Zaman itu dah over ok!

Step-step aku berchatting kat FB.

1. Orang PM aku.
2. aku tak kenal, so aku tanye sape?
3. Dia ckp nak kenal.
4. Aku ckp bye.
5. Aku bukak profile dia.
6. Aku delete.
7. Aku block.
8. Settle.

Yes, i am that straight-forward.

• Mintak maaf la kalau ko nak ckp aku ni sombong ke, prasan lawa ke, bajet cun ke, ape-kejadah ke.
• Tapi aku mmg tak boleh nak layan spesies-spesies manusia mcm ko.
• Randomly add org pastu ajak chat, konon-konon nak berkenalan.
• Sorry la kalau korang nak anggap aku sombong, tp aku bosan ok kalau sehari kene layan 10 malaun mcm ni.
• Aku bosan dgn perangai-perangai typical mcm ni.
• Kalau ko pm awek tu pastu awek tu tak berminat, tutup je chatbox tu, move on dgn awek lain plak.
• Takyah nak ckp dia sombong ke, bongkak ke, ape ke.
• Lagi satu, ayat2 "hi, A.S.L. pls, boleh kenal, mcm kenal la, umur brapa, tinggal mana, keje ke study, buat apa, tak tido lagi ke, awak ni mix ke" tak payah la nak tanya aku. aku dah muak chatting mcm ni zaman2 skolah dulu. I'M DONE!
• Dunia ni luas, aku mungkin tak suka layan, tp pompuan lain mungkin suka layan.
• So, ko gi carik ur match ok?
• BTW, bukan aku gedik-gedik nak approve friend request ko. kadang-kadang aku approve sebab aku ingat member-member lama aku. tambah-tambah lak ada 100 mutual friend. rupa-rupanya ko add semua geng2 aku. 
• Malaun-malaun berkenaan kalau aku ter-ADD aku takkan pikiaq 2 kali nak remove.
• Harap maklum.

**Edit: Beberapa minit lepas aku post entry ni, dia inbox aku kat FB pulak. malas mau cerita panjang. tgk sendiri print screen. kali ni aku malas nak censored nama dia.

Jalang

WARNING: THIS IS A HATRED ENTRY. GET OUT IF YOU ARE THE FAIRY PRINCESS SEEKER.

Ok, aku taktau pasaipa la aku gatai sgt tangan pi search FB pompuan gila tu. kalau follower lama blog ni, hangpa tau la aku dok ckp pasai sapa. my no 1 enemy dalam hidup aku. satu jalang yg cukup aku benci for almost 7 years now. Taktau pasaipa, maybe sebab aku boring, or sebab aku dah rasa aku sgt best dari dia (selama ni mmg aku best dari dia pun), aku tiba2 rasa nak stalk FB dia. Puncanya, ada satu minah ni, email kat aku pic2 PANAS dia few years back. harini aku buat housekeeping email, terjumpa lak email lama tu. 

Yes, berdosa dendam lama2. tapi dia ni mmg jalang tahap sial nye. sumpah kalau aku jumpa dia skarang, aku takkan fikir 2 kali nak sepak terajang dia. malangnya, 7 tahun, dia langsung tak brani tunjuk muka! haram jadah nya betina. aku tgk profile dia. tgk pic dia (jgn tanya mcm mana aku boleh access private profile, i have my ways). WTF dia still LOSER! sumpah LOSER. betina yg konon2 nya kaya tahap perdana menteri, keturunan sempoi2, cantik & seksi, and typical modern woman  (tah celah mana modern) rupa2 nya skarang life dia sgt sucks. life aku better kot. walaupun aku kena work and study. 

BF yg 2-3 years back tu still BF dia. dress up still typical nak mati. konon2 vogue la tu. singlet MNG (yg sure beli time 70%), skinny jeans and necklace yg tak penah tukar2. OMG. have you ever heard of fashion? skarang aku tgk profile pic dia, still jalang yg sama. trying her best to have a cleavage. apa hang ingat boobs ang besar sgt ka? HAKTUIH!

Dia ni sgt wannabe tau. apa aku buat dulu, semua dia nak buat. apa aku beli semua dia nak beli. apakejadah ya minah ni????? skarang aku tgk dia sgt nak berbaik dgn geng2 aku plak. come on. cermin diri tu! ada ka patut dia ckp aku ni PENIPU? dia ckp family aku org susah, lagi susah dari dia. dia ckp family aku bukan mix, aku melayu tulen. haramjadah pa nya woi? sesusah2 family aku, I WENT TO A FUCKING PRIVATE COLLEGE. hang masuk local U ja kot!!!!!!! tu pun pakai PTPTN. kaya sgt kaaaa???????? 

Ni bodo, kalau aku ni melayu tulen, celah mana mai Tasha Leow! celah mana mai mata sepet? celah mana mai kulit putih? apa bangang sgt ang ni!!! and dengki tang mana bapak aku cina? anyway, what's the big deal of being mix anyway? aku tau la ang tak boleh blah..... always under my shadow kan????? you try to steal the limelight, yet you failed even to get close to my shadow. come on la. hang dgn aku, aku CANTIK lagi (yes aku prasan lawa dari jalang ni). 

hang nak tak aku print billboard besaq2 gambaq panas ang????? i think 20k is nothing for me, asalkan hati aku puas. tp aku ni bukan jenis jalang mcm ang, nak menyibuk hal org. ang nak buat dosa tu ang punya pasai laaa! bukan pinjam bf aku pun. oh ya, speaking of bf, ingat lagi tak dulu ang sukaaaaaaa sgt kutuk bf org. bf org ni buruk, bf org tu bodo, bf budak tu miskin, and yada yada yada. skarang apa dah jadi???? BF ang mcm malaun terencat ja aku tgk. come on laaa... wei pompuan, what goes around comes around, KAN???? euwww... tadak taste toi ang ni. desperate sgt ka????

