Stress!

Time: 11.00 p.m.
Venue: Whatever..
Mood: anything...

Endy,
Can I please have a room for myself? sometimes i feel like i'm losing myself. Do i even love myself that much, i mean, as much as i used to adore myself?? I'm tired Endy. i'm really tired. sometimes, when i have free time, i just wanna sit and do nothing but chill. maybe with a book in my hand to read slowly until i fall asleep or simple a movie that i watch until i got sick of it? all i want is some time to rest. i'm not complaining, just hoping that people will understand. doesnt it shows in my face that im tired? well, when i think about it back, when is the last time i ever think about something? all i do everyday is work, eat, sleep, and again, work. where's the time where i used to pamper myself? i just wish i could have that moment again.the moment where i could surf the net as long as i want and fall asleep in front of computer just to woke up and go surfing again. or maybe read the same book again and again to get what the author trying to present. or maybe just chat with few friends. OMG. then to think about it again, it's been like ages since i last join a conference. serious, i dont know how to manage my time anymore. i tried my best to not be tired. but im just tired. TIRED. TIRED. is it wrong to be tired? No! waking up at 8.30 just to go work and come back at 6.30 just to get stuck in 1 hour or bad traffic!

Endy,
im not only tired, but im also stress. im trying my best here to please everyone. but sometimes, those words just hurt me. i look like im the one who doesnt care. i look like i'm evil ignoring everyone. but does anyone understand me, that i needed some rest? does anyone?

Till then....

stress,
Tasha

Join the Samsung Innov8 Run!

Time: 2:26 p.m.
Venue: One World Solution office!
Mood: ok ok...
Condition: dunno...
Currently: Working!

Endy,
i am very very sorry for the longggggg silence treat! lol... i've been so busy! anyway... i just wanna drop this thing here... my company is having this activity with Samsung... well, i dont want to elaborate too much... just scrunitize into this:

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Fun team event in which you and team members drive around solving clues with the help of the Samsung Innov8 phone. You will use features like its awesome camera, GPS maps and other cool features.

Date

1^st November 2008

Time

9 am (start) until Dinner (Ends with Prizes and Dinner). Note lunch will also be arranged.

Where

Start Point is Samsung Service Centre, Petaling Jaya (Map and directions will be sent to participants) and End Point – a Restaurant in The Klang Valley (will be notified later)

Requirements

We’re looking for fun loving people eager to try out new things and challenges. Let us know if you have a car (petrol voucher will be given). Those without cars can still take part as teams will be allocated by Samsung.

To Apply

· For BlogMobbers, just post a new post and tell us why you would like to participate. Notify us with the link to you post.

· For non-BlogMobbers, send an email to blogmob@mobileworld.com.my. Tell us something about yourself and give us your contact number too.

· Hint, hint……you stand a bigger chance if you have a car and are a Blogger too.

· If you blog, give us your blog address. Also tell us why you would like to participate by posting it on your blog. Point us to the post after that and don’t forget to give us ypur contact number.

As places are limited, please send your emails by 20th October 2008 and we will notify you by the 26^th October if you are the chosen one…….

For more info visit the BlogMob Website - http://blogmob.mobileworld.com.my or http://www.innov8run.com/ to know more about the Samsung Innov8 Run.

Hurry! Don’t get left behind….

Yours,

BlogMob Admin

PetitionSpot

Time: 10.32 a.m.
Venue: One World Solution office
Mood: Bored
Condition: Sleepy
Currently: Waiting for work!

Endy,
I'm freaking bored now. since i have free time now.. let me occupy you with updates that i never have time to write months ago! well... as everybody know, i'm now doing my internship which is also my final semester. i met my parents the other day and they urge me to pursue my degree. i told them that i'm not gonna study unless it's Photography! Yes, you can call me stubborn for i dont care whatever it is! what i know is... studying multimedia in Malaysia is useless! frankly speaking, i dont see any advantage studying multimedia here... i can say 80% of what they teach in classes is like basic (and i mean basic) knowledge. i believe all of us dont even need a lecturer for this diploma (exception of 2-3 subject)!

