My Internship Result!

Time: 10:22 p.m.
Venue: Home.
Mood: Bored.
Currently: Alone.

Endy,
Sorry for the long delay of post! I'm just not in the mood to write. tonight, i dont know what seems to be the urge for me to write to you. actually, i just miss writing to you. Today i purposely write just to tell you that i've got an A for my internship! lol... I'm so happy even though i'm sure that i deserve better than 82! damn to whoever that mark my paper! i deserved better than that. damn you.

anyways, Chinese New Year is coming soon. i'm not even sure either to go back or to stay here. i'm kinda lazy to go back and meet my family. my parents came yesterday. my dad came business trip while my mom and i went to KL to buy more stock for her shop. she's endlessly complaining to me about the unstable economy that affects her business totally. she's kinda scared that we'll remain static til end of the year. ok that's scary!

we went shopping and she bought me 6 beautiful flowery dress. ok, gotta admit this, I LOVE DRESSES! for now i'm just too lazy to snap pictures but i force myself to take 1, that is also taken only by my webcam. lol... see what i mean??? i'm a lazy ass! ok, check it out.

errr... it doesnt really turn out that nice since my room lighting is very dim. well, maybe i'll post it next time when i'm wearing it. lol... neways, the red colour on the left is actually the bottom of the dress. i just randomly snap the picture. the other 5 of it??? if u wanna see it, you gotta come here yourself. lol.. who's interested anyway. what's the big deal of a girl having tons and tons of dress. omg... i'm so gonna be fancy once again.

can you imagine me being fancy once again? with all the makeup, curly hair, accessories, flurry stuff, e.t.c.!!! gosh... i'm gonna take 2 hours to get ready even for a simple dinner in Pyramid! OMG! i like the current me! simple and easy. get a short, a not so baby tee (becoz it's size M), slipper and i'm done! cool isnt it??? but then, i realize once again how ugly do i look without makeup and how messy and out of class i am when i wear those scrubs!!! wanna see?

once again, sorry for the lighting issue. in this pic, my lights was totally OFF! therefore, i look darker too. lol... TASHA, STOP BLAMING THE LIGHTS and start putting on some sunblock! god damn it i'm dark now! lol... not that i care anyway. ok people, now you get the idea of the ugly girl who's too lazy to even put on some blush!! you get it??? lol... i miss the old me!

errkkk... endy, i suddenly feel like i wanna continue my project on changing this lame blog template. i gotta go now before i run out of inspiration! bye!

Ugly,
tash

Gaza!

Whatever happen to HUMANITY?

Picture worth a thousand words!

p/s: one of the email forwarded to me!

For the name of humanity,
Tasha

World's Greatest Daddy!

Time: 1:45 p.m.

Venue: Home.
Mood: I miss home!
Currently: Touched!

Endy,
few moments ago i received an email from my daddy. it's a reply on my email to him about my disappointment of my degree studies. yes, i really wanted to study in Academy of Art, but i don't think i could afford it. for others it might be just a small issue but for me this is a dream. i've always dream of this. my email to him was rather gloomy. you know what, my dad replied with the most beautiful words he had ever said to me.

i'm so touched Endy. i never knew my dad loves me that much. in fact, tears are dropping now. gosh, i miss my family so much. i try to run away from my family problem. it's obvious that we're not okay. but i'm still in denial and keep telling myself that we're normal.

Dad,
do you know that your simple email just woke me up?? do you realize that your email just gave me full-strength. it gave me such a boost on my spirit to go on. it makes me realize that i shouldn't give up. THANK YOU so much. i do appreciate everything you've done for me.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!

I'm proud that you're my dad. you gave me all the strength in the world. i felt alive once again. i promise you that i'll never fail you, in anything. you name it. i love you. more than anything else in the world.

I love my dad,
Tasha

Seattle, Miami, San Francisco or New York???

Time: 12:36 a.m.
Venue: Still in Malaysia
Mood: Blurr..
Currently: Tired of research.

