Ending the semester soon!

Time: 6.37 a.m.
Venue: My Honey's home!
Mood: Dunno...
Condition: Extremely worn-out
Currently: Waiting for him to come back

Endy,
seriously, it's been a long time since i last write to you... i even forgot my blog format... i was thinking just now... was it "Mood" first or "Condition" first?? i'm so sorry Endy... i've been such a selfish friend... i've abandoned you. pardon me... i'm done with my Oracle assignment... just finished it... i'm finishing this 6th semester in just a week. my last paper is on 15th July and then i'm done! enough of studying. so, where did i last stop? ok... let me talk bout studies first. i'm seriously worried about my programming. i didnt do well in the test. i dunno why. i thought i'm well prepared. well, not to blame anyone, but i think it's due to my family problem. anyway, they seems to calm down now, at least for a while. let me have a peaceful exam mood.

next semester i'm going to do my internship and i'm left with few choices. well, now i know the importance of knowing lots of people. i got a few job offer through friends. they wanna recommend me to their boss/friends. i dunno. maybe i'll take it. or maybe i'll continue my degree. oppss... DEGREE?? another 2 years of hell? WTF? enough! i cant study anymore. not with all the pressure going on right now.. i prefer to work. speaking of work, i might be getting internship in Shah Alam. so, i talked to my parents about it and they say that i could get a car for that job. my dad suggested me to buy one small car and sell of that big + high maintenance car. so, i think that's quite a good idea since this stupid Malaysia is having the stupid fuel price hike. thanks to Pak Lah. you're so not gonna get my vote!

i'll be having Oracle exam on monday and i dont know either i'm ready or not. the lecturer sucks! i'm totally lost confidence in exam. i dont think i'm gonna score any A this semester. well, lets forget bout that. i dont give a damn anymore. i just wanna enjoy my holiday now. i'm going back to penang after 15th. i'm gonna meet my bestie there and have fun. my dear lucky Tiqah is flying to India soon. so, i wanna spend my time with her. i'm so gonna miss her. i already am. she's such a great friend. she gave me hopes when i needed it the most. she opens up doors to my darkest room. pheww... tasha, stop rambling!

i might go back to Sunway on Sunday. hurm... maybe i should rephrase my word. i HAVE to go back to Sunway this Sunday. i promise Sharon and Emi that we're gonna study together. but the thing is... i'm sick. seriously... i went to clinic yesterday. the doctor gave me few craps to eat. i dont even touch it. haha... i hate pills! and i think that doctor is illiterate! so... just let the fever goes by itself.

Endy,
i believe that you cant even imagine how busy i've been lately. i dont even go out lately. it's been a month i guess. i've been staying at home... CORRECTION.. Medo's home... i hope things will be better after i got my job. i wanna start working as soon as possible. just now i went to visit Mei Phing's blog and wowwww... she updated her blog with a dozen of entries.. this means i didnt read her blog for quite a period. damn... what happen to me? i hope i can coup with my life soon!

hurm.. i wanna sleep. i'm tired... i cant wait for him anymore... so sleepy! bye Endy.. i love you!

A Friend,
Tasha Leow

Most Precious Birhday Wishes!

Time: 20:22

Venue: Still in Medo’s place

Mood: Bored

Condition: Dunno…

Currently: Reminiscing life!

Endy,

I was supposed to sit here and do my assignment, but instead, I choose to come here and talk to you.. Medo, is sleeping, I guess he’s tired.. i opened my mail just now. I have one folder that keeps all the email that I wanna keep. I opened one email that I last open on 20^th May 2008. It says,

I may not be by your side…

Celebrating your birthday with you…

But I want you to know

That I’m thinking of you…

& wishing you

a wonderful

BIRTHDAY!