ok2... i will stop complaining on college! since i'm out of there now! hehe... so.. my workplace is kinda good. i mean... you know that i've change my company right? before this i was working in one malay company that run business base on events. you know how stressful it is right? the boss is freaking stupid and he knows nothing bout design, yet he wanna argue with me bout it. he yell and curse me lots of time. i was quiet because i dont want to cause trouble. he's lucky that i came there under my friend name. ok.. another stupid chapter of my life that i should forget!

so, working here under Kash, my boss and Boi, my senior designer is kinda fun. well, it's a publication world so i have to bare with the fact that we have to stayback end of the month to make sure the magazine is printed and distributed the next month! well, not really our fault if we cant manage to finish it on time. the writer gave us last minute article. so, who to be blame? frankly, i dont know! here, my job is basically designing the pages, ads and websites. for now, since i'm new, they dont dare to gamble the main acticle yet for me! hehe... the boring part of this job is the starting of the months, like this week. freaking boring because there's no article yet. yeah, we redesign some ads and pages, but still, i can say during this 4 days working for this week, i have done only redesigning websites interface and Surf ad.

sometimes i feel lucky because my internship is during ramadan... i came to work around 9.30 and go back around 5.30. so, i go back 1 hour earlier! hehehe... from what i learn, this company never gave them to go back early last year. so, i took the initiative to ask Kash. well, he's being an understanding boss allowing us to go back 1 hour earlier. as for me, they said that if i wanna go back at 4.30, then i have to come at 9. i will start coming at 9 next week. there's no point coming early to office while i dont have any job. it's freaking boring ok!

yesterday when i came back home, it was already 6.30. it was quite jammed since KL was raining. once i reach home, first thing i do is crawl up to bed and sleep. Medo wake me up around 7 and we went out for break fast. he didnt eat anything and i dont know why. maybe he dont like the food. after breaking our fast, we went to Giant Kinrara to buy stuff for our kitchen. we bought lotssssssss of stuff! hehehe... now we dont have to go out anymore. just stay at home and cook! happy! this means i can fully utilize my weekend for sleeping and playing games!

today i'm not gonna cook for breaking fast since i'm gonna send the car right after work. i'm just gonna go back by train. i think it's better since it only takes around 1 and 1/2 hours. the good thing is i dont need to drive! i can just sleep in the train! hehehehe... maybe i'm gonna eat in Masjid Jamek later. lots of malay food there. i miss malay food and i miss Penang.

oh, speaking of Penang, i'm gonna go back to Penang next week to get my brand new black Viva. my mom is arranging the document now so i just need to wait for a week. then the document will be done! yay! i dont have to borrow my uncle's car anymore. i'm so sick of taking and sending the car in weekend. it's seriously tiring. it's not near ok. my uncle's house is even further than my office. from Bukit Jalil to my office in Wangsa Maju already take 1/2 an hour(the fastest) and to my uncle will approximately take 1 hour tp reach!

ok Endy,
they gave me work already! finally!!! yay! gtg!

bored,
Tasha

Tasha & Ramadhan

Time: 00:52
Venue: Medo's place
Mood: Kinda bored
Condition: Relieved!
Currently: Listening to Jason Mraz!

Endy,
phew... it's really been a while since i last talk to you. i miss you, pal! well, work is not to blame for me not to write for you! i'm tied up by time! i swear if i were to have spare time, i would like to spend at least one hour here with you. life is really tiring nowadays. i'm having my training now in One World Solution. well, i'm pretty sure most of you dont even have any idea what is it all about. it's ok... doesnt really matter. you can just log on to www.mobileworld.com.my and you'll get some rough idea on what we're working with.

so, work had been piling up lately but yet, i dont feel stress at all. i love this company. the boss are cool and my colleague are seriously hilarious! working environment so far so good. even though my office is so far from my home! i have to drive average 1 hour to reach office (plus the jammed and those shit!). usually i will reach home around 7 something but since it's Ramadhan, they allow us to come back early. and as for my case, i can come at 9 and go back around 4.30p.m.! cool! so tomorrow i have to reach office around 9! it's ok... i prefer it that way.. as long as i could come back home earlier! means... i have more time to spend with my Medo. hehehe...

