Buat Mama & Abah :)

Tiada apa yang lebih aku inginkan, melainkan melihat kami berlima seperti ketika itu. 
Tiada apa yang lebih aku inginkan, melainkan perjuangan sebuah cinta yang terbina selama 28 tahun diteruskan. 

Benarkah, tiada lagi rasa antara mereka? 

Abah,
Demi cinta,
Kau tinggalkan agama,
Kau tinggalkan keluarga,
Kau tinggalkan semuanya,
Untuk memperjuangkan apa yang kau rasa.

Mama,
Demi cinta,
Kau hidup derita,
Kau selalu kecewa,
Kau jadi seorang wira,
Juga untuk memperjuangkan apa yang kau rasa.

Sudah lupakah semua itu? Segala perit lelah membina satu kehidupan, ditentangi orang sekeliling, hanya kerana kita keluarga campuran.

Aku masih ingat. 
Orang cakap, "anak cina makan babi".
Orang cakap, "bapak kau cina bukit".
Orang cakap, "Natasha mesti jadi jalang nanti tak cukup didikan agama".

Alhamdulillah, 
Aku buktikan hasil anak cina bukit itu berilmu agama.
Abah buktikan dia mampu jadi lebih baik dari mereka.
Mama buktikan keluarga kami lebih bahagia dari mereka.

Jadi,
Apa silapnya?
Di mana silapnya?

Siapa aku untuk mempersoalkan?

Sebagai seorang anak, aku mendoakan yang terbaik buat kamu berdua. 

Mama, Abah, 28 years have got to mean something in your relationship. 
Think it over.

Tasha.

Komen.

Satu komen yang sangat-sangat touching.

Thanks bro, you made me realize that I have something out of that game after all.

Day 2.

Day 2...

Finally feeling sad.

I want a hug, like, SERIOUSLY.

Remembering all those memories, beautiful memories, made me cry.

SHIT.

God answered me.

Hurm...

I guess, no more hide and seek game.

God has given me his answer.

And now, I'm torn in every single way.

But hey, at least I MOVE ON!

Love,
Tash

It's bitter when...

...he doesn't call as much as before.
...he stop paying attention to you, online or offline.
...he talk to other girl more than he talks to you.

I'm done talking. You do the talking now :)

Soul searching...

What is love? Sometimes i wonder. Will it really fade, or true love just doesn't exist, and romeo and juliet stays as fiction. I need answers because from my observation, love is just a bullshit stuff. How do i determine which is right, which is wrong? I need some guidance to look into this matter. Have you ever wonder, where will a relationship leads you to? 

Yes, there's sad and happiness in every relationship. But what if all you see is darkness ahead? do you call it off and start a new one? Or do you just face the facts that no relationship is perfect. We need to work our ass out to make it perfect, to fit in into each other. The question is, if you know that you're no longer happy, why stay? Don't you just get sick of the same process again and again?

Sometimes you just wonder, why the fuck am i here? Arguing, then reconcile, argue again, make up again, had a big fight that both really got fedup of each other, then reconcile. When will this end? If you were in that situation, what is your action? 

Well, from my observation, if i'm in that situation, i'd say that he's no more interested in me. As if he's forced to be with me. The question is, why does he want to continue that relationship when he's already fedup of that girl? Why wait when he's already happy with someone else? that someone already stole his devoted attention, and now, even when he's around, you'll feel like he's just there as a statue. Doesn't really have a function. The feeling is just different. It's like having a cold beverage. You relieves your thirst, but it will never be enough.

The most confusing thing is, why things have to change? Is all men the same? They just made the best effort before they get you, and after that it's all bullshit. Am i too demanding if i want him to treat me the same way he treat me when we first started dating? Is it too much to ask? Is it the rules of universe that men just got fedup after some amount of time in relationship? Does beauty really matter in this case? When time flies, even the most beautiful woman can't keep her man loyal, because his love will just fade. Don't you just think that this is a FACT. not just my two cents of opinion.