Well, do you realize that I didn’t post any blog on my 20^th birthday?? I was sad actually… not because of this email… but because all of my friend was not there just like before.. what happen to us?? I don’t expect much on them.. just a simple meet up and being crazy… anyway.. thanks to Medo, for being there, having nice dinner with me and not to forget, the gorgeous necklace and ring. Honey, I really don’t know when you bought that ring! You were with me all week! Well, this might be a little bit late, but THANKS a lot for those beautiful present…

Endy,
Frankly speaking, I was really down because my friend was not there with me… but I know they have responsibility… at least Tasha Renee, Soya and Raymond came to AC that Friday… the rest was busy with assignment and test.. well, I was cheered by that birthday email.. my intention of writing this blog today is to say thanks to the person. You make me feel that I’m not forgotten. Thanks for remembering my birthday, or at least putting it in your calendar or something. Your email was simple, but touchy. Again and again, you never failed to make me feel better. That’s one thing I love about you. I’m glad that I used to know you. Yeah, you changed, but, there’s some part that never change, your KINDNESS and CARE. You’re such a great person to know and believe that I’m proud to have you as a friend. I wanna tell you that you’ve touch my life and you’ve teach me precious lesson in life. Thanks once again, for everything you’ve done for me. It really meant a lot for me, Imran.

To Su Weng, Papa, Hairie, Emi, Dekkai, Choo Yen, Soya, Aunt Ain, thanks for the sms birthday wishes. To others that I can’t state here ( the list is too long!), thanks for the wishes too… and of course, thanks for the present!!!! I know this is a bit late post, but I really don’t have time for this blog nowadays. I’m so busy with life and studies. I’m trying my best to coup.

Endy,
Actually I wanna write more, but my friend is messaging me in MSN, asking for help. I need to help him ok. I GTG. Bye.

Thanks,

Natasha

(Only you call me with this name)

Some Survey I Did Just to Kill My Time

Time: 13:48
Venue: Medo's Place
Mood: Bluurrr
Condition: Ok!
Currently: Listening to Malay song!

Endy, this is just a quick survey i did... hehee... got it from a buletin posted in friendster by Wanie, my ex-schoolmate!

If you were really upset, who is the first guy you'd go to?
Medo :P

Who is the first girl you go to?
Maryam and Tqah!

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Like duh... i'm the most straight-forward you've ever met!

Do you prefer to take showers in the morning, or night?
Does it make a different? my time is upside down!

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
Yes i do! i know i affect their life coherently! haha...

Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
Part of it.. S.K. something2... haha...

Which year has been the best so far?
2003 is still in memory, 2007 is also in memory, but this year is the best year for now...

Last text message in your inbox?
Which phone? hehe... from Soya and Nick

Break someone's heart or have your heart broken?
my heart is still broken.. but someone is putting it back in pieces... thanks Medo!

Three feelings at the moment?
Happy, worried, whimsical!

Last movie you watched?
serious, couldn't recall!

Last song you sang out loud:
Usher - Love in the Club, and i'm still singing it loudly now!

What's your favorite number?
8

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
wow, this is the hardest thing in the world... i have a freaking long list! hurm.. maybe 1 tera of harddisk will do!

Who makes you happiest right now?
with no doubt, MEDO!

What's the last thing you thought about?
to skip my Video Production class!

Do you think a relationship can last 6 months without cheating?
Yes, cheating is not my kinda stuff...

What is one thing you question a lot?
LIFE!

Are you married?
theoretically NO!

What did you do last night?
things i do the best, WASTING TIME, surfing the net!

Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
for sure, sunset! i'm not even awake when the sun rise!

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
doesnt make any different to me! single or taken, i still rule my life!

Have you ever liked someone who treated you badly?
not only like, I LOVE HIM and i still do! but it's all cool... i'm deleting you outta my life!

Last person you said I love you to?
You know yourself :P

What are you doing tommorrow?
Programming and Video Production class + staying back for 3D assignment... sounds fun huh? WTF???

Do you think you'll be married in 10 year?
Hell no!!!

Why is your relationship status the way it is?
because i love him and we trust each other!

