Thursday, January 12, 2012

Al-Quran



Ade beberapa persoalan timbul bila tgk video ni. So, cuba kaji lagi. tambah berminat dgn sejarah tamadun manusia. benda ni makes sense jugak. Charles Darwin menipu selama ni? Well, tak pernah percaya pun Charles Darwin tu. Manusia evolves dari monyet? LOL. 

Jadi, tadi tatau kenapa pegi carik bacaan Al-Quran Surah 1 sampai 20 (sempat download sampai situ je). Then carik terjemahan. Then carik website yg ade huraian terjemahan. Carik forum perbincangan. Well, i think i know what to do for the rest of this 3 months holiday!

My brother gave me a very interesting link THE REVELATION. A very long read, so take your time reading it. As much as I would on my Al-Quran. Hopefully we'll get some answer during the long enjoyable reading. 

BTW, I'm back in Penang! 

Tasha

Monday, January 09, 2012

Saturday, January 07, 2012

It's very hard to let go.

Surprisingly, it's only 7th of January, and I'm already posting a sad post. Don't worry, I'm fine, just emo. I'm going back to Penang on Monday. Looking at his face, I couldn't bring my heart home.

I am being clingy? Or do i have problem letting go?

*tears*

Tasha

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

13 years?

Dear Endy,
Today (i meant yesterday) i went out with one of my old friend from my primary school. His name is Izhar. It's been 13 years since we last met. Yes! The last time i meet him was in 1999. We were just a little kid back then. I am very happy to meet him, as we used to have such a great childhood together. We talk a lot. Reminiscing memories of our school days, our dearest friends and our moment together as kids. 

First, we meet up at KLCC around 12.30p.m., had lunch at Pepper Lunch, and of course, start talking about everything. Seriously, i had a great time. It's been a while since I am this happy. It's very refreshing to meet old friends and talk bout beautiful memories. Then, we went out to the park and walk around this we got exhausted and settle down on a bench under a nice shade of tree. There, again, we continue chatting our heart out, also bout memories. Seriously, i miss primary school. I miss being that little devil i used to be. I was such a happy kid back then. 

Then, Izhar suggested that we go for shisha session. So, he brought me to an arabic restaurant somewhere in KL (seriously can't recall where, I'm always lost in KL), and we get ourselves a pot of mint tea. At this point, i remembered my ex, who loves that tea. Again, we sat down and continue our story. Brought up lots of issue. Talk bout our schoolmates. Chat randomly and basically bout our current life. He told me that I changed a lot. LOL. I guess it's called growing up, my friend.

Next, we went for movie. Went to Pavilion and there's like a gazilion people there. Oh ya, note to all my readers, PLEASE DO NOT WATCH 11.11.11 because it is a nonsense movie. I actually feel sleepy watching that movie! BORING! Okay before i start blabbering on the movie, I better keep on track. My story is about my old friend, not that damn movie! LOL. We finally feel tired and decided to go back when the time hits 8.30p.m.!

Well, honestly, I really enjoy myself today. I've never been this happy for such a long time. Meeting Izhar after 13 years, really brings back such jolly memories. I love my school, and I love all of my friend. There's nothing that could replace a true friend. 

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Dear Izhar,
Thank you very much for such a lovely day. I would like to answer your question actually. You asked me either you've change. Yes, you do not change much as a person. I could still see the same boy i used to know 13 years ago. But, i guess your parents had done an excellent job of raising you into a gentleman. Yes, indeed you are. You used to tease me to the max during school, pulled my hair, kick my chair and yada yada yada. Today, I could see that the boy i used to know is no longer there. That boy who used to bully me actually opens the door for me, letting me go through the door first, and that boy is also concern bout what i think of him (yes i told you today that i don't judge, but i observe). You did apologize for your jokes, worrying that i will take it personally. Well, you don't have to worry bout me. I'm still the same Tasha you used to know. Just that I now wear 3 inch makeups and heels. LOL. Deep inside me, I am still the same Tasha. 

To be honest, I like talking to you. Sharing our point of view over life and society. Sharing our experience with jobs and workplace. Sharing just anything that came across our mind. It's seriously splendid to talk to someone who actually understand the value of quality talk. I've notice that you're very wise now. I can see that you think before you speak. I can sense that you analyze things surrounding you. That's actually a very healthy habit. I hope I didn't bore you with my stories and blabbering. I'm always a chatterbox when I'm in a comfort zone. Also, I would like to apologize if I've said something inappropriate, makes lame jokes, being to sarcastic and cynical and maybe being shallow in some point of view. But yeah, that's me. 

Nevertheless, I would like to convey my highest appreciation for being such a great company today. Seriously, i had fun. I hope that you have fun too. I'm so flattered to meet you today. I hope we'll keep in touch and stay friends forever. 

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Alright, I'm exhausted. Gotta get my arse into bed. Nite!


Sunday, January 01, 2012

New Year Resolutions?

This year keep it simple.

1. To know more friends in Taylor's.
2. To get 4.0 C.G.P.A.
3. To draw and paint better.
4. To drink water, instead of soda.

5. To lose 20kg. HAHAHAHA.
6. To blog religiously.



HAPPY NEW YEAR.

What's yours?

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Mellow down?

Dear Endy,

I was reading some of my entries. some sad, some happy, mostly sarcastic and critic towards surrounding environment. Then, come to think bout it, why was I so eloquent with that? My habit? My nature? Or I am just plain rude? Am I?

Apparently, ending of the year is usually a very sentimental moment in my life. I come to think of what I've done the whole year. Was I useful to the society? Have I done enough good deeds to people surrounding me. Who have I annoy and hurt? 