Is there such thing as happily ever after? I don't think so. Right now, i sort of believe that love fades through time. Men will always get bored of their woman no matter what she did, No matter how much she sacrifies for him and no matter how much she have loved him. Maybe they're just blinded with the fakeness of the world. Or maybe the relationship that we all started is wrong in the first place? If so, what went wrong? Where did i do my mistake? By putting so much trust and hope on a man? By opening my heart so wide that he get the chance to steal it away and fool around with it?

Trust me, it's not worth it to have someone beside you, but not having him devoted to you. Even the smallest thing that hurt you or touch your heart. If he can't handle even the smallest responsibility, neither can't he on a big on, right? Am i asking too much from a relationship.

In life, i do believe that there's a ladder in every relationship. Friendship, lovers and family. You'll somehow develop a strange bonding, and the relationship will grow higher and higher. Relationship CAN'T stay static. It's either you climb up the ladder, or you climb down. Which will you prefer? from what i can see, most relationship among us are always declining. Why?

Imagine that you're put in that position. What will you do?

Take it, or leave it?

Archived of 26th April 2011, written via E71, by the beach.

Mellow down?

Dear Endy,

I was reading some of my entries. some sad, some happy, mostly sarcastic and critic towards surrounding environment. Then, come to think bout it, why was I so eloquent with that? My habit? My nature? Or I am just plain rude? Am I?

Apparently, ending of the year is usually a very sentimental moment in my life. I come to think of what I've done the whole year. Was I useful to the society? Have I done enough good deeds to people surrounding me. Who have I annoy and hurt? 

From where I'm standing right now, 2011 wasn't really a good year for me. Well, except for my studies. the rest is nonsense. I've been hiatus on so many things. i choose not to participate in a lot of important events. I tends to like being alone. Worst of all, i dont give a fuck on people anymore.

Have i become that heartless?

What's wrong with me?

reading through most of my posts, i feel like, i've been bad. i've been nasty. i think i could write better words. words that won't hurt people, yet hard enough to make them think of their action and consequences. I almost unpublished a few of my post because i was too embarrassed to read it. i was that mean bitch. 

but then again, i refuse to delete. because, whatever it is, that was me. that is the person i used to be. I don't know either any of my friends, relatives, colleagues and schoolmates could tolerate me the way I am, or, i could be a better person? Well, yeah, obviously everyone wants to be better each passing day. But, the question is, what do i need to change? Do tell me. I'm listening.

ok, i know most of my friend will be like, WTF is Tash crapping? She's been like that her entire life. hey peeps, i'm trying to be a better person. Do help me alright? For what it's worth, I curse less, I prevent myself from being sarcastic most of the time, I start to listen to others, I'm kicking off my bad habits.

Despite all that, i still use the word FUCK and BITCH a lot. 

So yeah, Tash is still Tash. 

Just trying to be better. Alright?

Tash

Hiatus?

Yes it is a long hiatus for me. Didnt really go anywhere. just got fedup of writing i guess? everytime i try to start writing, i just froze. i guess i'm no more a writer? lol.

anyways, it's great to be here. feels like home. a place that i can say out loud just anything that i want. i miss u guys so much. i miss my reader. i miss my blogger friend. thanks for supporting me all this while. thanks for sharing all my dumb story, my silliness, my sadness, my happiness over something stupid and my undeniable deep emotional feelings.

i think i will start writing here. it wont be as good as before, as i'm starting over as a writer. i will try my best.

p/s: Endy, im sorry for abandoning you dear :(
lots of love.

Tash

Back to December

Pernah dengar lagu tu?


Back to December, by Taylor Swift.


That song brings me back to December.


To where i used to live.


To where i used to be extremely happy.


I wish, I could go back to December.

Angel

Angel,
I miss our beautiful moment.
I miss the person you used to be.
I miss that clumsy man i used to date.
I miss those cheeky smile on your face.