Who do you dislike currently?
oh, another long list! hehe...

Are you in a good mood?
hell yeah! hehe....

just me,
Tasha

Harga Minyak Naik(Fuel Price Hike)

Time: 18:55
Venue: Still in Medo's place
Mood: Angry?
Condition: A bit sick, period pain
Currently: listening and reading through complaints of our Rakyat

Endy,
i'm just dropping by to paste something that i got from my YM... well, i think i wanna share it with our dear malaysian... as everybody knows, the price of our fuel has risen from RM1.92 per liter to RM 2.70 per liter which is RM0.78 rise! all consumer are mad now... well, including me! electricity for home use charge increased to 18%. seriously, wtf is wrong with our government. i'm sure after this all the cab will take this chance to rise up the charges... man, i really wanna get out from Malaysia... we suffer a lot.. and yet, our government is not poor! i really want Dr. Mahathir back! ok, i dont want to talk much... if i were to complaint on this stupid fucked up country... opppss... i mean the system.... i will take like 100 years to finish complaining.... i really miss states now.. i wanna go back there!

-------------------------the thing that i wanna paste earlier, it's in Malay--------------------

Mari kita bandingkan harga minyak di negara pengeluar minyak lain.
Adakah Malaysia yang paling rendah?
UAE– RM1.19/litre
Eygpt– RM1.03/litre
Bahrain– RM0.87/litre
Qatar– RM0.68/litre
Kuwait– RM0.67/litre
Saudi Arabia– RM0.38/litre
Iran– RM0.35/litre
Nigeria– RM0.32/litre
Turkmenistan– RM0.25/litre
Venezuela– RM0.16/litre
MALAYSIA– RM2.70/litre

p/s: they also include one URL for us to visit. this is a petition online, collection signature for Pak Lah to step down. Go check it out people! I did sign anyway, even though i know the voice of the Rakyat is useless!

Petition to Get Malaysian Prime Minister to Step Down. "Vote of No Confidence in Parliament".

hatred,
Tasha

Family Crisis + Final Sem = Fucked up Tasha

Time: 1.56 a.m. (according to my phone)
Venue: Medo's place
Mood: Fucked up!
Condition: Worried
Currently: Thinking of my parents...

Endy,
again, i have to apologise from you... i know it's been a while since the last time i talk to you... and i have to apologise once again for being such a selfish friend... i'm only here when i'm having problem... Endy, i really need you now... i need all of my friend to be here beside me... i need Yam... i need Tiqah... My parents argue to the max nowadays... well, you know that i dont talk on family matters here. but right now... i just need to talk to you... i really do... my biggest problem now is i dont know who's lying... is it my dad who's having another girl, or is it my mom who's turning crazy? since last week, i've been listening to their complaint towards each other... my ears started to bleed by now... too much unsure things... yes.. i know everybody will ask me... why dont they sit down and talk??? the problem here is... my dad thinks that my mom is an idiot and my mom believe that my dad is a hot-tempered, egoistic guy (which is true). so... i dont know who to believe now... and i dont want to choose to believe any of them.. i'm not on anyone's side... i tell my mom, if u cant take it anymore, then just call it a break... there's no point living with someone that you couldnt respect anymore... i mean, that's for me.. me and her, we're totally a different person...

my mom called the girl that my dad were dating(that's what she said), and that girl complaints to his boss... so, my dad is getting the smash over there... he asked my mom and she refuse to admit that it's her... so just now when i was nicely trying to sleep, my dad forward to me a sms that he wrote to my mom, saying that he's gonna report to the police about the number that called that girl... my mom is worried right now... she asked me what to do... well, my solution is, to report that the number they used as lost... well, i dont know either this is a good way... for me, now both of them are having a very high ego conflict that will never be resolve if they dont sit down and talk as an adult...

