Insecure...

I hate it when he abandoned me :)

I rest my case.

It's very hard to let go.

Surprisingly, it's only 7th of January, and I'm already posting a sad post. Don't worry, I'm fine, just emo. I'm going back to Penang on Monday. Looking at his face, I couldn't bring my heart home.

I am being clingy? Or do i have problem letting go?

*tears*

Tasha

Answer me.

Honestly,

I've been thinking bout this for a few weeks.

I don't know how to explain things. Let alone elaborating the feelings.

When you asked me, 

What are you thinking?

I don't know how to answer.

Because, i don't know how to tell you.

That you've change like 180 degrees.

Yes,

We're still together.

Yes,

We're in love.

But I miss those moment when we're so deeply into each other.

Why does it have to change?

If all relationship fade day by day, then how do we go through our life?

Relationship is suppose to grow taller day by day.

Or maybe it is not true love?

Answer me.

Tasha

I love...

I love...

to hold your hands.

I love...

to talk to you.

I love...

to argue with you.

I love...

to call you whenever i think of you.

I love...

to SMS you just to ask silly question.

I love...

to see you making cute faces.

I love...

it when you become a gentleman.

I love...

it when you know exactly what i like.

I love...

it when you talk bout your life for that day.

I love...

sharing food with you.

I love...

spending time with you, even we're doing nothing.

I love...

being by your side, even when you're busy doing assignment. 

I love...

YOU!

Tasha

Perplexed

Here we are.
Back to ground zero.


I wish, we could fall in love once again. 
Be as close as we used to be few months ago.


I try to figure out.
What exactly happen.
That we are so apart right now.


I think.
And think.
I rethink. 


Over and over again.
Just can't dig out the answer.


This is frustrating.
Because I love you more than anything.

*****

I know.
That we're fine.
We're very happy.
We suits each other well.


The thing is,
where is our flaw?
what is our problem?
why aren't we connecting?


I've always believe,
that in every relationship, 
there's always another step,
that will grow taller day-by-day.

****

Let me simplify.

I just miss you.

That "you" i used to know.

That "you" who talks to me 'bout everything.

Even a silly thing that happens surrounding him.

Like a lame auntie passing by wearing ridiculous blouse.

Where is that man?

Why aren't him here?

I'm just beside you, but i feel like we're apart.

I meet you everyday, but i still feel that you're not here.

We're in the same venue, but it feels so soulless. 

Whatever happens to that environment?

Tasha.

Angel

Angel,
I miss our beautiful moment.
I miss the person you used to be.
I miss that clumsy man i used to date.
I miss those cheeky smile on your face.


You rarely smile now.
You rarely talk now.
You rarely joke now.
You rarely need me now.


What's bothering you, my dear?


We used to just sit and talk our heart out.
We used to be those people who laugh a lot.
We used to send each other beautiful message.
We used to stare at each other, for hours.


What happen?
What went wrong?


Is it me?
Is it you?


Or is it just us being "apart"?
Or is this what relationship are?


They seems to torn in the middle of the bumpy road.
Leave us with a wounded heart and miserable feelings.


Can we fall in love once again?


Back to that December.


I miss all that.


I miss you.

Tasha