You rarely smile now.
You rarely talk now.
You rarely joke now.
You rarely need me now.


What's bothering you, my dear?


We used to just sit and talk our heart out.
We used to be those people who laugh a lot.
We used to send each other beautiful message.
We used to stare at each other, for hours.


What happen?
What went wrong?


Is it me?
Is it you?


Or is it just us being "apart"?
Or is this what relationship are?


They seems to torn in the middle of the bumpy road.
Leave us with a wounded heart and miserable feelings.


Can we fall in love once again?


Back to that December.


I miss all that.


I miss you.

Tasha

A Fresh Start!

Hi there everyone,

My apologize for the longest hiatus ever. 

i'm not busy, i'm not occupied with anything, nothing, TOTALLY nothing. 

What I've been doing lately then?

Well, I travel back and forth, tweaking my mind, thinking deep, WHAT'S NEXT?

Received a job offer from a company that i really want, REJECTED it.

Why? Because i still believe in that DEGREE i was waiting for.

*****

CHAPTER 23

Yes, I'm 23 this year. so, this is chapter 23 of my blog, and of my life. If you're a follower of this damn blog, you'll know what's first on my wishlist, a DEGREE. 

Tomorrow, I'm leaving Penang once again. Just like what i did 4 years ago. A young girl with big dreams, stepping into Sunway University, hoping to cope among the best of education. Did i get it? Yes. Did i enjoy my college life? Definitely, Yes. Did i excel in studies, Hell yeah! Graduated class of 2008, together with Ellyshia, Melita, Su Weng, Raymond and Vishminna. Yes, only us left. we started as 14 in the class. just us left. 

Gosh, how i miss Aaron and Azuan's lame joke. How i miss them floitering around with me in Subang. How i miss playing poker and pool with them. How i miss skipping class with them, and hanging out at Orange. How i miss competing in classes. how i miss being the most outstanding student in class. how i miss walking in the college and people looking at me as if i'm a freak. damn, i miss everything about college. i miss that title.

Tomorrow, 

Will be a new life for me. a brand new life. i will gasp every single breath i have, with courage and with all i had to bet, to that title, once again, STUDENT. This time, it's sweeter than ever. I am nobody's burden. I'm on my own. For bad or worst, it's on me now. My decision all the way. They don't know how much this mean for me. even if i have to really suffer this 2 years of education, i will go through it, with whatever is left with me.

I've pack my bags. Settle up my documents. Got myself a job. Enrolled in February intake. Applied for scholarships. I'm fully confident that i'm almost done right here. ALMOST. i just need a proper place to stay. so far, i'm staying kinda far from college. a friend's place. an old mate. Emi. remember her?

Besides all that,

Family are getting better. Mom got herself a new civic as a birthday present from dad. it shows that their relationship is getting better. well, i better keep praying for their happiness. they deserve each other, despites whatever shit that happens to our family. Our family business are also expanding. mom open a new branch of her shop. Dad got promoted as the CEO. brothers are all fine. 

I broke up with Jack. Why? I don't think i want to reveal it here. let me just say, he's a nice person, but he's not ambitious enough for me. he just wants to settle for average. you guys of all people knows it well that i'm not average. oh yes, i believe in myself. i am EXTRAORDINARY. 

The truth is, 

when i was with Jack, i suffered for the last few months of our relationship. Now, I'm with someone better. Someone who deserves me more than anyone else. someone that i failed to see at first. Someone, who started as a friend. For now, he wants to remains anonymous. he wants us to ride low. I respect that decision. so for now, my mouth is sealed. 

******

Everything is falling into places now. things seems to be better, or wonderful, may i say. i've come this far, and, i'm not looking back. for now, i have a new plan in life. my new plan in life is to live for today, and not to worry bout tomorrow. there's always a way out. don't worry too much, dont structure yourself too hard, dont pressure your soul too bad. you deserve to sit back and enjoy this life. trust me, things will fall into places, by itself. dont try to fix anything that is not broken. 