***

tp hati aku puas. sah2 life aku better. skarang budak2 yg dulu tak ckp dgn aku pun dah back with me. ang ada pa? obviously your CLASS is way lower than mine. you life to serve people like me. ish.... rasa mcm nak terajang ang la. ang ada mana ar? mai sini sat. aku nak tendang juboq ang 10 kali! 

to my babes, i guess you girls know la kan, aku tgh maki hamun sapa ni. ish tatau pasaipa... tiba2 dendam aku naik balik pagi ni. 

sekian terima kasih kerana membaca sampai habis maki hamun aku. sekurang2 nya marah aku kurang. tadak la aku pi sodok juboq sapa2 pasni. makasihhhhhhhhh!

p/s: komen la apa angpa mau. janji jgn dok buat ustaz/ustazah tang ni, dok nasihat aku dendam tu tak elok, musuh tu tak baik, bla bla bla. SUMPAH aku delete ja!

I still hate you bitch,

Tasha Leow

Aku lagi best dari ang ok!

WARNING: This is a hatred entry. So, expect me to be snobbish and rude. Aku tadak niat nak menghina sapa2, kecuali pompuan gila tu. So, angpa yg len2 toksah dok buat terasa. mau penampaq ka?

Tadi aku terbukak pic kawan yang aku agak menyampah la. Well, kami tak la sampai tahap bergaduh. but, mmg nampak la dia tak suka aku, and aku pun tak suka dia. Aku sendiri pun tatau pasaipa dia mmg anti dgn aku. padahal aku mmg ok dgn dia. Tapi sejak dia menghina aku, SORRY la kan. mmg aku pangkah la betina ni.

Well, she's the type yg aku nak golongkan into 3 type of people:

1 - Settle with just an ordinary life.

2 - Thinks that she had the perfect life.

3 - Look down on others.

Ok, number 1 tu aku tak kisah sgt. definition of "happy" tu memang la sgt2 wide. very various. tapi for a belagak person like her, why do you just settle with ordinary? why didnt strive for the best? orang yg kononnya nak pakai sports car, buy houses in places like bukit antarabangsa and such.... why didnt i see the sparkle in your life? why just ordinary? well, selama ni pun dia dok kritik aku. 

dia kondem brand2 yg aku pakai. not that aku peduli pun. baju RM10 pun aku pakai kalau aku suka. pasar malam pun aku pi. aku kira pa. tak percaya, pi tanya Cik Hasnas Jafri, my bff. kami pi pasar malam nak beli bihun sup sedap tu, tp on the way, nampak kedai jual earring. kami boleh pi stop, beli earring yg super cute, harga RM1 ja per pair. see, i'm not a brand victim. aku pakai apa aku nak. i dont give a heck bout brands. 

Yes, aku gila Charles & Keith wedges, Christine Louboutin stilettos, Ferragamo handbag, Coach wristlet, Estee Lauder makeup, and bla bla bla. whatever shit it is la kan. aku mmg ada certain brand yg aku akan beli certain item. sebab aku rasa design dia sgt catchy. sesuai dgn jiwa aku. tp yg aku tak paham, pasaipa pompuan ni nak kepoh2 hal aku? Aku tau aku suka fashion and aku tau aku fashionable (walaupun kadang2 aku pakai benda pelik2). pompuan ni plak just pakai blouse makcik2, and beggie jeans yg aku tatau zaman bila punya dia pakai. 

in short, she's trying to compare herself with me! aku tak heran pun. whatever la kan. like i care. pompuan ni dah la pendek dari aku. ok, aku 5' 3" which is sgt short, coz most my my girls mmg 5' 7". imagine that girl, i guess she's about 5' ja kot. oh ya, she's like 80kg, which is super fat! she had oily face, uneven skin tone, BLACK HEADS!, and paired up with an ugly smile. I didnt see how is she suppose to compare with me? Even aku yg buruk ni pun cakap dia buruk. OMG. tak bley blah ok spesies mcm ni. 

Wait, lets compare.

Aku Graphic Designer

Hang Clerk

Aku grad Sunway University

Hang drop out of some cheap college

Aku berkawan dgn future doc, future lawyer, future tourism expert, future bla bla bla bla.

Hang.......TADAK KAWAN!

Aku baju saiz M

Hang saiz XXL?

Aku makeup sgt vouge

Hang makeup makcik2 (sumpah aku nak tergelak tgk eyeshadow tak blend ang)

Aku akan sambung study

Hang duduk rumah tak buat apa

Aku akan start career aku

Hang duduk rumah tak buat apa

Aku akan succeed dlm hidup

Hang STILL duduk rumah tak buat apa

EXCEPT ang akan cuba compare diri ang dgn aku

try your best to make me look bad in your eyes

and ended up and sendiri yg bodoh!

kan kan kan?

P/s: Jack, if we ever got married, she'll be on my VIP list. I really wanted to rub her face with my Tiffany! It's a dream come true moment!

P/s/s: Maryam sah2 tau aku tgh ckp pasai sapa! wakakakak.

Not Everyone Wants The Same Shit.

Phases of life in Malaysia:

• Graduate high school, received SPM cert.
• Get Diploma/A-Level/Pre-U/Matriculation/etc.
• Pursue Degree.
• Work your ass out.
• Climb up career ladder, or in some cases, career remain static.

ok... what's next???? 

Your makcik, pakcik, kepoci neighbour, kawan-kawan stereotaip, penyibuk-penyibuk di FB, and etc expects you to

• GET MARRIED!!!???!!!????????!!!!????!!!

ok, i understand, marriage is one phase of life that everyone, i mean, MOST of us, will go through. but please put in your mind that NOT EVERYONE WANTS THE SAME SHIT. ok, i'm not implying that getting married is a SHIT. just stressing out the point that we all wants different shit of things. 

whenever i made a statement, "i dont want to get married", everyone will go like, OMG. and i will receive comments like;

"kawin tu menyempurnakan kehidupan"

"kawin tu best"

"ko taknak kawin ke" (said with a shocking face)

u know, such a comment.

damn it people, what's wrong with u guys?