Endy,
I'm kinda exhausted and almost give up on my college research. i've contacted a few old friend in States and they suggested a few great art institute. now, i'm shortlisting my choices down to 4 which is:

The Art Institute of Seattle
The Art Institute of Miami
Academy of Art
NYIP

ok, i'm gonna elaborate more on this tomorrow coz i'm extremely sick of this college-hunt thingy. on Endy, Nite. Bye!

oh ya before i go, i wanna share some quote that i got from a random forum. i kinda like it because i'm kinda sick of fake people! well, as u read in my previous post, i really hate it when amateur claims to be camera freak. hakkkkk tuiii (spit). anyways,

"You can have the best equipment that money can buy...but if you don't know how to use it, it's all just paperweights."

p/s: I'm kinda interested in Seattle... so i might put away NY! lol...

Soon to be Bachelor of Art student,
Tasha

My IQ is 133!

Err... is this reliable? lol...

So what does an IQ score of 133 mean?
According to the Wechsler Intelligence Scales, an IQ Score of 133 is classified as very superior intelligence. Any person with an IQ score of 133 or greater is functioning within the range of very superior intelligence. The Wechsler Scales classify very superior intelligence as an IQ score in the range of 133 or higher. Furthermore, an IQ of 133 or higher means that you are more intelligent than approximately 98% of the rest of the world. Only two percent ( 2% ) of the population can match an iq score or higher.

Wedding Plan..

Time: 11:24 p.m.
Venue: Home..
Mood: Dunno..
Currently: Full! I ate a lot! Medo brought make me eat Arabic food.. lol..

Endy,
I know the title for this blog is kinda shocking... esp for a person like me.... who's least expected to get married! Actually,I've been tagged again... lol....

WEDDING PLAN

1. How old are you?
= 20

2. Are you single?
= now, who told you I'm maried?

3. In what age do you think you'll get married?
= 30 the earliest!

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
= What do you think?

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
= Can you fix it for me? lets see... i want Jamie Oliver? lol...

6. Do you want a garden/beach weeding, or the traditional wedding?
= Cruise wedding? lol...

7. Your ideal motif?
= Pearl White colour, Lilies, Unique dress code

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
= Maldives! Egypt! Malibu! Hawaii! Martha's Vineyard!

9. How many guest do you think you'll invite..
= At least 500 guest!

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
= Are you kidding me? Where on earth can you find a simple cruise wedding? lol..

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you'd make up on your own?
= Anything that comes with pearl or dazzling accessories.

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
= 1 is enough... but i want cheesecakes... it's Maryam, Tiqah and my favourite.. see, you girls are important to me... lol...

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
= Do they have hotel in a cruise?

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
= Late evening! So that i could entertain my guests with firework!

15. You's rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
= Outdoor you idiot!

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom
= Much appreciated!

17. Name the song/tune you'd like played at your wedding?
= Michael Buble - The Way You Look Tonight

18. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
= Doesn't really matter..

19. What age do you want to get married?
= I thought you just ask me this question? As i said, 30 the earliest!

20. Describe your ideal husband/wife
= Knowledgeable (I can't stand dumb people), Doesn't have to be good looking but definitely neat and tidy, HONEST, OPEN-MINDED, Crucial-thinking person, Understand my passion towards art.

21. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
= Fine Dining.

22. Champagne or red wine?
= Champagne and red wine for gents, Martini and Absolute Vodka for ladies. How do you like that, people??

23. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
= A week after wedding should be suitable.

24. Money or household item?
= Money! Yes people, put this in mine. i prefer "angpow"!

25. Who will pay for the bill?
= For the sake of Liberalization, 50-50.

26. Are you ready for married life?
= Hell no!

27. will you always be true to your wife/housband?
= Yes I'm indeed a loyal person.

28. How many kids do you like to have?
= Pleaseee, i'll try to make it none!

29. A new house for a newly wed or and old one?
= Any house, but no parents or siblings.

30. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding or diamond wedding?
= A spoonful of silver, A dab of gold and A handful of diamond... sounds interesting?

31. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
= As long as it's not Western, Italian, French, Korean, Japanese, then i'm fine with it.