Right now,

can i finish this studies with honour? can i cope to work and support myself without my parents help? can i cope with studies? can i get used to the new environment? can i survive this new relationship with that special someone? will i actually be with him forever? will i be an ART DIRECTOR as i've always wish since i was a little girl? will i be as successful as my babes in future? will i sit in the same table as future doctor, future lawyer, future pharmaceutic, future accountant and future remizer in 5 years time? The answer is, NO. NO for, WHO THE HECK KNOWS? sit back and enjoy the ride god crafted for you. 

Dont worry too much.

I've made a wrong turn once or twice. 

This is my life.

Still standing, with pride,

Tasha Leow

Statement...

aku bosan pagi-pagi ni.

so just bloghopping je la.

tiba-tiba sorang kawan lama, 

rasanya last jumpa dia 2005,

PM aku kat Facebook.

sembang punya sembang,

dia cakap dia nak single.

aku rasa dia mcm takut.

aku klua satu statement.

"satu hari nanti ang akan jumpa org tu"

Dia diam. aku tambah lagi statement.

"love is beautiful"

Diam lagi.

so aku tambah lagi satu statement.

rasanya ultimate la kot statement ni.

ke statement ni sebab aku tgh in love dgn Jack?

"bagi aku la kan.... tak sempurna hidup takde cinta."

warhhhhhhhhh statement aku!!! 

betul ke weh ape aku ckp ni?

lain gile aku skang ni!

DAMN.

mcm boleh mati lak takde cinta kan? 

adeh, apa nak jadi ko ni tasha?

btw, minah tu tak reply terussssssss!

mungkin dia terkejut dgn aku.

pompuan heartless yg dia kenai dulu,

dah berubah tahap kaw punya.

(In memories, 2 Nilam 2002, budak duduk sebelah aku, kena kantoi dgn Miss Lee. Nanti aku cerita!)

P/s: zaman skolah dulu, aku budak paling jahat skali. sampai skarang kalau cikgu-cikgu jumpa aku, depa nanti senyum panjang. pastu cerita kat student-student depa, ni student paling gila depa penah jumpa. demerit aku bersepah-sepah. boyfriend? sorry tak layan! (except for Nick). tu pun sembang aku hang dgn dia. damn. dlm kepala otak aku, nak blah class, nak lepak jamming, nak lari dari rumah. kesian mak bapak aku. ish ish ish.

Masa form 2 angpa panggil aku,

DevilTash

That Week We Spent Together...

Jack,
It's been beautiful.
You and me, together.
Just spending time with each other.
Updating on our life for the past one month.


I'm happy,
To see you happy.
To meet you everyday.
To talk just anything to you.


I knew that i could always rely on you.
I knew i could just share anything with you.
Because you're just the most understanding person ever.
You never say anything. Just listening religiously.


........and that's just the best thing ever.


Yes,
I told you i miss my room, my stuff and everything.
But just when i reach home, worn-out, i think of you.
The first thing i did was calling you, just to tell that i'm home.
I felt relieve listening to your calm voice.
Knowing that you're actually waiting.
For me to give you a call.


Right now I really miss our moment together.
You know that i'm very bad in expressing myself. 
I dont speak much on feelings and things like that.
I'd rather sit and write it down.


During that one week,
I've learn quite a few things on you. 
I've develop new feelings towards you.
I've tackle few issue with you.
I've talk random stuff too.


I hope that you're not bored.
I hope i've given the best week for you.
I'm looking forward for our next meeting.
For it's been such a lovely experience.
You and me.


I miss you.

Ace

He's leaving....

......for good, SOON.

without even telling me.

without even saying goodbye.

when will i ever see you again?

when will i ever hear your voice again?

not even a call before you go back?

what am i worth to you after all these years?

i dont want much.... i just wanna meet you for the last time.

just for the last time.

to thank you, for everything you've done for me.

to thank you, for taking such a good care for me.

for listening to my crabby story endlessly... without even getting bored.

for tolerating my childish attitude and playing along with me.

for putting me back from pieces.

i miss calling you B.

i miss calling you Little Boy.

i miss calling you Crabby.

