I just love it....

.....when you obviously tell your friend that you love me.

that's just perfect.

ok aku gila.

bye!

That Week We Spent Together...

Jack,
It's been beautiful.
You and me, together.
Just spending time with each other.
Updating on our life for the past one month.


I'm happy,
To see you happy.
To meet you everyday.
To talk just anything to you.


I knew that i could always rely on you.
I knew i could just share anything with you.
Because you're just the most understanding person ever.
You never say anything. Just listening religiously.


........and that's just the best thing ever.


Yes,
I told you i miss my room, my stuff and everything.
But just when i reach home, worn-out, i think of you.
The first thing i did was calling you, just to tell that i'm home.
I felt relieve listening to your calm voice.
Knowing that you're actually waiting.
For me to give you a call.


Right now I really miss our moment together.
You know that i'm very bad in expressing myself. 
I dont speak much on feelings and things like that.
I'd rather sit and write it down.


During that one week,
I've learn quite a few things on you. 
I've develop new feelings towards you.
I've tackle few issue with you.
I've talk random stuff too.


I hope that you're not bored.
I hope i've given the best week for you.
I'm looking forward for our next meeting.
For it's been such a lovely experience.
You and me.


I miss you.

Ace

Sumpah, entry ni sgt merapu and berserabut, mcm otak aku!

**ENTRY YG SGT MEREPEK, KALAU TAKMAU BUANG MASA, SCROLL DOWN BACA PART YG AKU BOLD. ITU JE ISI PENTING.**


dah dekat seminggu aku kat kl. patutnya balik hari khamis. tp tak sampai hati ah nak balik awal. dah sebulan tak jumpa Jack. so lepak lama skit kot. mama call, ckp nak dtg kl isnin. lagilah aku postpone balik penang. sorry kengkawan. aku lambat balik. aku tgh happy kat sini. of course, with my Jack. spend time mcm there's no tomorrow. honestly, i miss him dearly. *silap, tak miss dah, dia buat qada ceramah satu bulan kat aku*


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apa hal aku taip ayat tersekat-sekat ni? maybe sebab baru bangun tido kot. aku baca balik ayat kat atas tu, perghhh sakit jiwa. adei sorry. yes, ada button BACKSPACE kat keyboard aku. tp lantak ah. wakakaka. aku baca balik entry lama, aku rasa blog ni sgt berterabur. ape insane ke aku ni? tah apa yg aku fikir skarang ni.


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kejap lagi aku nak klua lagi, WITH MY JACK. yes, org ckp "tasha ko ni tak abis-abis dgn Jack". adeh aku dkt kl pun bukan slalu. sebulan skali. pastu masing2 busy keje. dia dua keje. aku dua keje. gile takde life. hahaha. do i have a choice? 


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right now thinking of printing all of my artwork, and nak bind a new portfolio. aku dah mula melukis. aku dah mula digital art. aku dah mula sketching. aku dah mula bukak web tutorial. aku nak enhance lagi skill aku. aku nak master semua part of multimedia, EXCEPT FOR 3D! yes aku benci 3D! sgt fuck. aku suffer semester 6 sebab 3D! damn. 


i'm gonna be a student once again. i need to work hard. i need to get that 4.0 CGPA. tp siyes, aku tak sabar sgt nak study. i miss studying. aku di Sunway skarang ni. stay dgn classmate aku dulu. she's pursuing her degree here in sunway. aku jumpa kawan2 di Sunway. ok, aku admit, aku sgt jeles dgn someone yg berlabel STUDENT. i miss that title. i want to study. ah shit. January cepat la dtg. siyes aku nak jd Graphic Designer yg berjaya. damn, susah gile dak2 graphic kat malaysia ni nak survive. will i be one of them?


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right now dlm kepala aku there's a few thing yg aku fikir, which is;


1- business mama, we're seriously planning of expanding and BRANCHING it.
2- business abah, planning to get him there just when he retire from Keteca. Yes abah, i know your dream.
3- my target to be an ART DIRECTOR. ok ini sgt susah. 10 tahun pun belum tentu dpt kot?
4- my dream to be in publishing line.
5- getting a decent home by the age of *****. sorry umur aku sentiasa hot topic. kah kah kah.
6- a get-a-way trip with my besties, Maryam, Tiqah & Zakiah. probably lepas Tiqah balik as a Dr.
7- study Master, if posibble, in Academy of Arts, Sans Francisco. my dream school! WTF wei, kawan2 aku semua tgh buat master skang! i have to catch up! seriously not gonna lose ok! *ceh tasha, ayat dengki dgn kawan2*
8- Jack, you're still in the list. lol. just dont know when is the right time. hang on :)


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ok entry ni sgt random. aku menaip takde specification. so out of the blue. tah ape yg ada dlm pala otak aku ni. gila kot? ke aku terpengaruh dgn Jack. dia sibuk citer pasal family dia. pasal his job. pasal his plan. ishh... uncle ni dah pengaruh aku plak. ok ok tasha STOP. too much exposure on Jack is not good. NO DETAILS pls.