well, as for my side... i'm so fucking stress right now... this is my final sem.. i keep telling them that fact over and over again... yes, i know they needed someone to help them out.. or at least someone to listen... but come on... do i need to talk on the phone like 1 hour for each of you EVERYDAY? this is so stressful... i'm supposed to pass up my 3D assignment on 4th June and i couldnt finish rendering the model(thanks to this fucked up slow laptop), so i decided to pass it up on Friday... which means, i'll lose 5 marks for late submission... i have no choice... i rather lost 5 marks than passing up a fucked up work... next week i'll be having my programming test... and i have to pass up the programming assignment by next week too... next two weeks is the deadline for my video assignment and i dont even start anything yet... i'm being busy thinking about this matter... well, i'm not trying to put the blame on them... and i'm not being lazy... it's just that, in my field(multimedia), we cant force ourself to do work... it's not easy to create a piece of art... i mean, how do you expect me to create an art when my heart is scattered everywhere??? whatever it is, i thank gods that the oracle assignment deadline is in July... but i still need to worry on my final project... the website...

Endy,
frankly speaking, i have too many things that i wanna talk to you... but i just dont have the time to sit and type everything... i'm worried bout my parents, A LOT! anyway, i hope things will get better for me... i know i'm not having the worst condition right here... but i just cant keep it to myself anymore Endy... my dreams on my photography world is gone... i'm trying to live my life with the fact that i'll never pursue my degree in photography anymore... and now, my parents is making another fuss... i'm depressed... i'm frustrated... i'm sad... i'm down... but, i know i will survive this... tasha survive anything... it's just matter of time...

Endy,
i'm having period pain right now... awfully painful... and my head started to get dizzy now... the wire cant take the load of problem that is inside i guess... my body started to get weak... my mood is pulling off... the only one that makes me smile is him... i know he's worried about me.. and i really thank god that i have him now... he really care bout me... he understand me, VERY WELL! Honey, thanks for being here with me... i do appreciate it.. and i'm sorry if i hurt you with my silentness... i just dont know what to answer when you asked me "are you ok?" you know i cant lie to you... so if i answer yes, means i'm lying and you'll know it straightaway, since you know me very well... and if i say no, means you'll be worried bout me... trust me, i'll be fine... i just need some space... to sit and think about all this shit... and also... most important thing of all, MY FUTURE!

Bye Endy!

i'm their daughter,
their one and only,
Natasha

Happy Birthday Tiqah!

Time: 8:48 a.m.
Venue: My Honey's place...
Mood: Happy..
Condition: Kinda tired and sleepy
Currently: Accompanying him studying...

Endy,
Morning dear... kinda weird huh to get a blog from Tasha early in the morning?? hehe... i dont even sleep yet... as usual... being an owl... How are you Endy?? i'm enjoying my holiday... this is one of the most miraculous holiday i've ever have... spending time doing nothing and counting days for my birthday this 20th May... i'm gonna be 20 this year... getting older... getting wiser... and of course... i'm happier than last year...

as the matter of fact, i'm really falling in love with him... he's great... i didnt regret risking my soul for him... i'm really happy... i felt appreciated when i'm with him... one best thing about him is i can talk to him... about anything... you name it... he always listen... even though we argue most of the time.. hehehe... i feel free whenever i'm with him...

phew... lets change the topic now... dont want to talk so much on him... i dont want to be addicted to him... well, today is my very best friend's birthday... Atiqah!!! i miss you babe! i'm sorry i cant be there on your birthday... i'm just having too much thing in my hand now... and my honey is having exam today... i have to support him... but dont worry babe... i've got your pressie with me... hehehe...