..........i miss being your Little Girl.

Ya Allah,

Aku mohon, kuatkan hatiku. tabahkan jiwaku.

untuk aku lupakan dia. untuk aku terus hidup tanpa naungannya.

Ya Allah,

berikan dia yg terbaik.

berikan dia kasih sayang yg melimpah.

berikan dia perempuan penyayang.

berikan dia hidup yg bahagia.

berikan dia kesenangan dalam apa saja.

give him your best shot.

oh shit,

tasha fuck it. stop crying u fool! STOP!

STOP

Happy Belated birthday natasha.

Time: 11.40 p.m.

Venue: Home.

Mood: i dont know.

Endy,

it's been a while since we last talk. honestly, i miss you. i miss talking to you everyday. i dont know why i dont have the urge to type lately. was it the environment, or was it just me? there's million things i wanna share with you. it's just that, i dont know how to begin with.

i am 22 this year. i turn 22 last week. yes, last week was my birthday. hundreds of people wishes me happy birthday, without knowing that i was having a high fever. i had a throat infection and i'm still healing until today. hopefully, i'll be better tomorrow. i barely eat anything. is this a sign from god? saying that i dont behave well?

what do i achieve at this age? i didnt see anything great about me. i'm suppose to finish degree this year, but i dont even enroll in any course. i'm so lost in this life. lost track of time, lost track of life. sometimes i feel like i'm gasping, warping for help. i just didnt see 10 years from now. what am i gonna be? i want to be higher than this. i want to be that Tasha that i dream off. but how?

i think i've put too much expectation in myself. i thought that it was good. now, i could see that it's just ruining my life. i dont want something called whimsical in my storyline. i want success. i want A. i want number 1. i want THE BEST. that's something everyone would want in life. the question is, HOW? do you ever stop and think about this? how do we reach the highest level of society? how do we reach the highest level of a human being?

on my birthday, my mother send me a very meaningful birthday sms. she said, in life, we can never give up. she says, we cant quit. because quitting is just losing. i was wondering if she saw me falling apart? is it that obvious that i broke my heart into pieces and it was never patch? was it that obvious that i'm so frustrated with life that i just let it be? was it that obvious that i GAVE UP in my studies? was it?

Studies: GONE

Love: GONE

Family: GONE

Life: ????

how do i fill that question mark?

Happy 22nd Birthday Tasha. Just another year of being nobody.

i hate my life,

Tash

Happiest day

Time: 3:50 a.m.

Venue: My room, Penang.

Mood: Extremely happy.

Dearest Endy,

I, hereby, announce that today is one of the happiest day in my life. ok, let's trace what i did today. i got up at 11 and be prepared for work. my mom asked me to help her in her shop today, i agreed with no hesitation. i'm suppose to handle one fussy customer today, i hell yes i know she's damn annoying. i almost lose my temper. thankfully, i tried my best to talk nicely to her. after 2 hours, i manage to get rid of her and continue chatting. oh ya, forget to tell ya that i'm so melayu today. i wear baju kurung to work. lol. Why?

i have to go to Aiza's house. her father is holding a tahlil ceremony for her late mom. her family had been such a darling to me. they treat me as if i'm part of the family. i'm always happy there. such a big happy family. very different from where i came from. i felt love here. i reach at her place around 9. they made me eat rice!! lol. then we were talking and talking and talking. bla bla bla. yada yada yada. snap a picture to upload to Facebook. the best part of tonight... they said that i lost weight, a lot! hahahahahahaha. Aiza was so jealous. she brought a handful of cream puff, made by Kak Muhaini, for me to dig in! damn. i lost to the temptation. i ate 4 of them! damn you Aiza!