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what? you're still reading? adei. tgk title la woi. you should stop reading by now. wakaka. dah la. byk dah aku merepek ni. eh tp aku siyes bab 8 planning tu ok. CHOW!

Tasha Leow

Happy Birthday Jack!

Jack,
Today is absolutely a great day.
A year older, a year wiser.
Best thing of all, you're with me.

We could spend time together.
We could talk our heart out.
We could have dinner together.
We could hangout together.

Damn,
Life is great, isnt it?
When you're back.
Being by my side.
On this special day.

I've missed you.
I've waited for you.

Today,
The day is finally here.
There's too much to celebrate today.
I'm just eager to meet you.
Seriously missed you.

Today,
I could hold your hands.
I could see your smile.
I could be angry at you.
I could argue with you.

Just because you're here.

You once told me that you didn't celebrate birthday.
Too bad, you have to celebrate that with me.
Because i cherish birthday more than anyone else.
And i'm gonna make sure that you enjoy yourself today.

I promise.

Happy Birthday Jack.
I hope you like your present ;)

Ace

Tipikal Sikap Melayu

Aku cakap aku mau tambah bisnes,

...diorang kondem.

Aku tanya soalan serius,

...diorang jawab main-main.

Aku buat survey market,

...diorang komen merapu-rapu. konon lawak. HAKTUIH.

Aku tengah lakar layout blog,

...diorang cakap aku tipikal seller. jual benda sama.

Aku mahu majukan bisnes,

...diorang sibuk suruh aku kawin. katanya biar husband jaga aku. WTF?

Cara-cara berbisnes pantas dikalangan manusia begini:

• Isnin aku pi amik barang.
• Selasa aku celebrate birthday Jack.
• Rabu aku pi clubbing dgn *menziarah* kawan2 kolej aku.
• Khamis aku balik Penang.
• Jumaat aku setup. Aiza @ Budak Kecik wajib mai!
• Mampoih pi kat angpa nak ckp pa pun, aku bukak kedai SABTU ni!

Dalam masa 4 bulan ni, aku KEJA KEJA KEJA KEJA KEJA.

Januari tahun depan aku masuk Bachelor of Arts (HONS) in Visual Communication Semester 7 bayar fees guna profit yg aku dpt tu.

Settle.

Ang tak puas hati tang mana habaq mai kat aku,

Tasha Leow

Komen entry ni kalau hang still baca blog aku sampai hari ni!

Fuh ramai rupanya readers aku ni lagi. ramai rupanya masih suka aku menulis. yang peliknya, korang suka sgt aku kritik org. adeh. wakakakaka. yer aku tahu blog ni dulu mmg penuh dgn ayat2 sarcasm. mmg aku pun mcm tu org nya. aku mmg sarcastic. tp aku rasa skarang ni aku dah mellow down. ntah. cuma blog 10 KRITERIA POMPUAN TAK SEDAR DIRI  tu entri yg aku dah tahan lama sgt. mmg aku tak puas hati dgn diorang. byk email aku receive. suruh continue menulis. anyway, aku pun mmg dah mula menulis balik. semangat aku dah kembali. 

blog ni dah rakamkan mcm2 pengalamaan hidup aku. empat tahun aku dgn blog ni. byk benda yg aku ceritakan kat sini. aku pernah kena saman sebab blog ni. aku pernah bergaduh sebab blog ni. aku pernah dituduh tak setia sebab blog ni. byk lagi lah. kadang2 aku mmg rasa nak tutup je blog ni. sebab aku dah rasa aku menulis tidak lagi ikhlas dan jujur. terlalu byk hati nak dijaga. blog ni dah terlalu expose. ramai kawan and keluarga aku baca blog ni. even my beloved Jack pun dah mula hooked dgn blog ni.

for now, WHAT THE HECK, i'm back and i'm gonna continue writing. for best or worst, this is me.

take it or leave it.

as for Jack,

maybe this is the best platform for you to know me, study bout me and learn the truth of my life. honestly, there's no lies in this blog. none. written straight from my heart. 

aku maki org ka, puji org ka, meluat kat org ka, fall in love dgn org ka, mmg aku tulis direct. takde nak simpan2. yes, that's my style. again, let me stress is out, TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.