Tiqah,
trust me, you're one of my very best friend... you've done a lot for me... and i'll never forget that... nobody can ever take your place in my whole entire life... you hold a special place right here... i do miss you, a lot!! i wish i'm there in Penang... i'm sure if i'm there... you'll get one day leave from your boss!! we'll have so much fun!! whatever it is babe, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY... may god bless you... my prayers will always be with you... frankly, i'll miss you when you leave to India for your medical studies... in fact, i'm already missing you now... whatever it is, you're a great friend... i can still remember those days... Cambridge Diploma class... Starbucks... FoodLoaf... our passion towards coffee and cakes... our madness towards penang food... phew... i miss it all... i cant imagine living 5 years without you here!! damn!! haha... wtf am i being emotional early in the morning??? i'm leaving to States too... New York!! wait for Tasha... she's coming with her DSLR!!! it's just the matter of time...

ok-ok... let me stop this crap... i wanna go now... i'll update you next time ok Endy!! i'm blurr today... dunno what to do on my birthday... but one thing for sure, i'll be having 4 birthday party this year.... Endy, i wanna go disturb my honey now... haha... pity him... been studying since yesterday night... bye Endy... hehehe...

happy,
Tasha

I'm Confused, I just dont understand!

Time: 1:07

Venue: His place

Mood: Dizzy

Condition: In pain

Currently: Waiting for someone..

Endy,

i finally finish up my assignment on the Video Production... phew... i didnt sleep the whole night and i manage to finish everything at 9 o'clock in the morning... after that, i sleep and sleep until 6 something... phew... what a nice thing to do!!! hehehehe... i'm still having 3D, VB and Implementation Project to do... both VB and IP will due after holiday... right now, i'm enjoying my holiday after the stupid fucked up semester.... i really hate this semester...

Endy,

do you know that you're the person i value the most?? you wanna know why?? because you listen.. because you understand... because you're just you... sometimes i really cant understand people... they can be ok at a time... and they can be uneasy at a time... well, all i can do is to wait for an answer... i'm not gonna ask anymore question... you know me right?? whenever i decide on something, that's it... i wont look back... for Nick, you should know this very well... we have to learn it the hard way now...

i'm so useless right now... i dont know what to do... i dont even know what to write to you Endy... but i just feel like talking to you... i miss you, dude! i miss those sweet lily you used to give me every single day... i miss you sweet voice.... advicing me on life... i miss everything we used to have... one thing i like about you is you're always open to me... by this... i dont feel useless... at least i know something... do i look like i dont deserve to know anything??? am i pampered??? i believe that i'm one of the person that people will turn to whenever they have obstacles in life... well, i dont expect much... i just wanna know what's wrong... hurm... should i post this blog later?? or should i keep it together with all the private blog i've write to you???

i'm so confused... i just dont understand... hurm... i better stop thinking of this...i dont want to have a sad face here, at my dearest's place... for now.. i just wanna spend the whole week with him... and then set back to college with a fresh mind... seriously.... i'm so sick of college... i really need a break... Endy, i'm really nto in the mood right now... Amir is chatting with me online... i wanna go talk to him... i'll continue next time ok??? i love you pal!

confused,

Tasha

Time: 1:07

Venue: His place

Mood: Dizzy

Condition: In pain

Currently: Waiting for someone..

Endy,

i finally finish up my assignment on the Video Production... phew... i didnt sleep the whole night and i manage to finish everything at 9 o'clock in the morning... after that, i sleep and sleep until 6 something... phew... what a nice thing to do!!! hehehehe... i'm still having 3D, VB and Implementation Project to do... both VB and IP will due after holiday... right now, i'm enjoying my holiday after the stupid fucked up semester.... i really hate this semester...