• korang kawin awal, I NEVER SAY A WORD.
• korang anak 2,3,4,5,6,7...... I NEVER SAY A WORD.
• korang kawin laki org, I NEVER SAY A WORD.
• korang call aku, gaduh dgn laki korang, i listen attentively, and, I NEVER SAY A WORD.
• korang citer and bitch bout ur in laws, I NEVER SAY A WORD.

byk lagi la isu. but i think u got my point here.

so, with this, takyah la korang nak judge life aku. suka hati aku la nak kawin ke tak ke. the thing is, even my Jack never say a word bout it. he never complaints. why do you guys have to be so "CARING" all of the sudden? why? just to compare who's got the best husband? best wedding? best flawless ring? best wedding dresses? OMG. LAME, may i say. 

yes, most of you would want to get married. 

no, i dont want to get married. 

i'm not saying that this is my permanent decision FOREVER. just not now. what is the big fuss anyway? when i told you i dont have any plans on marriage, all of you act as if i'm an alien. HELLO people, worlds doesnt evolve just around you, you know?

how can you say that getting married is the best thing ever? i mean, back to what my dad said. he always tells me not to say something is THE BEST, unless you've experience it all. so, i'm asking you one question. how do you say, being married is the best life ever? how do you know being single is not the best life ever? HOW?

DEFINE HAPPINESS?

well, you can't, can you?

because happiness is a very subjective manner.

furthermore, everyone calls me materialistic for demanding a house and a Tiffany. WHO THE HECK are you to care? seriously? for heaven's sake, if i'm not getting any of that from the man that i love, i'll get it myself. i know i can afford that. what's your problem? seriously?

********

ok, lemme share my idea of a perfect life to you.

you might have a different perspective of life. 

that's what made this world so colorful anyway.

feel free to share it in my comment box.

it's open for all.

My idea of a perfect life:

• Being an Art Director in a publishing company.
• Own at least 3 business, running smoothly.
• Get out from office the latest at 6.
• Have drinks with my girls after work.
• A great date with the person i love, that'll be dinner.
• Go back home, do my personal stuff, such as, do my nails, reading my fav book, watching TV series, etc.
• Go for short trip on weekends. 
• Go to spa whenever i feel like it.
• Own a town house, beach house and a service resident condo.

ok that's it. that's what i want to achieve in life. yeah, most of you will say, i'm dreaming too much. i'm being arrogant. bla bla bla. but this is a dream. my dream life. nobody have the right to condemn it. because everyone have their own preferences in life.

so, the point of this entry is.....

STOP ASKING ME WHEN AM I GETTING MARRIED.

and 

STOP JUDGING ME FOR BEING SINGLE.

*by SINGLE, i mean, not married. I'm not single. I'm taken, by Jack*

and

I HAVE A GREAT, FANTASTIC LIFE, ENOUGH SAID.

P/s: even if i'm getting married, you're not invited. thank you.

Ace

Tasha Leow

Tipikal Sikap Melayu

Aku cakap aku mau tambah bisnes,

...diorang kondem.

Aku tanya soalan serius,

...diorang jawab main-main.

Aku buat survey market,

...diorang komen merapu-rapu. konon lawak. HAKTUIH.

Aku tengah lakar layout blog,

...diorang cakap aku tipikal seller. jual benda sama.

Aku mahu majukan bisnes,

...diorang sibuk suruh aku kawin. katanya biar husband jaga aku. WTF?

Cara-cara berbisnes pantas dikalangan manusia begini:

• Isnin aku pi amik barang.
• Selasa aku celebrate birthday Jack.
• Rabu aku pi clubbing dgn *menziarah* kawan2 kolej aku.
• Khamis aku balik Penang.
• Jumaat aku setup. Aiza @ Budak Kecik wajib mai!
• Mampoih pi kat angpa nak ckp pa pun, aku bukak kedai SABTU ni!

Dalam masa 4 bulan ni, aku KEJA KEJA KEJA KEJA KEJA.

Januari tahun depan aku masuk Bachelor of Arts (HONS) in Visual Communication Semester 7 bayar fees guna profit yg aku dpt tu.

Settle.

Ang tak puas hati tang mana habaq mai kat aku,

Tasha Leow

Komen entry ni kalau hang still baca blog aku sampai hari ni!

Fuh ramai rupanya readers aku ni lagi. ramai rupanya masih suka aku menulis. yang peliknya, korang suka sgt aku kritik org. adeh. wakakakaka. yer aku tahu blog ni dulu mmg penuh dgn ayat2 sarcasm. mmg aku pun mcm tu org nya. aku mmg sarcastic. tp aku rasa skarang ni aku dah mellow down. ntah. cuma blog 10 KRITERIA POMPUAN TAK SEDAR DIRI  tu entri yg aku dah tahan lama sgt. mmg aku tak puas hati dgn diorang. byk email aku receive. suruh continue menulis. anyway, aku pun mmg dah mula menulis balik. semangat aku dah kembali. 

blog ni dah rakamkan mcm2 pengalamaan hidup aku. empat tahun aku dgn blog ni. byk benda yg aku ceritakan kat sini. aku pernah kena saman sebab blog ni. aku pernah bergaduh sebab blog ni. aku pernah dituduh tak setia sebab blog ni. byk lagi lah. kadang2 aku mmg rasa nak tutup je blog ni. sebab aku dah rasa aku menulis tidak lagi ikhlas dan jujur. terlalu byk hati nak dijaga. blog ni dah terlalu expose. ramai kawan and keluarga aku baca blog ni. even my beloved Jack pun dah mula hooked dgn blog ni.

for now, WHAT THE HECK, i'm back and i'm gonna continue writing. for best or worst, this is me.

take it or leave it.

as for Jack,

maybe this is the best platform for you to know me, study bout me and learn the truth of my life. honestly, there's no lies in this blog. none. written straight from my heart. 

aku maki org ka, puji org ka, meluat kat org ka, fall in love dgn org ka, mmg aku tulis direct. takde nak simpan2. yes, that's my style. again, let me stress is out, TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.