32. Will you record your honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
= Have you ever heard of Hard-disk Handycam?

33. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next? choose 5 person.
= I think the person who will be interested in wasting their time with this thingy is Eta, Maryam, Ain, Sharifah and .... errr... i dunno...

Endy... this thing basically wasted my 30 minutes.... hahahaha.... anyway... it's kinda interesting to think about it for a moment... even though i dont believe in marriage... at least not at this age...

Wasted my 30 mins of life,
Tasha

Welcome 2009!

Time: 03:22
Venue: Home
Mood: Happy

Endy,
wow... it's 2009! i'm happy i'm stepping into a new year... means it's gonna be another journey of my life! i completed my 2008 with a big success i suppose... lol... i did complete my Diploma in Computer Studies in December... i'm happy because i'm on track... i did not fell like some people who's just wasting their money and time! oppsieee... am i offending anyone? sorry.. don't blame me for you being stupid... stupid enough to enjoy your college life until you forgot to study for finals... is that my fault? sorry then... i'm graduating soon... lol... i'm mean... life with it... lol...

so, i went to OU just now to celebrate new year... yeah... 4-5 invitations to go to both open and private party... nah... that's not my life anymore... i think i prefer to celebrate it with the person who always help me and who's always there with me as a friend... well, actually i was planning to go out just with Medo, since Ja is going back to Oman tonight... yes... of all night, he choose to go back tonight... ain't it clever? lol... sorry bro for not sending you to KLIA... can you buy for me Davidoff Classic when you come back??? pleaseee...

ok... my plan A is cancelled... going to plan B when Suba and Sharon invited me to celebrate new year with them... yeah... nothing fancy that we do... just joining the crowd in OU... crapping while waiting for new year countdown... but one thing for sure... i knew that i'm celebrating it with a friend who's indeed a real friend... all this while... i've been celebrating my new year with friends that are fake... i mean, not all... friend like Alex (cousin actually) and Nick (during that time, we're love birds) are true friend. until now, they never failed to make me feel alive... thanks guys for those wonderful moments... i really appreciate it...

as i grow older, i've learn several things in life.... and i've learn that nothing is impossible... i believe in that... i even believe that i could see god if i wanted too... and today i'm grateful that i'm still standing here, breathing the air made by god, and following the destiny that he had planned for me... i wish that i could really succeed in life... i'm one step closer to the word SUCCESS... 2009 will be my next level of education... i will be doing my degree soon... where? that's a really good question... it actually depends on my financial... for now... i can afford studying in Raffles... but i'm planning to postponed my studies in Raffles as i found a way to get some capital... if i got this capital... then i'm off to the Academy of Art....

i hope this year will be a lucky year for me... i've put on efford... now it only depends on god either to make it white or black... whatever it is... i can see myself climbing up to another stage of life... i promise to myself that i'm gonna be better than today... newly improved Tasha Leow... i will wait for that moment... where i could look back and be proud of what i did... whatever people talk bout me... i am me... i am who i wanna be... you are talking about me because i dont fit your criteria of favourite person... well... too bad... i was too busy fitting the criteria that i choose to be... dont you ever question that...

I BELIEVE IN MYSELF!

i believe i could change my destiny... i believe i could colour my future with my favourite color... i believe i will travel all around the world with my slr... this is a promise to myself...

2008 - graduate from Sunway
2009 - enroll in Academy of Art / Raffles
2011 - pursue master
2013 - commercial photographer

so here is the rough idea of my plan... well at least... i'm sure i'm gonna pursue my degree... so up to 2011... it's all right in track... for master... i'm still thinking about it... i still have to take over family business... and i still have to plan for my dad's retirement present, HARDWARE STORE. yes... that's his dream... i knew it... he loves DIY stuff... and he told me about it before... i knew he could actually have it... but he have to hold it back because of us, his children. papa, i appreciate what you've done... and of course, mama, i knew that you're always there with me... thanks for this opportunity to continue my education... if it's not because of you... i'm gone.. i wont have this beautiful moment of having a diploma in my hand.. you always knew that i loves studying... and you always supported my dream... thank you to both of you...