Endy,

do you know that you're the person i value the most?? you wanna know why?? because you listen.. because you understand... because you're just you... sometimes i really cant understand people... they can be ok at a time... and they can be uneasy at a time... well, all i can do is to wait for an answer... i'm not gonna ask anymore question... you know me right?? whenever i decide on something, that's it... i wont look back... for Nick, you should know this very well... we have to learn it the hard way now...

i'm so useless right now... i dont know what to do... i dont even know what to write to you Endy... but i just feel like talking to you... i miss you, dude! i miss those sweet lily you used to give me every single day... i miss you sweet voice.... advicing me on life... i miss everything we used to have... one thing i like about you is you're always open to me... by this... i dont feel useless... at least i know something... do i look like i dont deserve to know anything??? am i pampered??? i believe that i'm one of the person that people will turn to whenever they have obstacles in life... well, i dont expect much... i just wanna know what's wrong... hurm... should i post this blog later?? or should i keep it together with all the private blog i've write to you???

i'm so confused... i just dont understand... hurm... i better stop thinking of this...i dont want to have a sad face here, at my dearest's place... for now.. i just wanna spend the whole week with him... and then set back to college with a fresh mind... seriously.... i'm so sick of college... i really need a break... Endy, i'm really nto in the mood right now... Amir is chatting with me online... i wanna go talk to him... i'll continue next time ok??? i love you pal!

confused,

Tasha

For Better or Worst!

Time: 4:16 a.m.
Venue: Indah Villa Condo
Mood: Bored..

Endy,
well, million of sorry to you and my reader out there... guys... i've been freaking busy these days... classes, assignments, pool sessions, and of course, HIM. Endy, how are you, dear? i hope you're fine! as for me, i'm in the best of health! never been better anyway.... life is as usual... fun and happening... gosh... i really dont know where to start my blog... i've been abandoning this blog for so long! sorry Endy... i know you miss me! i miss you too... i miss writing to you every night... but my schedule just doesnt allow me to! i'm supposed to be sleeping by now, but i just cant... so i thought of writing to you...

as for classes, as usual, boring and dull class! thanks to Su Weng for making me going to class!! he's really a great friend... for now, i'm having one assignment which the deadline is this Friday! it's my video assignment... i have to write a proper script on some movie that i like and make proper planning... this assignment will lead to the 3rd one later... so i cant screw up this one! i have ideas on the storyline, but the hard part is the production planning... damn it's tough! i'm gonna get my VB and 3D assignment soon... actually i already got it... but it's not official yet... my lecturer gonna upload it to their folder.... i dont mind doing VB and Oracle... but 3D and Video is very challenging! yeah, i love multimedia... but... this shit is seriously not my cup of tea! ok, i dont want to elaborate more on studies... i'm sick enough! i just cant wait to graduate! finishing soon, thank god!

as for me and him.. we're doing fine... we're still in the process of knowing each other... he's seriously my type of guy.... he understand me, even though not perfectly, but still, he knows me and he loves me the way i am... i really appreciate that. no doubt that i like his attitude as well... he shares almost everything with me... i know that... and i love it... because with this, we can avoid misunderstanding... i really hate it when people misunderstood me! i'm not gonna say he's a perfect person for me... but what i know is... he knows who i am, we've never hide anything from each other... however, i still feel scared of this relationship... i'm scared to fall in love... maybe one day he will leave me... just like what Nick did... just like others.... yes... i'm taking a risk here... Endy, if one day, this relationship failed, will you be with me? will you sit beside me and wipe my tears?

Endy,
i'm an idiot right? right now, i'm supposed to be happy with him... i'm supposed to tell you all the sweet story... i'm supposed to be the happiest girl in the world... but why do i have to be worried? why? because i knew the feeling of being hurt. i knew what does it feel to be left unsaid. i knew the feeling of being humiliated. i dont want to face it all over again... god, can you let me hold this happiness forever? can this be eternity? you've been taking my soul piece by piece and yet, i still try my best to survive... i dont know either i could survive this time... you can take anything in this world but please... not the person that i love...

i dont know why i feel like this Endy! can you explain it to me? i dont want to be like this... i want to smile for him.. i always want him to be happy whenever he's with me. i hope i'm being a great girl for him. i don't want him to feel awkward. i dont want him to be worried of me. frankly, i just dont know why the hell am i thinking like this... yes, i admit, i'm 100% happy with him... it's just that i feel insecure... it's just me... fix it for me please! i started to fall in love once again..

i fall in love with his attitude.. i fall in love with his character... i fall in love with his charisma... i even fall in love with his broad-minded mind! yes, this is the quality that we share. he always owns an opinion that really suit my mind.. he's free... he never control... he argue.... a lot! and i love it... the best part is... he treated me as a human... Endy, in me, there's love for him... there's responsibility for him... and most importantly, there's something called RESPECT for him... he's one of the person that made me listen to him... you know it's hard for me to listen to someone, right? but i do listen to him... not because he's my guy, but because i have such a high level of respect for him...