Press [X]

Press Esc

Press Ctrl + Alt + F4 

...if you dislike this blog. 

for the heck i care?

i do believe, i strongly believe, despites all haters out there, there's still a beautiful human creature who still loves me just the way i am.

i'm back,

that devil named Tash!

BOSAN!

aku dah fed-up dengan photographer melayu.
banyak songeh & suka berlagak pandai.
bila taktau photoshop pandai plak cari aku?

haktuih!

*********

update: boleh tak kalau jumpa aku jgn sembang pasal kamera? sangat bosan ok! yes aku tau korang "passion" terhadap fotografi (betul ke ejaan?). tp ada limit. jgn nak klua dgn aku gi sembang kat kedai mamak pun nak usung _____(insert slr model here). pastu dok kat mamak, bukak citer aperture, shutter, speedlight, props, bla bla bla.

lepastu...

*alamak faz call, sembang2 kejap, terus lupa apa aku nak taip

ok setelah berfikir beberapa minit....

lepastu, tanya aku, awat tak bawak slr, tasha? wtf? aku jawab, aku miskin, takde slr. pakai kamera henpon N95 je.

ok, dgn ini aku men-declare yg aku ni anti-photographer.

jgn sapa pun mai call, sms, ym, msn, myspace, etc just to ask me, " oh awak photographer. bla bla bla"

hakikatnya, aku bukan photographer. aku peminat photography dan aku belum sampai tahap PHOTOGRAPHER lagi.

taraf photographer ini terlalu special. aku cuma fancy kan PHOTOGRAPHER berikut;

1. Martin Evening
2. Strobist
3. Scott Kelby
4. Dave Hill
5. Ali Kabas
   

so, stop trying so hard to impress me. there's nothing to be impress btw!

sekian, harap maklum.

*memang ada kena mengena antara yang hidup atau mati.

*tidak dinafikan mmg ada photographer yg best, yg aku personally kenal, seperti scharewl, hafiz ismail, dan boi (ofcourse). mereka ni sgt cool dan best. respek.

FULLSTOP

tash

HOMOSEXUAL? SEXUALITY PREFERENCE?

time: 3:13 p.m.
venue: home
mood: confused?
currently: just finish reading an interesting entry.

Endy,
before i start my entry today, i would like to do a disclaimer. this entry is written from a liberalism point of view, no hatred towards anyone, nor being ANTI to pondan, and what not. i'm interested to write this entry because i think i do have an opinion on this issue. or to be exact, this entry is derived from a comment that i read from a blog.

ok, today, as usual, i'm blog-hopping everywhere, all around the world, reading nonsense story of break up, kittens born, buying new car, getting new gadgets, getting married, a girl showing off her boyfriend, yada yada yada. so, i read THIS ENTRY from a blog that i occasionally read. i recommended you read this entry first before reading this entry. or you can be a lazy ass, just stay tune with this entry.

i'm warning you, if you're over sensitive, not open-minded, hates me, too stupid to understand my purpose or writing, or just being a pain in the ass, please please please leave this blog immediately. i'm not here to entertain people who come here just to argue over something stupid, just to WIN the argument. we're not here to argue, we're here to share.

ok... i took this PIECE OF COMMENT from the linked entry. i saw how proud this guy, nicknamed there, PONDANLAHANAT, spilling the truth about pondan on how educated they are, how classy they are, how smart they are and et cetera. yeah, i might not be as highly educated as they are. i might not be as rich as they are. i might not be in a strong position as they are. BUT. but, i had enough education to think about how nasty the world could be. i think i'm rich enough to be able to travel around the world, to see how this pondan are discriminated everywhere. why? we'll see later. AND, even though i'm just a plain graphic designer, with all due respect, people still do look high on me, just because i'm being myself.

my point is, no matter what you do, how much you earn, who your parents is, how high is your education..... when it comes to ground zero, when human are all nude and judge by the one and only, WHERE DO YOU STAND?

ah yes, another issue will come out from their mouth... are you god to judge us? who are you to implement such rules? and most famous word of all..... "kita semua ni makhluk ciptaan tuhan". honestly, it sounded funny to me. you asked me, who am i to talk bout all this shit? but... you are doing the same shit. implementing your own rules, modifying the laws of nature, THEN... blaming/giving excuse(is this the right term, blaming?maybe.) god for making you this way.

oh shit, i'm crapping too much. let me spill the comment now.

please note that GREEN is the comment and PURPLE is my comment for the comment. lol.

#besar gile kepala ego blogger ni. mcm bagus. hahahhaa.

#perasan yg all those bapok nak rogol n stim kat ko ke.lol.

#so shallow.

ok, yada yada yada, he's cursing. wow, he claims that the writer is shallow. how weird.

*****

#ur writings shows ur insecurities of ur self/sexuality n u love to brag. u need to tell ppl, and need ppl tell u, that ur macho gila baban over n over again.

#and u need to kutuk other ppl's sexual preference again, to reaffirm urself(n to let other ppl know) again again that u are macho, and likes to have sex with female.

what do you mean by insecure? in this entry, he's obviously showing that he's straight and he's not confused of what he is. maybe you need to re-read the entry. i think it's ok even if he wanna show off his macho-ness again and again. at least he's proud of what god had created him. not applying fake stuff to be someone else. so now, you tell me who's confused.

*****

#pakcik..ppl who are straight and secure with their sexual preference will not diss bout other ppl or becoming homophobic.they dont even bother to even discuss about it...