thank god now we've got our stove and we dont have to go out just to get some food! Medo seems to be happy with that thing. hahahahha.... we got it 2 days ago and since then, we've been eating at home because he doesnt even one to eat outside. hehehe... i wish i have more time to prepare a proper food for him. now, i'm only cooking simple dishes. anyway, it's all cool since it's only for both of us to eat. we're a very simple people who could survive any condition.

tomorrow is the third day of Ramadhan, and yet i still havent feel the Ramadhan mood here in KL. i really miss Penang. In Penang, i could feel the atmosphere of Ramadhan. and ofcourse, all the food which only been sold during Ramadhan! hehehe... oh ya, speaking of food... i really think i need my kickboxing class back! i'm really gaining weight. i'm 59kg now. shit! freaking fat bitch!

well, what you guys had been doing during the 3 days holiday for Merdeka? for me, i've been doing nothing. just spending time with Medo since we dont even spend time together nowadays. especially during his exam week. on Saturday, we went to Bukit Bintang to buy my heels, but i dont manage to get any that i like... well, it's ok... i've got a lot. hehehe... i'm just gonna take my time buying my heels. no rushing.


Endy,
sorry dear... gtg..

to be continue soon!

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Continued on 02:31...

Endy,
sorry for the interruption just now! hehe... ok continue my story just now... we went to BB and hang out there. after a few hours i got headache... i cant stand crowd places! and my my.... BB is fucking crowd that day... so, remembering that i've got Barbecue invitation from Emi, i went to her place. i had few chicken wings, brownies, orange juice and sparkling juice. i plan to go back around 4 but i fall asleep! haha..

the next day, we plan to take a cab to go back home, but the fucked up taxi driver charge us RM30 just to go to Arena Green which usually cost me around RM12-RM13! fuck them hard! so we decided to walk to Pyramid to get the cab there. it's usually RM17 there... yeah, Sunway price is kinda fixed for every cab but i'd prefer the RM17 than the stupid RM30! since we're there, we walk around and have coffee before we went back. i was totally out of mood during that time. and dont ask me why! i dont wanna remember that moment!

on monday, we woke up late and went to Carrefour to buy some stuff... that's when we buy our stove. hehehe... after we bought everything, we went back to Arena Green and rest for few minutes. next, we walk to the train station to go to Gombak. i have to get the car from my uncle. hehe... we reached there around 11. after that, i drove to Sunway to get my cupboard. i still have few stuff in that house that i need to transport out. but i'm gonna take my time.

speaking of the house... i have to move out since they're kinda chasing me out. i dont know why. but i guess it's because of their pathetic lame mentality. well, what can i say... they live in a rural area! hahaha... you know, MARA student! what i mean by MARA student is the student who studied in MRSM before!!!! they might be book-smart but trust me... their general knowledge is FUCKING ZERO! yeah i know it's good for them to be religious. but there's no point of you praying 5 times per day if it's just to show off to others.. and there's no point of it if your freaking mouth just cant stop to talk bout me... BEHIND MY BACK! freaking coward! come speak face to face for yourself! we'll see who knows more on religion then!

ok... back off on the religion issue! i paid my rental and bills... so... dont question me why i dont come back home and all! it's none of your mom's business! i really hate it when people dont MYOB! phew... sorry for cursing Endy! i dont mean it... but sometimes i'm just pissed with certain people who claims to be good. sometimes, i felt that it's better to be friend of a bitch than a religious "ustazah". MOST of them give me bad impression of themselves! well, no offense to any of you out there! Sorry if i offended anyone.

thank god now i moved out from there! just need to bring few other stuff that i left there. my white table, my white cupboard, some clothes and notes. the rest is already here in Arena Green. phew... i blabber and CURSE a lot today. Sorry Endy. hehehe... i do miss you, you know? it's been a while since i visit your graveyard. hurm... i wanna sleep now... i dont want to doze off in office tomorrow. see you ok? i love you, Endy! remember, you're always my best buddy and you're always in my heart. i just dont have the time to come here and write for you... i'm sorry...

p/s: as you realize, my page elements changed a lot! i added more links on "Get The Stuff" section. for now, it has Fonts, Photoshop brushes, actions and styles link. up to date, i have over 100 collection of brushed, actions and fonts....

truth,
Tasha

your girl,
Tasha

Perfect Boyfriend

Endy,

Just dropping by to post this bulletin which i found in my Friendster:

------THE SWEET PART------

Every girl dreams that one day she will find a guy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.