Endy,
my mind is kinda blank right now.. maybe because i used it too much on my video assignment... and it's still not done! i have to continue it tomorrow! hopefully i could finish it by Thursday night! well, i better get going now... i have class at 10.30... i'm going to Digital Mall in PJ in the afternoon with Andrew. i wanna check out few gadget... hehehe... gtg Endy.. night! bye!

I love you,
Tasha

1 week of madness!

Time: 6.16 a.m.
Venue: My Kitchen
Mood: Happy
Condition: Worried
Currently: Listening to Sayang Sayang, sang by Alif Aziz...

Endy,
Again, for i dont know how many times, i have to apologize to you.... i'm really sorry Endy... sorry for abandoning this blog... i lost interest in lots of thing nowadays... maybe because i was too busy with my brand new life with him... well, life still goes on as usual, but i have to add an extra slot for him... i want to spend quality time with him...

so, it's like almost a week i didnt write to you right??? the last time was the time i declare to you that i'm taken... well, today is thursday... i dont have class later but still going to college to finish up my video assignment... i still need to shoot video... me and Melita are doing ghost movie titled Dare Not. well, her part is done... now left mine... i have to design SCT flag for our Sports Carnival too... i'm done with the players' list.... FINALLY! that Yong is useless... bugging me with the list.... so, today i'm gonna go to college, grab some food, meet Corrine for my Video Camera form, then go to lab to do some research on the flag design.... next, i'm gonna meet Victor for the flag design.... Melita and Raymond may tag along... we have to finish it by today... if not, Victor is gonna kill me! hehe... and i really have to finish up my video today... tomorrow is the last submission date!

i skipped lots of class nowadays... i'm fucking up my 3D classes mostly... i hate 3D... but Mr. Asmadi s trying his best to help me, since i skip lots of class.... dont worry Sir.... i'm smart... i could catch up... i'll prove it in my assignment! hahahaha... lansi!! oh well, speaking of 3D, reminds me of the lab work that i have to pass up... by Friday! hahah... damn stress!! today is really gonna be a busy day for me! i'm suppose to go to Bukit Jalil but i cancelled it... because my workload is just too much! i'm sorry dear! i know i already promise you... but i just cant... works comes first...

Endy,
since i havent write to you for almost a week, let me briefly update what i've been doing for the last 6 days... well, last Friday, i went to Mr. Asmadi's class, fool around with the 3D Max Studio and i skipped Mr. Tee's class.... i hate programming... seriously... but dont worry Endy... i got the notes from SuWeng.... hehehe.... thanks SuWeng... you're such an angel.. you're always an angel...

on Saturday i attend that stupid 4 hours Oracle class... phew... it was seriously boring... come on Sir... we do have basic in MySQL... so, basic Oracle shouldnt be a problem for us! after that killing class, i went Pyramid to get a new bag... and yes, i finally bought a bag... remember i promise myself that i'm gonna keep my saving for something else??? yes, i really manage to spend a little money for my bag... i'm so happy for myself... i actually liked few bag.... but i finally bought this huge black shiny Nike bag... i'm in love with it... i'm proud of myself! then i get some other stuff like my sandal, nose-ring and etc. then, Matthew finally arrived! we plan to go to Bukit Jalil together.... so, from Pyramid we hoop on a bus to KTM Subang Jaya and took the train to Bandar Tasik Selatan station... then... blablabla... we change 3 train in order to get there.... trust me, it was fun! Matthew is so not used of taking train! he's so spoilt! we stayed there until Sunday... we have so much fun! we dont really go anywhere... but hanging out with crazy people are really fun... Sunday night, Nick came with his last minute assignment... he asked me to help him, due to my bombastic english vocab (according to him).