#now dat ur r married. u become so paranoid koz u need to hide huge skeletons in ur closet by to dissing other ppl's sexuality to make urself feel better?

i am straight and i am secure with my sexuality. not sexual preference, but sexuality. there's no such thing as sexual preference, because it's already written that i'm a girl. however, i think every straight human being on earth are not only homophobic, but they're also disgusted with your attitude. when i say your, i mean you, GENERALLY. personally, i dont give a damn about pondan. it just triggered me when you GUYS are so proud of it, and showing it off everywhere. WTF are you thinking? seriously! showing off your make out picture on internet? did you see any normal couple who did that? NO, i dont.

*****

#read more, socialise more.it looks like u haf been living in a box.there are many ppl better,smarter,hotter,fitter,stronger,richer than you. the world doesnt rotate around you you know.

#"im not a sugar daddy. i am an abang angkat". ur blog title just say it all.

#stakat bapok,pondan yg korang duk nampak tu n kutuk2 tu, blom leh lawan lagi yg korang tkleh detect.hahahaa..

#we are everywhere...and many of us are highly educated,the mover n shakers.the strong pillars in various institution, finance,medical,ecomical,education,entertainment,laws..u name it, we are there..

read more? of what? gimme some revision. socialise more? where? PONDAN street? your club? socialise with who? give me. i wanna read and socialise more. i wanna be the guinea pig and see for myself. can i accept PONDAN after reading the material or the place/person you suggested. i've mix with at least 20 different nationality of people and they all dislike PONDAN. they even made fun of the name PONDAN.

i also have lots of gay, lesbian, tomboy and pondan friends. yes, they're all human being, fun to be with and have their own fantastic career. but, whenever i went out with them, when we chill in Starbucks or any coffee house, i could see the look in people. i could read their eyes. they dont give a fuck what's your education level is. they dont care how high is your office floor. all they saw is... a bunch of human being, who's in denial of who they really are. that's all.

why dont you and you and you, who claims to be highly educated with awesome job go to work this coming monday, make a small meeting with your colleague, and ask them to be honest, do they really feel comfortable with you? or they're just trying to ignore their feeling because they dont want you to be hurt. is that what you want in life? people surrounding you always being fake? and when you say to the writer " the world doesnt rotate around you", do you realize that you're implying that the world is rotating "AROUND" you? so now tell me, where does the world rotate? surrounding the laws that we made ourselves? oh ya, another note is, you GUYS are highly educated, but failed to understand simple basic laws of nature.

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#teruskan mengutuk n mengata.
- yup, memang aku akan terus mengutuk dan mengata, sebab angpa semua pun akan terus mengutuk dan mengata. aku tau, lepas ni blog ni konpem kena kecam. kena kutuk mcm2. contoh-contohnya:

• eh kau tu tuhan ke nak judge orang?
• eh pukimak la perempuan ni, dia fikir dia bagus?
• TASHA berani mampus..awasla kalau nampak muka buruk kau kat luar..aku lempang sampai tkleh crik jantan..ngaku je la ko sakit hati bf ko main pondan..atau pondan lebih elok dri kau..sume jantan yg ko taste sume dapek kat pondan kan?..siapa kau nk becakap agama..kalau rambut pun sepah2..bermulut lancang bagai?..dan jgn cakap ko masih dara ye..aku sontot pantat kau ngan kaki aku kang betina bodoh.. (amik dr salah satu komen di sana, nama ditukar)
• Tasha, muka u buruk la. Cuba u pakai tudung, MAYBE bole hide kehodohan u....hhaha....suruh pakai tudung tak mao...pondan pon pakai tudung ...uhuhuhuhu....mak larey dulu nyah! (amik dr salah satu komen di sana, nama ditukar)
• Tasha, u nie pompuan ataun pondan? sebab muka macam pondan tak siap....huhuhu (amik dr salah satu komen di sana, nama ditukar)
• ALA TASHA OIII... setakat pompuan sejati tapi aurat tak tutup, tak jaga, tak elok jugak dek non oiii...
  Jangan sebok nak kutuk orang lain, diri sendiri, pegangan agama pun entah ke mana... KAU GI LA BALIK PAKAI TUDUNG DULU... pas tu kau masuk sini balik dgn gambar kau bertudung ok??? baru la komen2 HANJENG kau tu akan make sense more... (amik dr salah satu komen di sana, nama ditukar)
• Tasha, pakai tudung dulu baru cakap pasal agama.....unless la you dapat special pass nak masuk syurga...oppsss.... (amik dr salah satu komen di sana, nama ditukar)
• Tasha, next time kalau nak bagi syarahan agama, sila bersyarah kat diri sendiri supaya pakai tudung...kalau u betul2 nak nasihat dan insafkan pondan2 tu, sila tunjukkan yang u pun ada pegangan agama yang betul.... pakai tudung tu tutup aurat....unless la u suka nak buka2 kan? Haahahhaha. X yah nak cakap Nabi Luth ker, akhirat ker, neraka ker kalau u sendiri masuk neraka sebab tak tutup aurat. Kalau lepas nie tak tutup aurat jugak, baik u diam aja la..... (amik dr salah satu komen di sana, nama ditukar)
• ko tu pun pakai skirt pendek, mekap tebal 1 inci, masuk kelab, klua dating dgn jantan, hisap rokok, sosial nak mampus, baju terdedah dan.... apa lagi? sila tambah.
  