• leave her cute text notes.

• kiss her in front of your friends.

• tell her she looks beautiful.

• look into her eyes when you talk to her.

• let her mess with your hair.

• touch her hair.

• just walk around with her.

• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.

• look at her like she's the only girl you see.

• tickle her even when she says stop.

• hold her hand when you're around your friends.

• be the one to take her hand, don't make her reach for you

• be the one to call her, don't make her always call you

• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.

• let her fall asleep in your arms.

• get her mad, then kiss her.

• stay up all night with her when she's sick.

• watch her favorite movie with her.

• kiss her forehead.

• give her the world.

• write her letters.

• let her wear your clothes.

• when she's sad, hang out with her.

• let her know she's important.

• let her take all the photos she wants of you.

• kiss her in the pouring rain.

• when you fall in love with her, tell her.

• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.

guys repost as : i'd do this for my girl.

girls repost as : a perfect boyfriend

AND

-----THE NONSENSE PART------
if you don`t repost this in four minutes you will lose the one you love.

if you do repost this in four minutes the one you love will :

call you;

kiss you;

love you

Stupid Mistake, darn im stupid!

ok... this is fucked up! i tried to edit my page and i accidentally deleted all of my page element! fuck! fuck! fuck! ok sorry for cursing! i'm just stressed up! i'll try to fix this as soon as possible!

Good News!

Time: 19.05
Venue: Arena Green, Bukit Jalil
Mood: Happy!
Condition: Sick! Fever!
Currently: Feeling relieved!

Dearest Endy,
Yeah, i finally got time to write to you! so, today is my last paper for this semester and for my entire life! no more studying. i'm gonna work my ass out after this. i have few good news for you today. first, i'm done with studies. second, today is my 3rd month anniversary with my dear Medo. third, i'm going back to Penang next week. fourth, Tiqah is coming this weekend for shopping. fifth, I GOT A GOOD JOB OFFER! Cool huh?

i dont, know maybe i was blessed today. everything seems to go smoothly. even my programming paper wasnt that hard as i expected. well, it was not the easy either. but still, i manage to finish 2 hours paper in less than an hour time. cool. after this i dont have to study anymore. i'm so fucking happy!!! we're starting holiday now. i have 1 month holiday! so happy!! cant wait to sleep and do nothing here!

well, as for Medo, happy 3rd month anniversary. i never thought of having a relationship after him but you changed my mind! either we realize it or not, we're already 3 months! i'm so surprise! time flies when i'm with you! my last semester ended with a blink of an eye! frankly speaking, i'm happy with you. i hope you feel the same too! i always pray that we'll be together. right now, when i think about it, i knew i felt special with you. not because you're my boyfriend, but because you're you. uniquely designed human being. i'm lucky to have you. someone who understand and listens. you never fail to care about me. yesterday night was a beautiful night for me because you pampers me a lot! you took care of me when i'm ill. baby, thanks for everything. yeah, we're just 3 months together, but, 3 months feels like forever when i'm with you. most important thing of all, i want you to know that i love you, even more than yesterday. this awesome feeling is growing stronger and stronger everyday. thanks for putting up the pieces of me. you made me perfect. you made me stronger than yesterday. the best part, you made me forget all of those undeniable sad memories. baby, i love you!

ok, to all penangites, i'm going back to penang next week.

CONTINUED ON:
00:49, Arena Green, Bukit Jalil!

Endy,
sorry bout yesterday! i was writing my blog and suddenly i fall asleep! ok, let me continue my blog ok?

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Time: 05.30 a.m.
Venue: Medo's place
Mood: Happy
Condition: a bit sleepy
Currently: reading people's blog!

Endy, ok, first of all, the entry that you were reading just now are written on 15th July 2008, but i dont know how i totally forget bout it and leave it there in the post box for half a month. im so sorry! i'm just so busy! ok, before i continue this blog, let me paste some interesting survey that i did.... this survey was found in eta and edy's blog... hehe...

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:


1.tasha

2.tash

3.natasha



THREE THINGS YOU’VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:


1.reading blogs on malaysian politic

2.make tea for my baby :P

3.force my baby to finish up his assignment!



THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:


1.chill with friends

2.spoil yourself with stuff (gadget in my case!)

3.spend time with loved ones!



THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AS OF NOW:


1.I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

2.Ruang Rindu - Letto

3.Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5 (i'm addicted to Adam Levine!)



THREE THINGS YOU LOVE IN A GUY/GIRL:


1.Charisma

2.Pride and Ego

3.Just love the British accents he speak!



THREE PERSONS YOU MISS:


1.Mom!

2.Tiqah

3.Ary



THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:


1.Gadget (i'm getting Ipod and Iphone soon! Yay!)

2.Gift that are made sincerely from heart

3.ok, not to be greedy, but i'm in love with Tag Heuer! (or you can just buy me Esprit (model:ES20041261)



THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:


1.Pool!

2.surfing the net, esp blogging!

3.hanging out!!!



THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR NEXT VACATION:


1.Dubai! - i'm mesmerized by the development there!

2. Maldives! - just loved the beaches in maldives! crystal clear!

3.New Zealand! - you really gotta try the club there! love it!


THREE FAVORITE CARTOON/ANIME CHARACTERS:


1.Pink Panther

2.Butters - South Park (baby make me addicted to this!)

3.Brain - Pinky and The Brain


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FAST FOOD:

*honestly, i dont prefer fast food!
1.Mac D

2.1901

3.one stall in Califon City, seriously can't recall!


THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:


1.worldwide drinks, COFFEE!!

2.the original homemade Chrysanthemum tea!

3.Iced Lemon Tea - seriously addictive!


THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR HANDBAG:


1.Estee Lauder Makeup - 2-way-cake and 1 pallete of lipcolour to touch up my face!

2.Dunhill Fine Cut Black(Davidoff is very hard to get!) + Stainless Steel Lighter!

3.My Beloved Renoma wallet!


THREE FAVORITE COLORS:


1.Red

2.Black

3.White


TOP THREE U LOVE SO MUCH:


1.Mom

2.Medo

3.two of my best friends!


ok, this is just a crap that i paste! haha... ok, where did i stop in the last entry?? i mean, the unfinished one? i cant talk much.. it's late now and i'm driving to PD later on... ok, a very quick update on me...

1. i got the job and i quit - because i hate the environment!
2. i met Tiqah that day with Medo, we had fun and she finally bought the formal attire to be worn on 5th August!
3. Tiqah is flying to Bangalore, India for her Medical studies - i'm gonna miss her!
4. I bought a sophisticated couple pendant for me and Medo for our 3rd anniversary - not to forget, the beautiful matching necklace! i love it!
5. I'm getting my car in 2 weeks time - buying Viva
6. I've got an interview next Monday!
7. I've got another job offer in Sunway.
8. I went to Pyramid with Sharon and Melita to watch X Files - kinda bored and Melita is flying back to Indonesia tomorrow!
9. I'm going to PD tomorrow - Suba's sister is flying back to U.S. soon, so she wanna spend some time with her BF in PD (i'm the driver!)
10. I went shopping with my mom the other day and bought about 20 tshirt and a pair of formal.
11. I'm waiting for Iphone!
12. I'm getting my Ipod soon!
13. My dad got promoted, he's now the Director of the company.
14. Medo is doing assignment now, he's gonna have holiday soon!
15. I might be going back to Penang!
16. Sharon found out that i might fail my Oracle paper - next week is the exam board meeting, they might add up marks for those who have 38 or 39 marks to make it 40

ok, i think that's all i can think of for now... i dont think i can elaborate more on all this matters for now... really tired and busy.. i quit my job yesterday and i'm happy i did! i have to go and i'm really sorry for abandoning you for so long! life is getting tougher and tougher these days!

p/s: I love you!

Busy,
Tasha

I'm Not Ready For Oracle Exam!

Time: 04:46 a.m.
Venue: IndahVilla Condo, Living room!
Mood: Panic!
Condition: Tired!
Currently: Studying Oracle 9i!

