: 3.06 a.m.
Venue: IndahVilla Condo
Mood: Happy
Condition: Kinda worn-out
Currently: Missing him...

Endy,
hi there, buddy... do you know how much i miss you!!!? well, sorry for not writing... i'm really busy this week... not busy with college... instead, i was busy fooling around... hahaha... i skipped 3 days of class... Mr. Ken, my Video Production lecturer wanted to see me... well, i know what he wants.... he want to lecture me on the video techniques... yeah, he's a great lecturer... Mr. Magen, my Oracle lecturer sucks to the max... it's already week 3 and he's still teaching MYSQL command... hurm... i dont regret of skipping that class...

ok, i dont want to talk bout studies... really lost interest in studies for this week... dont worry, i'll be just fine... i'll develop my interest back... i'll go to class tomorrow... so, what did i do for this week??? well, this is the thing that i really wanna share with you... well, you deserve to know this... you've been with me with whatever condition... so, i know you really deserve this important news... i went to Bukit Jalil(BJ) last Saturday... hang-out at one of my bro's place, Ja. we meet in BB on Saturday and i followed them home after smoking shisha in BB... BJ was fun with them... even though that place is kinda dead, spending time with them is seriously fun... hurm... we went to KLCC on Sunday and have lots of fun... i felt like i got back my life... no more fake friends... i mean, for now... we dont know people, right??? on Monday, we went to Berjaya Times Square with few peeps for movie... we watched Street King... for me, that movie is quite slow... hahaha... so it's kinda boring... Tuesday we went to Asia Cafe and i'm finally home! i went to programming class the next morning with a sleepy head!!! hahaha....

hurm... that's the synopsis of this week's activity... the news that i wanna tell you is about my relationship... well, this is kinda shocking news for my girls... but i dont know how this happen... it happens just like that... i'm now officially taken by someone from Bukit Jalil on Tuesday morning... well, i knew him since last year when he was studying in Sunway... but we got hooked back by my bro, Ja. we became closer and i feel that i like his attitude and thinking... so, here i am, being his official girlfriend... kinda happy now... but to be frank, i'm not sure about this relationship... i'm just scared to put too much hopes due to what had happen to me... but what i know is... i really like him... love?? i dont know... there should be some inside my heart.... the conclusion is... i like the way he treated me... and the best thing bout him is he accepted me for who i am... even though he knew that i'm crazy... hahaha....

Endy, i cant talk much now even though i have so much to tell you... i have to sleep... i have 10.30 class later on and i'm seriously tired now... i just came back from Pyramid... i met him just now with Nicholas and Matthew... i'll catch up with you next time... love you, pal... take care... bye...

i hope this is for real,
Tasha

Heineken presents Tiesto 02 Days of Freedom @ Admiral Marina, Port Dickson, 9 & 10 May

Time: 19.10
Venue: My house
Mood: Kinda sad
Condition: ......
Currently: Listening to Total Eclipse of The Heart, sang by Westlife

Endy,
Frankly speaking, i started missing him.... i dont know why i started developing this strange feeling. i was ok for a few months... now... i'm seriously weak... yeah, i look as if i'm fine and feel fine too... but i knew my self very well... i knew that deep inside me, i'm actually aching...

maybe because right now i feel like i dont have friends anymore... i miss penang a lot because i knew i have friends there... i dont know who to talk to.... i wish i could share this with someone, but who? nobody is here to listen, Endy. i have only you.... i mean, i only trusted you. sometimes, i just feel like i want to let this tears down, but i knew i can't. something is preventing it. something called promise. i know that i'm strong enough to go through this life. but sometimes i just need a break from this life. i need someone to hug me and tell me that it's ok to cry. if he's around, i dont mind crying because i know, there's someone to wipe my tears and tell me to stop crying.

i was in CL2 just now. i was trying to finish up on my proposal. i did few part of it, and it's only 40% done. i have to pass it up next Monday. i'm stuck. i cant type any of the proposal anymore. i have lots of idea on that project, but i just cant work today. i needed a break. Endy, will he call me on my birthday? i'm planning a party with my dudes on my birthday. i knew it's gonna be fun. my party is always fun. but i know that it's not what i want. i just want to celebrate it with the one i love the most. why Endy? why is it hard for me to delete him? i have lots of people waiting for me. am i a fool?

God, please help me going through this life. i need you to make me stand. please delete him from my life. i do miss him, a lot. if i were to choose, i'll choose him out of anything in this world. it's just stupid that we broke up. i'm a believer. i believe in you. i believe in us. and until today, i'm still waiting for an answer. i'm so confused. what did i do wrong? or you're just fooling around?

Endy, i dont have mood to type anymore... before i go, i wanna invite everybody to this event... check it out....

Hear the beats thumping? No? Strain your ears because the beats are coming closer! The anticipated 02 Days of Freedom will take place on 9 and 10 May at Admiral Marina, Port Dickson. DJs that need no introduction - Tiësto, Ferry Corsten and Cosmic Gate are slated to headline the festival. With two outdoor arenas, an onsite shopping village featuring bars, cafes and stalls, it’s one beach party where you can kick back and relax to some electronic dance music, or paint the beach red with some all-night dancing.

Tickets RM88 (presale, one day pass) RM153 (presale, two day pass). RM113 (door sale, one day pass) and available at Axcess outlets at Axcess Box Office 1 Utama, Rock Corner Midvalley, Axcess Office at Jalan Semangat and Tower Records, KLCC. For more info, call 03- 7711 5000 or visit www.axcess.com.my

hurt,
Tasha