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ok another comment that attracts me is this one.

kalo sekadar nak berckp kat blog mcm babcul...aku x rasa perlu... aku xmenyokong sesaper... just nak tnya... perlu ker ko menghina makhluk Allah S.W.T yang lain??? Tuhan ker ko untuk judge orang...buruk baik orang bukan kita manusia yang tentukan...kalo ada kawan2 kita yang sesat..kita patut bimbing...bukan hina.... dalam Islam pun memcela orang yang menghina orang lain... sedangkan nasib ko kat "sana" pun xder sapa yang tahu... xperlu mengata or menghina... sebaliknya cermin dulu diri...aku x rasa ko orang yang layak nak judge mana2 manuasia.... Even aku sendiri pun x layak... berfikir sebelum ckap... aku hanya sekadar menegur... masa depan kita xder saper yang tau... mana tau kalo Allah S.W.T menguju ko satu hari nnt...??? Dikurniakan anak-anak yang "begitu"...?? What goes around comes around... Tuhan maha adil... Sedangkan Allah S.W.T pun boleh menerima golongan ne bila mereka ketanah suci..apa pulak hak ko nak bersuara lebih... So, macam akuh cakap tadik...kita manuasi x layak menghukum/judge other people... Slah mmg salah, tapi nak tegur kena dgn caranya... Sedangkan Rasullullah S.A.W pun x pernak menggunakan kekerasa... kan..???

memang la kita takdak hak nak menghina. tp kalau nasihat cara elok dipandang sinis je. pastu kalau bab maki hamun plak bagi la kat depa. mmg terer. aku tau sebab aku kenai depa. kena nasihat cara baik lagi ke kalau dah sampai kongkek utk cari makan? sanggup jual diri. lagi baik kena hina kat atas muka bumi ni dari kena hina kat sana besok. bukan masalah Allah takdirkan ke ape. masalahnya, ni semua nafsu. ada ka Allah suruh depa pi pakai mekap dgn tonyoh silikon? takdak pun. Allah boleh terima depa bila di mekah? mmg bleh terima. Allah itu maha adil. tp... kalau ko takdak inisiatif nak insaf, kot mana yg dia nak ampunkan? mcm ang menghalalkan pulak kaum2 ni.

ok.... i've talk enough. you guys are always welcome to COMMENT, CRITICIZE, CURSE, OR COMPLIMENTS, PERHAPS. oh ya, if you wanna do any of this 4C, make sure you dont use the EXAMPLE that i've given. Let's be creative and curse in a better vocabulary. let's widen our knowledge in the art of maki hamun. kah kah kah.

P/s: to my dearest pondan friend, like Sha, BB, and etc, plz dont terasa2 with me. well u know me! lol. kalau u all nak kutuk gak kat sini.... with all my heart, dipersilakan :)

just my 2 cents,
Tash

Messages I got in my myspace inbox

time: 3.51 p.m.
venue: home.
mood: annoyed.
currently: blocking people in myspace.

Endy,
today, i wanna share my experience using myspace with other people. i dont know why, i just have the urge to share it today. i could not be bothered bout this thing for years. i've been a loyal member of myspace for 6 constant years. yes, 6 years is long.

i registered my myspace because Azizi, my late friend, asked me bout it. so, i said, why not. let's check it out. well, i was not active til the year of 2006, when i started my college. from there, i've learn a lot. i've met more than 1000 people. yes, i did, indeed. of course, i dont just jump into conclusion and thought that everyone meant well. before i met anyone, i'll scrutinize into his/her profile. get to know them. then only i'll decide either to meet, or just be friends in cyber.

no doubt that i've enjoyed meeting people from all races, ages, and religions. they had taught me so much in life. in fact, most of my friend that i know now is through Yahoo Messenger group or Myspace. i've met great friends there. i've met great bro and sis there. and yes, i love hanging out with them. i have thousands in my YM list and i'm sorry i ignored some while i'm online. because i just cant handle too much. i have life too. you know what i mean. lol...

however, there's certain thing that i dont like about online friends. i mean, not all of them, but most of them. despite being in the millenium century, this people still choose to be close-minded. or should i say, judging people just by their dress or their attitude. is it just me or is it everybody that like to misinterpret my style? i dont know. ok, i know you guys must be cloudy of what i'm trying to explain here. ok, let me elaborate a little bit on this.

well, everybody knows that i love mini skirt and tank top. yes, i'm fat, you dont have to remind me of that. yet, i still believe that there's no boundary for anyone to wear whatever they like. the problem is... people always take me as a bitch when they see me wearing mini skirt. hello.... just because i'm malay, doesnt mean i cant wear it! ok, back to myspace issue. ok, just because i posted a picture of me wearing skirts, doesnt make me a bitch on myspace. and it also doesnt make me a low class person who begs money from people. and it doesnt sign that i'm horny and i need to be fuck. ok? get it? if you dont get it, you're welcome to get lost from my sight, moron!

everyday, i've got like 30++ message from random myspacer and i just dont bother to open any of them sometimes because i already knew the content. yes, not all are cheap. but they can be categorize in either lame or bitchy message. only a few is descent. and yes, i appreciate great friends on myspace. thanks for making my day! ok to make this even more visible, i'm gonna check my inbox now, and i'm gonna take the first 20 messages in my inbox and sort them out in the 2 category, which is the bitchy one and the lame one.

ok, here's a few message of moron people who thinks that i'm cheap (Type A: BITCHY):

hye tash..
*&^%$# besar laa...
hope i can *&^%$# u hard..
if u don't mind i wanna *&^%$#@,,,
thanxx (Go fuck ur mom first!)

rm200 for sleep wif me,just 1 hour.....reply if u want it
0129157949 my no (i'll double the price for you to sleep with your mom!)

and this is the lame message i receive (Type B: LAME):

how re u..? (i'm fine thank you. bla bla bla... then what? think of other intro, man!)

hiiiiiiiiiii (what do you expect me to answer?? HIIIIIIIIIIIIII??)

alam..........cm org tk bermaya jea??(budak klantan) (WTF is this guy typing? it's obviously stated in my profile that i'm a PENANGITES!)

HAI..NAK NO PHONE BLH TAK? (yeah sure, after you do a brain transplant with Einstein!)