Press [X]

Press Esc

Press Ctrl + Alt + F4 

...if you dislike this blog. 

for the heck i care?

i do believe, i strongly believe, despites all haters out there, there's still a beautiful human creature who still loves me just the way i am.

i'm back,

that devil named Tash!

Earring!

Just wanted to share my love!!!

oppss sorry my table is kinda messy. i'm in the process of re-arranging everything back.

Ok, i've been gloomy these few days. i just want to get rid of that gloomy environment. so i just kept myself busy with the stuff i love the most. this is the updated collection of my earring. oh yes, dont ask how i manage to collect this. i'm not really a keeper. there's some of my readers even ask;

"how did u keep all your earring without LOSING them"

"it must be expensive having that earring collection hobby"

omg i dont know how to answer question number one. because, YES i lost lots of them. most of it left in my friends' car, my friends' house and etc. i tends to take out my earring when i feel that they're annoying. there's a few more earring in my car dashboard actually. that's for emergency cases. whenever i suddenly need to go somewhere and i need to look a lil bit effortless chick, i'll just grab that one and wear. lol. i dont know either you've notice or not, but i love OVERLY done earring. the extra drapes. the extra texture. and the extra blings. hence the BIG gold earring.

oh another thing. i think i'm into bangles too nowadays. since i'm back to that tasha that wear jeans and shirt, so, i might want to style it up with bangles. the one i have on the right is my most favorite one.why? recently bought maybe. lol. i'm gonna collect more from now on. but they dont really have pretty design here in penang. i need to shop in kl. seriously! and.... i need a bangle holder to put all of my bangle.

trust me, the only way to NOT TO LOSE your item is to buy one of these things. so that u wont just put it in your drawer and forget bout it. things will ended up mixing anyway! that metal earring frame is kinda pricy if you buy retail. but if you want, i could buy for you wholesale. there's also cute design like the doll design. but it's not practical for me, as i have many earring. the doll can only hold like 5 or 6. can't recall. they also have the tree design. butterfly design. bla bla bla. mine was RM110 wholesale. the quality is very good and the metal is sturdy. not just the cheap metal u see in the silver shop.

eh wait, why am i promoting that metal?

yes i know you girls will ask me that question. oh well, i dont mind helping u buying it. just email me if u want to ;)

ok i wanna continue watching youtube. trust me, watching others collection are tremendously FUN! here's one to start with.

CLICK CLICK

p/s: i dont want to put the video here. no point since watching it in youtube is faster!

10 Kriteria Pompuan Tak Sedar Diri

1. Suka ambik port hal orang.

woi pompuan apa la masalah ang ni. aku beli baju salah. aku beli kasut tiga pasang salah. aku bercinta dgn mat salleh salah. aku dgn Jack pun salah. wei siyes angpa ni tadak life ka? free sgt sampai boleh korek aktiviti aku. please la. yes hidup aku sangat happening, ada kawan sana sini. aku ada life yang sangat fun. berbanding angpa yg kejanya 24 jam kat facebook dok terhegeh2 tengok pic2 yang aku post. WTF? sorry to say la, we're from different class. angpa ni ditakdirkan keja jadi kuli sampai mati, pastu kawin dgn mamat2 melayu yang tah hapa2, beranak 3-4, luaskan generasi pompuan tak guna. ang blajaq masuk U pun aku tak heran, sebab kat U tu ang cuma dpt pelajaran buku ja la. ang takdak pelajaran HIDUP. pastu bila tgk org, mula la kata org kena culture shock la apa la. aku tak kena culture shock. aku mmg macam ni dari kecik!

2. Talam dua muka.

perghhh aku nak maki pun ada pakai tatabahasa melayu lagi. ok part ni paling best beb. kat depan kita, depan kawan2 yg lain, dia la paling baik. baju tutup aurat semua. lengkap dgn tudung, legging panjang, sweater tah fesyen zaman bila, dgn baju ketat depa. depa kata tu tutup aurat la. taktau la pulak aku kan. setau aku tutup aurat ni pakai baju longgaq2, tudung labuh tutup dada, kaki pun tak boleh nampak kot. dia ni pakai ajaran matahari la kot. well, aku tak heran sangat la pasai aku pun bukan tutup aurat kan. aku pun pakai skirt pendek dgn singlet ja. pastu bila kita kata apa-apa depa takkan balas. tp kot blakang dok sembang mcm paria ka lagi. patut ka? tak puas hati habaq mai depan-depan. konon akhlak terdidik. mengumpat org tu tak kira berdosa ka. depa ni satu geng sama ja. 5 ekoq pakai tudung apa semua, tp perangai mcm nak haram lagi!