Endy,
yeah, i know i was supposed to study my Oracle right now. i'm so stress that i decided to come here and talk to you. i finally came back to my place here in Indah Villa. maybe what Medo said was right. i'm wasting my money paying for the rental. i dont even go back home. i'm always there at his place. anyway, we plan to move in together soon. so, i'm have to pack my stuff from now on. it's ok. i have until end of this month to move out. hehe. i'm so worried on my exam later in the afternoon. my paper is at 2.30p.m.

we're gonna be test both on practical and theory. 3 practical question and 3 theory question. phew... i have to answer 5 out of 6. each consist of 20 marks. so, obviously i'm gonna take all the 3 practical questions. so, let's say i got 50 marks for that practical part which gonna be converted into 25 marks, and assuming i got around 35 for my assignment which will total up to 60 marks altogether. so, i need to score at least 10 marks in theory part in order to get A. OMG! i'm so gonna panic later in exam hall.

well, not to blame god... but why must he give me dengue fever and asthma at the same time last week? i need my time to study! seriously... i'm gonna fail! i mean... fail to get A! maybe this is another test for me? phew... how many test should i get in a time, god? seriously, i'm stuck here with all the notes! you know me Endy. i need 3 days to memorize all of this 6 chapters! i tried my best to memorize everything. yes, i understand everything bout the DBMS, but i believe that i have to memorize in order to get A. this is Malaysia. they mark our paper the Malaysian way, which is word-by-word marking. damn it!

sharon is already sleeping in my room. she's having exam in the morning. i dont feel sleepy but i think i need to sleep for a while later because i'm scared that i'll be snoring in the exam hall later in the afternoon. after exam i'll be meeting my beloved Medo. we're going out to Pyramid. yeah, sounds funny huh? i'm excited to go to Pyramid. do you know how long i didnt step my foot in Pyramid?? i think about a month! i miss Starbucks! and it's been a long time since me and Medo went out for a date. we're always stuck at home. i'm busy and he's also busy. i think the last time we actually went out for a nice dinner is on my birthday and that is like a month and half.

i really cant wait to finish up that paper. then i wanna go back and get ready to go out. phew... it's a 3 hours paper! damn it! i'm gonna go crazy sitting inside there doing all those shit! i just wanna think about Pyramid! Yayyyy... tomorrow i'm gonna buy necklace! and i'm planning to buy one dress too! i found one dress in Pyramid the other day! so happy! i wanna wear that dress when i meet my parents this week! oh, did i mention that my parents is coming to KL this week? they're gonna help me buying my car. my mom also gonna buy me my ipod! been waiting for that for so long. when i think about all the reward that she's giving me, i felt better! i feel so pampered when my mom bought me stuff! haha... this is not good, Tasha! you're not suppose to spoil yourself! hahhaha... that ipod is actually my 20th birthday present. she doesnt have the chance to give it to me earlier since she's in Penang!

whatever it is... i'm more excited to meet my parents than anything else. they seems to be okay now. i couldnt be happier Endy. sometimes, i'm scared to live my life without them but i know i have to get used to it. i'm a big girl now. i cant be depending on my parents. i love them too much to burden them. i'm quitting studies because of them. so, i hope they'll work less after this. i dont want them to suffer because of my studies. they really got affected because of my studies. i knew i could keep that dream and find a good job for myself. i can do this, because i am Tasha. there's nothing easy in my life. Academy of Arts, you'll have to wait few more years for me to come! San Francissco, i'm gonna be there in few more years. just wait for me! i'm coming! i promise myself that i'll make it. i can disappoint anybody, but not myself. i love myself too much.

Endy,
next week, i'm officially not a student anymore. no more classes. no more MMPL. no more CLC. no more lecture. no more skipping class. no more assignment! no more exam. and most important thing of all, no more suffering face of my parents. they can take a break now. it's time for me to take care of myself and of them.i'm trying my best here to be happy with this stupid Diploma. i have to learn to be satisfied that my education stops here. sometimes, i feel angry to some student who have the opportunity to study, even in luxury and they're wasting it. guys, you're so lucky to be blessed. do you know how much i keen for a degree? do you know how much i wanted to continue my education? do you know how fancy is my dreams?

Endy,
everytime i think and talk about this, my tears started to drop. i dont know why. i'm weak Endy. i need you. only you understand me! i wish i could continue my degree next year. i will do anything to get that dreams! well, except for exchanging it with Medo or my family. never! this is my strength. i'll never survive without Mama, Papa and Medo. Mama, thanks for those beautiful word you gave me. Papa, thanks for all those advice. Medo, thanks for all the hugs and kisses and not to forget, thanks for wiping my tears and for being there when i needed you the most. i dont know why. since April 2007 til now, i'm always crying. why Endy? why? is this process of growing up? or it's just me being weak?