Kak Linda invited me to her place tomorrow afternoon. they'll be having birthday party for her son. so i guess i'll drop by tomorrow. at about 12, i went to Has' place to return her stuff. she was half awake when i reach her place. lol. we're suppose to go to Mc Donald's Greenlane today. it's ok. it can wait. next thing in my head, is a nice warm shower. i'm so sticky and dirty. i was helping Kak Marina cleaning up everything, packing up food for guest and arranging everything back in order. this is something that we didnt see everyday, dont you think? lol. nah, i'm just happy there. Aiza is so lucky to have such a great family.

just when i open the front door, my mom came down. i gave her the cash for today. i'm too scared to leave it in the shop as it can get lost easily. she just came back from kl and she bought lots of new stuff. she wanted to show me, but i told her to hold till tomorrow. i'm just so worn out! first thing i did was, TURN ON MY VAIO! lol. i admit, i'm an internet junkie. i could be glued to the PC forever. i called Nord on skype. we talk a bit. i check my facebook notification. then, im off to the bathroom. phew... it's refreshing. ok back to my vaio, surfing the net, bla bla bla. then, i receive a PM from Imran. he said he wants to call me.

oh ya, sorry for not updating for so long. we've been contacting each other for quite some time now. i mean, after i broke up with you-know-who ( p/s: i bet he doesnt want his name to be mention in my blog anymore). Imran ask me my number. he claims that he lost it. i was pretending to be mad. lol. well, it's normal to lose someone's number after 3 years of breaking up. anyway, imran, if you're reading this, you know that i bought 012 number 4 years back because of you! i'm such a keeper right? i kept that number til today! never ever change my number. because i was hoping that you will call one fine day.

and...

today is that "one fine day" i've been talking about. but it's not how i imagine it. i was expecting myself to cry and sobs all the way. instead, i was basically laughing and laughing and laughing. i'm really happy. not that i expected anything from you. just an innocent phone call from an old buddy from college. trust me, that phone call is so refreshing. you know, the idea of you and me talking to each other on the phone, mesmerizing memories and teasing each other, it's just fun. oh wait, you dont allow me to remember you as "fun". let me rephrase. it's just LOVELY.

did you realize that we talk for 1 hour. that's long. seriously. you know that i dont really talk on the phone that much. but that 1 hour pass so fast that i lost count on time. i'm just plain happy. happy to hear your voice. happy to hear bout your success. happy to hear you nag bout your boring routine. happy to hear you talk bout your passion over cars. most important thing of all, i'm happy to hear that you're happy, and of course, happy to hear that you succeed in life, excellently. well, it wont hurt to know that your ex are very successful in life. just for old time sake. it's never too late to be friends now, right?

yes, that was the best way to conclude today. it was a tiring and frustrating day at first. but the reward sort of came in the end. thank you god, for making me smile. i believe, today's smile is like the most sincere i've ever had, for years. i'm just happy. trust me, nothing could ruin this good mood right now. nothing! not even the news i heard from a friend of mine in the afternoon. well, the gossip they made bout me really sucks. but, hell yeah. i dont care. because, i'm just happy, and i know, i'm way better than that girl who talk rubbish on me. trust me, you gotta do better than that to make me stop smiling today.

P/s: he still calls me Natasha.

truth,

Natasha

stranger

B...

today, when i go through our picture.... i miss you.

today, when i make tea for myself.... i miss you.

today, when i watch TV series.... i miss you.

and i know that i cant cry.

i have to hold my tears.

because...

you were not there...

..... to wipe it for me.

i'm alone, left in emptiness.

deep down.... i know it well that I LOVE YOU.

right now...

i think i'm going to collapse.

without you here, supporting me, tendering me and caring bout me.

i need you in my life.

but...

i know...

i know that you wont come back.

i know that you dont even want to look at me. not anymore.

i am no more your beautiful girl.

i am no more your little girl.

i am just a stranger.