we went back quite late.. around 4 something... i overslept for Mr. Johnny's class... shit man!! but i went for Mr. Ken's class... well, i love Mr. Ken's class.... he's good... and one thing bout him is he love photography too... he's concern bout his student... especially me... haha... sorry Sir... i skipped too much class... but i'll manage it... dont worry... on Tuesday i skipped his class, but this time with his permission... i went to Bukit Jalil... because we're going to Myanmar Festival in Inti Nilai... phew... speaking of the festival... i have too much fun there!! seriously... well, the party was not that great... i mean, compared to all of the party i've been too.... but this one is special in the sense that it's full of Myanmar student studying in Sunway College, Inti, APIIT and etc.... we have water fight for hours at the party... and you know what... i'm the victim for the guys... i dont know why! maybe because i'm tough to defeat... hahahaha... too bad guys... you're messing with the wrong girl...

Mido and me agreed to be single on that night... hehehe... at first we're single... but when the party is ending, we're sitting together and all.. people start staring at us... and again, we become the water victim... come one guys... dont envy us! we're newly coupled! hahaha... i am so proud when he intro me as his girl... yes dear, i do... i do appreciate it... makes me feel special... well, guys... one thing i have to confess for sure.... Myanmar chick are hot!!! especially when they're wet!! haahhaha.... the party finish around 12.... but we came back to Bukit Jalil around 4 something... me and Mido was really tired, cold and hungry by then... we went to Ja's place to grab my stuff and 7-eleven for cigarette then went straight home... i fell asleep when Mido is bathing... hahah... thats shows that i'm really tired.... honey, thanks for the food and coffee (even though you put cinnamon in it)... i love your cooking! hehehe.......

i came back from Bukit Jalil around 11 and again, i skipped my programming class... nevermind... i'll catch up... i sleep until 2.30 p.m. then, i went to Mr. Asmadi's class... i was late because i was discussing bout the namelist with that bugger, Yong! Mr. Asmadi is being such an angel, teaching me personally on how to draw the plane.... hehehe.. thanks Sir... after class, again, i took a nap... or does it considered as nap?? i slept at 5 something and woke up at 7 something... phew... i sleep a lot!! i'm just tired! too much activity for this week... then, i went to Bidara with my roommate... we ate dinner there... next, i head to AC... phew... i love AC so much!!! hahaha... there, Nick, Mido and Matthew is already waiting for me... they were playing already... damn... hahaha... Ja couldnt make it since he had some problem... well... i miss him!! my greatest big bro ever! 7-inches!(his nickname)... hahahah.... we played pool for few hours... then i went down to Starbucks with my dear... he needs coffee... haha.. you coffee addict! after coffee, again, i ate dinner... hahaha... i ate dry curry mee... damn nice! it's my fav. food in AC! next, we went up again... play pool while watching ManU vs. Barcelona... comments??? sucks!! the game sucks!! hahaa... ok-ok.. i better shut up now....

so, what's next?? haha... i came back around 5 just now... get a quick shower... and here i am now... typing to you! hahahaha...

Endy,
i felt happy... i finally felt happy... i'm happy because i know i'm not in love with him anymore.... the feeling are gone.... thank god... now... i learn from my mistake... dont depend on others too much... hurm... i have no comment when it comes to relationship... but i'll try to play it save... i dont want to get hurt once again Endy... not anymore... i'll always be careful... and honey... one thing for sure... i adore u.... thanks for everything....

Endy,
i wanna chat now.. i'll continue next time... hopefully i wont take that long to write anymore... hehehe.... bye Endy... i love you the most!

Truth,
Tasha