From where I'm standing right now, 2011 wasn't really a good year for me. Well, except for my studies. the rest is nonsense. I've been hiatus on so many things. i choose not to participate in a lot of important events. I tends to like being alone. Worst of all, i dont give a fuck on people anymore.

Have i become that heartless?

What's wrong with me?

reading through most of my posts, i feel like, i've been bad. i've been nasty. i think i could write better words. words that won't hurt people, yet hard enough to make them think of their action and consequences. I almost unpublished a few of my post because i was too embarrassed to read it. i was that mean bitch. 

but then again, i refuse to delete. because, whatever it is, that was me. that is the person i used to be. I don't know either any of my friends, relatives, colleagues and schoolmates could tolerate me the way I am, or, i could be a better person? Well, yeah, obviously everyone wants to be better each passing day. But, the question is, what do i need to change? Do tell me. I'm listening.

ok, i know most of my friend will be like, WTF is Tash crapping? She's been like that her entire life. hey peeps, i'm trying to be a better person. Do help me alright? For what it's worth, I curse less, I prevent myself from being sarcastic most of the time, I start to listen to others, I'm kicking off my bad habits.

Despite all that, i still use the word FUCK and BITCH a lot. 

So yeah, Tash is still Tash. 

Just trying to be better. Alright?

Tash

Friday, December 30, 2011

Orientation Leader

Alright, let's come clean, I sit at home all day long, thinking what to post for today's entry. I almost gave up on today's content. that's how bad I am at writing nowadays!!!

then, this email came in:

LOL..... this just made my day!

Such a good start for new year! 2012 is so gonna be a good year. It is my year btw. DRAGONNN!!!

Thursday, December 29, 2011

I'm back, I promise!

Hello fellow bloggers!

Yes,
i've been missing for the whole year. WTF happen to me? Truth is, i've lost interest to update my blog. but i do feel empty without having a schedule to write something everyday. So, i guess i'm back to this line. Gonna start writing starting today onwards. might be a tough one to follow though, since i've leave blogging world for so long. so pardon me for my bad grammar and lack of vocabulary. i've lost the dictionary in my head! 

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So, what's up with you guys? How's life? Yes, i really mean this question. do drop by and comment. i do read everyone's comment. My life have been kinda crooked this year. well, there's three things that happen to me during this year. 



first, i dump Jack last year. he's a total jerk. doesn't really matter now. i have someone better. oh yeah, feel free to judge me. i can jump into relationship faster than a train. life is short, why spend time to think either he's the one or not? just be with him and see if it works. for now, i'm still on a fence bout this new guy. 

second, as i posted earlier, i finally continue my degree. I'm doing B.A. (Hons) Graphic Communication Design at Taylor's University, Lakeside Campus. so, if anyone happens to be there, do contact me. we could go for a  drink or something. it's a nice place to hangout. i've finish my first semester, A VERY TOUGH FIRST SEMESTER, and i'm not even happy with my results. Taylor had been a different study environment for me. i mix with the right student, go to class religiously, attendance is 98%, stay back till 5a.m. just to finish up a project, meet my lecturer everyday and yada yada yada. so, i am very disappointed when i get bad result. anyways, i will make sure my next semester will be better, and more A for me! This is my dream for heaven's sake. i need to work my ass up!

(will upload the pic of the result once my internet is fine)



third, i think i lost all of my bestie. for some reason, they seems so far away. maybe it's something i did, maybe it's something i said, i don't know. i tried asking, and nobody gave me the exact answer. so yeah, i guess i'll just let it go and move on with my life. i will make new friends, which i already have, and start a really fresh new life. i will never let anyone interfere into my feelings anymore. nobody could make me feel bad, even though i lost my bestie or whatsoever. 

anyways people, i will be having 3 months holiday. My next intake will be on April the 8th. i think i will enroll into drawing and painting class during this holiday. need to enhance my skills for next semester. 

Lastly, Welcome back Tash to blogging world. I've missed this actually. blogging for me is like soul searching. to write what i feel, and whatever that i like. it's very refreshing. i want to have that feeling once again. 

I'm back, I promise!

Till then.

Tasha Leow


Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Condolences

My deepest condolences to Kak Mynn who lost her father on 24th December 2011.

Yaasin.

Friday, October 28, 2011

The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe



Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
"'Tis some visitor," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door -
Only this, and nothing more."

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore -
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating,
"'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door -
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; -
This it is, and nothing more."

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
"Sir," said I, "or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you"- here I opened wide the door; -
Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortals ever dared to dream before;
But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, "Lenore?"
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, "Lenore!" -
Merely this, and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
"Surely," said I, "surely that is something at my window lattice:
Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore -
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; -
'Tis the wind and nothing more."

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore;
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door -
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door -
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore.
"Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou," I said, "art sure no craven,
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the Nightly shore -
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning- little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blest with seeing bird above his chamber door -
Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as "Nevermore."

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered- not a feather then he fluttered -
Till I scarcely more than muttered, "other friends have flown before -
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before."
Then the bird said, "Nevermore."

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
"Doubtless," said I, "what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore -
Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore
Of 'Never - nevermore'."

But the Raven still beguiling all my fancy into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust and door;
Then upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore -
What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking "Nevermore."

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamplight gloated o'er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamplight gloating o'er,
She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then methought the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by Seraphim whose footfalls tinkled on the tufted floor.
"Wretch," I cried, "thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he hath sent thee
Respite - respite and nepenthe, from thy memories of Lenore:
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! -
Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted -
On this home by horror haunted- tell me truly, I implore -
Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil - prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore -
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore -
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore."
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Be that word our sign in parting, bird or fiend," I shrieked, upstarting -
"Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken!- quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming,
And the lamplight o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted - nevermore!
People call it the best poem bla bla bla. i call it nonsense!

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