*******

God, please make me strong.

strong enough to pick up the pieces.

yes, i accept the fact that we dont belong together.

but please... please help me to get up on my own.

please make him the happiest man on earth.

please put him in the best place in the world.

that's all i ask for.

Tash

Aku Rindu....

nak bau perfume Armani dia...

nak kejutkan dia pagi2 utk kelas...

nak ingatkan student card dia...

nak antar dia pegi exam kat BBJ...

nak dgr dia complaint pasal APIIT....

nak nangis depan dia....

nak peluk dia and luah semua isi hati....

nak tgk Happy Tree Friends dgn dia...

nak tgk South Park dgn dia...

nak tgk TV Series dgn dia....

nak argue dgn dia... even for a small thing...

nak lepak coffee house dgn dia...

nak jd childish depan dia....

nak sebut crabby, chicken zombie, kro kro kro depan dia....

nak panggil dia Little Boy...

nak jd Little Girl dia...

nak masak chicken soup, spaghetty dan carbonara dgn dia.. his fav food....

serious... aku rindu waktu2 itu...

2 tahun... akhirnya kami putus jugak...

and demi Allah...

aku sedih. aku sakit. aku down. aku meraung kuat2 dlm hati.

tp sape tahu?

only he knows me best.

aku sayang dia.

sayang sangat-sangat.

korang boleh baca entry ni and gelak kuat2.

tasha sentimental? sgt tak sesuai kan?

sebab aku sentiasa kuat.

sebab aku sentiasa happy.

tp... aku pun ada hati.

serious... aku nak jumpa dia.

15th April 2008 until 18th March 2010...

****************************

Medo,

thanks for the good things we have,

thanks for the love we cherish,

thanks for sacrifices you made,

thanks for every night we spent,

thanks for every moment we laugh,

thanks for every kiss, thanks for every hug,

thanks for every advice,

thanks for every tears u wipe for me,

thanks for everything.

and..... thank you for loving me.

i hope u have a good life ahead.

Little Girl,

Tasha

i miss this people...

from left: mohammed, jabir a.k.a. Mr. 7 inches, matthew, nicholas, stanley!

oh yes, i miss them a lot. the king of bullshit. trust me, you'll never find any further bullshitting friend other than this people! lol. mohammed is in Subang, Jabir in Bukit Jalil, Nick is in Perth and Stanley is M.I.A.!

this picture was taken last 2 years in Asia Cafe. yeah, we love it there. loving the food, loving the chicks, and loving the pool table. esp me and Nick! lol. we could spend hours there, playing pool, and cursing each other.

i dont know why, i really miss those moment. my moment as a student. damn, cant wait to be a student once again!

whatever it is.... i miss this people! damn!

and of course... i miss this one the most....

miss u B!

Pavilion

just a quick update.

i will upload the picture when i reach penang.

1- i went to pavilion today, with B.

2- ate my forever fav. chicken kebab with coleslaw and old fashion chips at nando's.

3- suppose to watch movie, 2012, but it was crowded. ticket is sold out.

4- decided to watch tomorrow at Pyramid.

5- went to Coffee Bean to fulfill my cravings over coffee. (actually i want starbucks but B love Coffee Bean more).

6- sit there for about 2 hours and talk our heart out. lol.

7- Sharon pick us up at 12.30 a.m. THANK YOU DEAR :)

and...

i'm suppose to....

1- sleep right now

2- pack my bag!

but..

all i did was...

1- playing games

2- ONLINE ONLINE ONLINE!

tomorrow i'm leaving this place :(

one thing for sure, i'll miss the crowd here. every night is a night out! every cafe are packed today!!! love it. this is my place! for sure.

but..

for now, i have to go back.

oh yeah, i'm suppose to sleep by now. Sharon gonna pick me up later at 8.30 a.m.! shit! havent pack anything yet! i have to go to Sunway to get my Diploma certificate. i dont feel like getting it anyway, but, when to think of it, yeah, i should get it. 2 years and 4 months of working on that stupid shit of paper. lol.

see ya!

bye!