Medo,
you know that i love you and i will never leave you with any chances. i really need you in my life. i know you're always there for me. i know how much you care about me. i know that you're always worried about me. trust me honey, i can take care of myself, even though it's tough living my life in this world. i'm glad that god sent you for me. i was still in the process of healing when i met you once again this year. i'll always remember your word, "Believe in Destiny". i promise i'll be strong. i promise i'll always be there for you. i'm sorry for being such a bad girlfriend. i'm sorry for arguing with you, EVERYDAY. i'm sorry that i'm not as beautiful as other girls. i'm sorry with my peculiar attitude. i'm sorry that i'm not good enough for you. i just know one thing and i'm very sure of it. i love you and i wanna live my life with you.

Endy, i'll continue next time. i wanna get some rest. i dont feel like studying anymore. bye!

I'm not prepared for exam,
Tasha

Ending the semester soon!

Time: 6.37 a.m.
Venue: My Honey's home!
Mood: Dunno...
Condition: Extremely worn-out
Currently: Waiting for him to come back

Endy,
seriously, it's been a long time since i last write to you... i even forgot my blog format... i was thinking just now... was it "Mood" first or "Condition" first?? i'm so sorry Endy... i've been such a selfish friend... i've abandoned you. pardon me... i'm done with my Oracle assignment... just finished it... i'm finishing this 6th semester in just a week. my last paper is on 15th July and then i'm done! enough of studying. so, where did i last stop? ok... let me talk bout studies first. i'm seriously worried about my programming. i didnt do well in the test. i dunno why. i thought i'm well prepared. well, not to blame anyone, but i think it's due to my family problem. anyway, they seems to calm down now, at least for a while. let me have a peaceful exam mood.

next semester i'm going to do my internship and i'm left with few choices. well, now i know the importance of knowing lots of people. i got a few job offer through friends. they wanna recommend me to their boss/friends. i dunno. maybe i'll take it. or maybe i'll continue my degree. oppss... DEGREE?? another 2 years of hell? WTF? enough! i cant study anymore. not with all the pressure going on right now.. i prefer to work. speaking of work, i might be getting internship in Shah Alam. so, i talked to my parents about it and they say that i could get a car for that job. my dad suggested me to buy one small car and sell of that big + high maintenance car. so, i think that's quite a good idea since this stupid Malaysia is having the stupid fuel price hike. thanks to Pak Lah. you're so not gonna get my vote!

i'll be having Oracle exam on monday and i dont know either i'm ready or not. the lecturer sucks! i'm totally lost confidence in exam. i dont think i'm gonna score any A this semester. well, lets forget bout that. i dont give a damn anymore. i just wanna enjoy my holiday now. i'm going back to penang after 15th. i'm gonna meet my bestie there and have fun. my dear lucky Tiqah is flying to India soon. so, i wanna spend my time with her. i'm so gonna miss her. i already am. she's such a great friend. she gave me hopes when i needed it the most. she opens up doors to my darkest room. pheww... tasha, stop rambling!

i might go back to Sunway on Sunday. hurm... maybe i should rephrase my word. i HAVE to go back to Sunway this Sunday. i promise Sharon and Emi that we're gonna study together. but the thing is... i'm sick. seriously... i went to clinic yesterday. the doctor gave me few craps to eat. i dont even touch it. haha... i hate pills! and i think that doctor is illiterate! so... just let the fever goes by itself.

Endy,
i believe that you cant even imagine how busy i've been lately. i dont even go out lately. it's been a month i guess. i've been staying at home... CORRECTION.. Medo's home... i hope things will be better after i got my job. i wanna start working as soon as possible. just now i went to visit Mei Phing's blog and wowwww... she updated her blog with a dozen of entries.. this means i didnt read her blog for quite a period. damn... what happen to me? i hope i can coup with my life soon!

hurm.. i wanna sleep. i'm tired... i cant wait for him anymore... so sleepy! bye Endy.. i love you!

A Friend,
Tasha Leow