3. Suka "nasihat" orang.

wei, kalau orang tu nak pi kelaut ka, nak pi menjalang ka, nak pi mampoih ka, angpa sibuk tang mana? anak ang ka? konon saling menasihati tu baguih. nasihat dulu la geng2 ang tu. suruh baguih skit. konon dok susun ayat, nasihat pung pang pung pang sana sini. berlindung disebalik nama ISLAM la konon. kalau ang betui nak ikut cara islam, jgn kluaq lepak dgn kami, jgn kluaq dating dgn bf ang, jgn pi tgk movie, jgn masuk shopping mall and mcm2 lagi. tu semua melalai kan dan menggalakkan maksiat. angpa ikut buat pa???

4. Gedik tersembunyi.

Haaa part ni aku palingggg suka! depa ni kalau kat luaq punya la beikk. punya la sopan. gelak pun tutup mulut. sembang pun lembut. tadak la mcm aku ni kan. aku ni mmg sembang sora kuat, gelak pun mcm jantan, duduk pun tadak sopan santun punya. tp kalau angpa nak tau, depa2 ni la paling gedik, keloloh semua lah. senyap2 depa nanti pi msg org tu, org ni, dok bersembang. konon2 nya kawan lah. padahal tgk cara taip pun angpa dok menggedik. awat dok meghela sgt taktau? awat angpa ingat angpa laku ka? jantan ni selagi boleh layan, dia layan!!!!! BODO!

5. Jeles tahap teruk.

yang ni lagi aku tak paham. aku ni lawa sangat ka? vouge sangat ka? awat boyfriend aku turun dari langit ka? semuaaaaaa angpa nak jeles. aku pun tak paham. semua tak kena. aku pakai apa pun semua angpa nak mengata. apa angpa ingat aku taktau angpa dok mengata aku kat blakang? ni kawan beik angpa sendiri habaq angpa dok kutuk kasut aku, dok kutuk baju aku, kutuk beg aku. apa masalah sebenaqnya ni? mai aku habaq kat angpa, aku tau angpa jeles sebab angpa tak boleh pakai macam aku. sebab angpa tu pompuan kampung yg takut org kampung berbunyi bila angpa pakai macam aku. pakai baju merah terang kena kata. pakai beg warna gold kena kata. pendek kata semua kena kata. ish kesian. abeh tu angpa plak terbawak2 perangai kampung tu mai dok kl. adeiiii. semak!

6. Dress up makcik2.

ok ni lagi aku tak paham. konon2 nya angpa semua ni bekerjaya. pompuan2 elit konon lah kan. padahal keja opis ja, semua perasan korporat. KEPARAT ja kot. kawan2 aku semua bakal peguam, bakal doktor, bakal tour agent, bakal remizer tak ckp banyak pun? dok bangga terlebih la sgt. ni la antara pompuan2 yg terkena syndrome "perempuan Guess". ada aku penah cerita dulu dlm blog ni. dok bangga pakai Guess. haprak la, beli 40% diskaun ckp byk. adei. you know what, from what you wear, i can tell you which collection it was, which year it came out and when it was on sale! trust me girl, i know all that shit. stakat ang pakai last season punya barang, sorry wa tak layan! benda2 second hand, maybe sama kot dgn ang.

7. Ideologi yang sama.

kalau bab ni, aku suka sebut bab kawin. fuh depa punya sembang kawin pompang tahap pa tah. aku pun tatau. uih kena ada ini, itu. dok buat serupa boyapren depa tu sapa la. blah la wei. takayh dok berangan la. ni nak habaq mai terus terang, angpa buat la best lagu mana pun, aku punya wedding sure 100 kali lagi baguih dari angpa. ish pastu dok nasihat kat org, buat mcm tu, buat mcm ni. jgn buat mcm tu, jgn buat ni. tak baik. tak ikut adat. tak hormat org tua. kita anak pompuan ni kena jaga maruah keluarga. satu geng sama la pemikiran. dok nasihat org lebih2 pasaipa. awat angpa semua dah kawin ka? aku tengok sekoq2 dok desperate ada la. dok love love sgt kat tenet ni. last2 jantan tinggai apa pun tadak. angpa tu paling koman pun 5 tahun tua dari aku. jgn sampai nanti tak laku sudah. jantan pun naik meluat tgk angpa. dah la rupa pun tadak. angpa ingat angpa boleh nasihat2 aku dgn ideologi angpa ka? MY ASS!