I SALUTE YOU, FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT PARENTS!

so, as i was planning, i wanna settle up a hardware store for him to work on when he retired... i knew he's not gonna sit down and do nothing... i knew him... he'll always make himself busy... maybe helping my mom at the boutique? if it's possible, i dont want them to work... but i know my parents... both are workaholic person.. life is dedicated to their job...

ok, i might not continue till master... i might just quit when i got my degree... because i wanna save enough capital for the store... i wish i could... and i know i could... i will do it... with no hesitation, i will do whatever i can to make it happen... well, as for my last plan... 2013, being a commercial photographer... well, i dont know why... i'm just interested in commercial... yeah... i knew it's a tough world out there... but i know i wanna give it a try... as they always said...

"I'd rather fail as an artist, than succeed as something else"

yes... i do agree with this... so, i will try my best and not only best, but also better to ensure myself to own such an honour of remembering what i've achieved one day... i wanna look back one day and tell myself that i did good... i want to be able to have that power to smile and say " Tasha, you did it". i wanna proudly tell Tiqah that i'm a photographer, for real... not just some random people who bought a SLR and claims themselves as "Photographer". that title might be just something normal to anyone. but for me, that title is such an honour to have... because it's just my dream to have that title...

well, people will always think that jobs like doctor, lawyer or accountant is a very honourable job... for me, a photographer is a ver honourable job.. capturing moments... creating arts... telling story to the whole world... with just... a PICTURE. isn't that awesome??? and for those who thinks camwhoring makes you a photographer, please, please, please go get a life! shit... just because your parents are rich enough to buy you a SLR, doesnt makes you a photographer... ok? get the point? yes, i'm annoyed with you, and you, and you... please dont come to me and show off your stuff, while you dont even know how to tolerate aperture and shutter... oh please... i'm annoyed, enough to kill you... ok???

and...

to the artist, the great photographer... i do adore you guys... yes... one of your website/blog counter hits are from me... i visited awesome artwork... it really inspire me... and for Strobist, Martin Evening, Scott Kelby... you guys rocks.. and you guys are just my favourite! i do learn a lot... i used to sit in library for hours... looking for your tutorial... keep on going guys! people, if you wanna learn, these people are just great!

so... this year... i wanna wish everyone a very energetic new year.. may all your wish come true... in life, there's always ups and down... believe in karma... there's always something for someone... dont worry too much... you'll get what you want... i believe in you... trust me... the only thing you have to do is to believe that you're everything... and the first thing you should do to be successful... is to ignore others... they'll never stop talking...

CHEERS!

I love 2009,
Tasha

2008 is Ending Soon...

Time: 16.45
Venue: Bukit Jalil
Mood: Blurrr

Endy,
I'm back in KL and i'm going out with Suba later... New Year with Alex? no freaking way! lol... that fucker is inane! he's flying to Singapore later on... i believe he's gonna see her! lol...

i cant wait for 4th January... my Ipod is coming!!! i'm preparing stuff to be junk into my Ipod! lurrrrve it... so... what should i put inside a 32g Ipod? lol....

i gtg.. bye..

oh ya...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

wishes u goodluck,
Tash

Err... Tag??

I was browsing u-jean's blog and i found this interesting stuff... plus, i have nothing to do now and i'm freakin bored.. so, imma try it out...

The rules

Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test

I don’t watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friends’ ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I’m obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

ok... now i wanna stab:
1. Emily
2. Maryam
3. Ain
4. Eta
5. Boi

In love with Jamie!

Time: 17.00
Venue: Home!
Mood: Happy!
Currently: Full!

Endy,
i'm watching Jamie Oliver cooking Pumpkin soup and baking cupcakes.... it looks so tempting, makes me feel like going to the bakery. now, any chef out there available? can we date? lol... i'm going to be even bigger than now! my shirt size is going to swift from medium to large!

gosh... one day i'm gonna meet this Jamie guy and congratulate him for being such a good chef! hehehe... Endy... shit..i have to go... my mum asked me to cook for dinner.... ok bye....

feeling hungry now,
Tasha