How r u (ohhh pleaseeee... another one?)

x tdo lg (and what does it have to do with you?)

bt pe ni x tdo lg ker??? (huhhh???? another one?)
lame dah ke online?hehe
sehat?
Happy CNY..hehe
dah mkn kuih raye ke?ekeeke... (ok thanks for wishing, but get a better question to ask!)

u xon ym ke? (even if i'm online, i rather choke to death before chatting with you!)

morning..u ader ym x?leh add? :) (TAK BOLEH! like duhhh... stoooopid question)

hai...............
uat ape tu....???? (why do you carE?)

hye.....
x tyto lagi.... (i'm speechless... this is like the 3rd same questionon??)

hai..apa kabar awk kat sana..??
skrg ni tgh buat apa tu?? (see what i mean... i believe you're getting fed up of the same question too!)

i'm christ,from russia,now i stay in kajang in malaysia
would u like we make dating?
which city u live? (first, fix your english. 2nd, i'll never date a dumb guy, IDIOT!)

hii tasha morning.....how are you today...have YM add me yea..mazlan_muaz@yahoo.com..thanks..see yea (and what makes u think i'm gonna add you?)

ngh wat per 2???????npe xtdo lg (i'm about to puke!)

ok Endy... i know you're getting annoyed by this people. this is what i've got for today in my inbox. it's really discouraging for me to check my inbox in myspace. that's why i rather go to Myyearbook, where people are less bitchy and more vocabulary. ok, most of the person who message me is malay. and the stupid guy who offer me the stupid 200 bucks is chinese.

so, now don't question why i dont date malaysian guys. they're either too stupid to jump into conclusion and think that i'm cheap or they're just lame in introduction. come on... you tell me which chick will fall for you if you just tell them hi or how are you... it's just so typical. get some other idea. i've receive lots of intro from outsiders which is quite interesting to answer.

i mean, i dont know for others, but i'm that kinda girl who doesnt fall for a single hi or how are you. that's just so lame... for me, you ask how are you when you've met an old friend. or you met your lecturer after a long semester break. you know, that sorta stuff! in fact, how are you is one of the 1st english words taught in school. try to outstand a lil bit. some research on the girl before saying hi doesnt bite, do they? read up their profile before hitting the message button.

oh ya... another issue... i've strictly stated in my profile that:

Frankly speaking, i dont entertainpervert, lame and idiotic guys... soplease don't ask me any stupid question such as:

"boleh kenal?"
"buat apa tu?"
"dah lama online?"
"u ni mixed yer?"
"u boleh ckp cina?"
"busy ke?"
"dah mkn ke belum?"

or anyhing else that brought the same meaning! Please read my profile before asking me the question that obviously had been answered here! Thanks..

and there's some guy who actually confronted me with this words. they say that i'm too arrogant, too nasty, and too stuck up. yes, whatever you wanna say, because you're not the one who's facing the same question again and again and again. if you dont like me, just get lost. myspace have more than 6 millions user. pick your choice. it's my profile, so you play by my rules. as simple as that.

i've also received tons of messages scolding me for dating an outsider. they want me to date malays. lol... no offense but... my whole entire life... 21 years of living on the earth... i've only met 1 malay guy who's so super talented... so polite... so classy... strong characteristic... so smart... and he's catching up with my point of view... i've never seen such a perfect combination in a guy... this is like a rare case... so talented in everything... girls just adore him. even when i walk with him, i could see girls whispering! Maryam, Tiqah, you girls should know whom i meant! and i'm sure you girls do agree on what i've describe him! so... people... dont blame me for not dating malay guy! i've lots of malay friend and they're super nice... but in the sense of relationship, they just dont sparkle.

i dont know how to explain this. it just doesnt suit my characteristic. i'm that kinda girl who believes in liberalization. yes, Islam says that guy should be the leader. not that i want to be against this, but i believe in a freedom of both sex. there's this one mindset on guys that girls should do all the kitchen stuff... and girls should cook, do all the cleaning and be with them while eating. well, guys, you do realize that sometimes we do need a break? i thank god that i've got someone who really care bout me. he pampers me sometimes and he doesnt expect me to do all the stuff on my own. another thing is... i don't like it when a guy tell me not to do this.. not to do that... dont go back late.. dont go there... call me before you go anywhere... and yes... i've seen lots of example of this! lots of my friend is having this situation.. and i thank god that i dont have to go through all this shit!

Endy,
i think i've talk to much... time to chill with ma~ peeps! i havent put on any makeup... i need to rush... bye!

annoyed,
tasha

Why English

Time: 2.16 a.m.
Venue: Home.
Mood: Happy I guess!
Currently: Listening to Jet!

Dear Endy,
The reason why i write this right now is I'm so annoyed of how some people can just be so stupid enough to ask me "WHY ENGLISH?".

WHY?

Well, let me answer it here since i usually laugh and ignore your, your, your and your question. Why English? BECAUSE I SAID SO? Because i like it? because this is my blog? because i prefer it? because i know you'll get confused reading here? because... because... because...

BECAUSE.... WHATEVER!

The point here is WHO THE HELL ARE YOU to question me that? i mean... it's up to me either i wanna write in English or Malay! It doesnt matter. what matter the most is I UNDERSTAND MYSELF! i dont give a damn if anyone out there doesnt get what i'm trying to deliver here. This blog is dedicated to Endy, my beloved friend. did i put your name up there? NO! so, why bother?

ok readers, dont get triggered by this. chill. i'm not "shooo-ing" all of you. i'm just so perplexed why people like to mess with me?? you dont like me, well yeah... get rid of me... as easy as that. why are you bookmarking my blog, keep reading it again and again, and YM me middle of the night just to tell me that "Tash, it's not WANNA, but WANT TO". omg... i'm not that stupid that i dont know WANNA is a broken english. i knew it. YES, my english is not perfect, but it's not that bad til i couldnt differentiate between wanna and want to. OMFG!

people, please dont compare me when i'm speaking on stage as a formal emcee and in mamak stall chit-chatting with ma~ peeps. oppsiee.. another broken english, isnt it? let me ask you my question. WHY should i speak so-called BRITISH ENGLISH while i'm in mamak talking to my friend? even they dont speak Brit while we're outta school. ahhh come on... what are you trying to proof here?

i'm studying in Sunway for heaven's sake! you tell me how many of them speak malay??? ok let me count for you...