8. Desperate tahap nak mati.

fuh, agak2 kalau ada jantan mana-mana ajak kawin lari pun dia ikut kot. time ni lupa la adat, agama bagai. jantan tu terang2 dok muhung dia pun dia boleh plak percaya. aku tak kata satu geng la. ni kat sorang ahli pompuan tu lah. fuyoo, punya la dok hebah2 kat org, bf dia terbaik, bf dia baguih, semayang tak tinggai. siap berangan nak kawin la apa la. pastu sampai cerita dlm kain pun mau habaq. apa dia sembang dgn jantan tu kat telefon pun nak habaq mai kat aku. last2 aku dpt tau rupanya bercinta kat telefon. jumpa pun tak penah. apa gila desperate ang ni? kawan2 dia pun sama la. lebih kurang ja cerita. depa ni ukan byk kawan pun. kawan2 depa ni byk aku kenai jugak. jantan2 ni pun dok mai bercerita dgn aku gak. aku dok melepak kedai kopi dgn depa. angpa tau ka depa siap cerita kat aku semua, SAMBIL GELAK-GELAK. angpa tak malu ka?

9. Tukang Hebah.

Fuhh... yg ni depa mmg otai. benda kecik, jadi besaq. yg besaq, boleh buat kenduri lah! topik paling hangat depa suka, topik ngata Jack aku. aku pun tak paham apa yg syok sgt mengumpat Jack aku tu. aku malas nak cerita pasai topik org len. cerita pasai aku cukup la. ada saja yg tak kena. Jack itu, Jack ini. padahal aku tgk kawan tu tak buat pa pun! mai kat aku dok sembang itu ini. konon nak nasihat elok2 la apa la. apa la masalah angpa ni. aku dgn Jack dah happy pun. dia happy, aku happy. toksah la dok buat cerita sgt aih. sampai satu tahap punya dengki kat aku dgn Jack, sampai menyamar jd org lain. konon2 nak sampai kan cerita. hello........ I TRUST MY JACK!

10. HIPOKRIT.

OK bab ni angpa mmg siye. dok ngata aku dgn kawan2 aku masuk club, masuk pub, bla bla bla. mampoih pi kat kami la. oo semua tmpt tu jahat. pi karaoke tak jahat la kan? sebab angpa pun buat. ni meenachi... kalau angpa nak tau, pompuan beik2 duduk umah kemas umah ja. takpayah kluaq pi mana2. biaq org jahat mcm aku ni ja pi kluaq melewaq. dok buat beik sgt. padahal angpa sendiri kempunan nak kluaq meronda. sudah2 la perangai hipokrit angpa tu. buat2 beik ja lebih. semayang 5 waktu angpa, agak2 tuhan terima ka dak?

Sekian.

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P/s:

Rasanya lama dah aku tak menulis mcm ni.

Aku mau berubah sebenarnya.

Cukuplah entri-entri cynical selama ni.

Aku tau blog ni pun ramai readers sebab penulisan cynical aku.

Tapi hari ni, serius aku perlu tulis entri ni.

Maaf semua.

Tak ada rasa cinta dalam penulisan kali ini.

Tak ada perasaan bahagia dalam entri ini.

Tak ada ayat-ayat gembira aku kali ini.

Tasha Leow

odd feelings

i dont feel good these few days.

something is definitely wrong somewhere.

i'm worried bout everything especially my Jack.

what is going to happen?

i have weird dreams every night.

i was gasping for air when i woke up.

i hope it's nothing serious, just my dumb feeling.

Jack, balik la cepat. i really need you.

i spend every moment worrying.

p/s: lambat lah nak tunggu 28th. damn risau. omg. please let this just be my feeling. damn.

Ace

the man that i respect the most, my entire life...

lets go watch pls pls pls pls pls! i wanna go!!

i sort of memorize his journey of life, career in politics, his thoughts, his writing and his contribution to our nation. watching this with bunch of intellectuals who actually follow his journey would be really fun!

I salute you, Mahathir. For you're the man who proves me wrong, who proves me that there's still an intelligent malay man.

*proud*

tasha leow