1. Maryam ( i've never see her speaking malay in Sunway except with me!)
2. Tasha Renee (Malay Indo)
3. Emi (Malay Brunei)
4. Eric @ Su Weng (I never speak malay with this guy)
5. errrr... Sharon (She speak malay like auntie.. lol..)
6. Suba ( I'm telling you, she dont speak malay with me)
7. err... i dont know... maybe someone i left out??

ok... so, out of 500-600 friends that i know in Sunway, only this few people speak Malay. even they speak English with me, because it's easier for others to understand. come on... it's unfair to most of our friend not to understand the latest gossip we're sharing! lol... most important thing of all, my boyfriend doesnt understand Malay and i'm sure he want to read this piece too, dont you think???

one more thing... dont you ever say that "hang ni jgn lupa diri, melayu buat cara melayu"(Translation: Don't forget your root. you're malay, act like one - Well, something like that. i'm not good with translation). hey, watch your mouth, idiot. i never forget that i'm a malay girl and i'm even proud to be malay. but i'm just ashamed to admit that i have malay friend like you! i don't give a damn if you drive whatever car. i dont give a damn of whatever branded stuff you bought. the stuff just dont shine on you. instead, it outshines you. too bad. you're trying too hard to impress others. why? I dont have any idea.

For your info, i can perfectly speak MALAY in Penang and Perak slang. i can understand Kelantan and Terengganu people speak. i think it's a shame on you not to be better than me in Malay for fact that i'm not a pure malay and i know better. i remain silent of everything i know because KNOWLEDGE is not a subject to show off to but to practice again and again for the rest of your life. did i tell you that i speak French? no? omg... maybe i forgot to show off to you just now. pardon! maybe i should show off to you so that you will show off something else and so forth and in the end we both get nothing but boredom of speaking to each other. not to mention getting annoyed for what we've done. I'm annoyed of myself now because i actually reply your words and wasting my time here now typing this nonsense shit.

NO OFFENSE TO MALAYS BUT....

Most of the friend i know in Penang try their best to outstand. yeah, it's good to outstand. I'll be happy for you. but the thing that i just cant resist being irritated to is your attitude that'll just provoke me. you girls will show off anything... seriously, ANYTHING.. that you have. your boyfriend. your car. your handbag. your tee. your shoes.

ok i get it.

you have Nike shoes.
you have Guess bag.
you have Roxy shirt.
you have Levi's jeans.
you have (what else they like to show off? what other brand? you fill in the blanks)
you have caucasian boyfriend.
your boyfriend have nice modified cars.
you have engage with this nice guy.

WHATEVER!

well, the next time you wanna come here showing off anything, just put in mind that...

Tasha have 6 stilettos, 2 wedges, 5 heels, 3 pumps, 1 peep-toe, 4 slippers and 4 sport shoes.
Tasha have Obermain, Aigner, LV, Barry Smith and other 9 handbags.
Tasha have more than 20 jeans (incl skirt) of brand that i cant even remember all of them.
TASHA HAVE WELL-WORKING BRAIN THAT MAKES HER THINK WISELY!

ok let me continue showing off...

TASHA HAVE 2 DIPLOMA THAT YOU DONT EVEN HAVE!

opps... you dont even pass your school exam!

so stop talking shit on my language and stop flaunting whatever you have. because i just dont bother. oh ya... another thing... please please please.... dont be so cheap to be proud of what your boyfriend had bought for you.

my bf buy me this.
my bf buy me that.
my bf buy me those.
my bf buy me everything.

cant we ladies be independent and take care of ourselves? i just hate it when i person who cant afford anything coming to me and bragging on what she's wearing which had been sponsored by dearly Mr. Boyfriend.

yes guys, I dont mean that you guys cant buy present for your beloved GF, but make sure they dont be your GF just because you're loaded. GET WHAT I MEAN?

ok why am i talking bout something else?

wait, it's not something else. this is actually the root of the problem. that girl is actually striving to be better than others. and my English is just one of her element to poke my nerves.

ok before i stop this nonsense..

kepada mangkuk2 ayun sekalian,
mampuih pi kat aku la aku nak buat apa pun. angpa kira pa? aku kacau juboq angpa ka? dok buat raplah pa pasai aku. ni blog aku. ikut suka mak bapak aku la nak tulih kot mana pun. angpa sakit tang mana? awat mak bapak tak reti ajaq elok2 ka yg dok mai buat sakit hati org? aku kacau ka marka2 angpa yg kononnya baguih tu?? pirahh... dok buat juah lebih.. setakat marka angpa pakai Wira/Perdana modified yg bising nak mampoih tu, takyah nak mai blagak tang ni. aku dah naik cemuih tgk angpa belagak. serupa barua siye.

puaih hati?? buat pertama kali dlm blog ni aku tulih melayu.

(Translation: Too lazy to translate. In short, I'm *&^%$# them)

and for your info, i actually have a malay blog but it's anonymous. so, find me if you're smart. i also have an art blog. but i dont really want you to find out that that's my work. let people judge me as anonymous rather than judging me as a friend. then the comments on the artwork wont be affected.

ok Endy, sorry sorry sorry for this stupid entry. and for others, please dont feel offended. this is just my feelings towards this stupid girl.

i'm malay
and
proud that i am

oh ya... plus the CHINESE (ehhehe, sorry dad)!

whadya think motha fucka,
Tash