Davidoff smoke in the air....

Soul searching...

2012-02-16T21:20:00.000+08:00

What is love? Sometimes i wonder. Will it really fade, or true love just doesn't exist, and romeo and juliet stays as fiction. I need answers because from my observation, love is just a bullshit stuff. How do i determine which is right, which is wrong? I need some guidance to look into this matter. Have you ever wonder, where will a relationship leads you to?

Yes, there's sad and happiness in every relationship. But what if all you see is darkness ahead? do you call it off and start a new one? Or do you just face the facts that no relationship is perfect. We need to work our ass out to make it perfect, to fit in into each other. The question is, if you know that you're no longer happy, why stay? Don't you just get sick of the same process again and again?

Sometimes you just wonder, why the fuck am i here? Arguing, then reconcile, argue again, make up again, had a big fight that both really got fedup of each other, then reconcile. When will this end? If you were in that situation, what is your action?

Well, from my observation, if i'm in that situation, i'd say that he's no more interested in me. As if he's forced to be with me. The question is, why does he want to continue that relationship when he's already fedup of that girl? Why wait when he's already happy with someone else? that someone already stole his devoted attention, and now, even when he's around, you'll feel like he's just there as a statue. Doesn't really have a function. The feeling is just different. It's like having a cold beverage. You relieves your thirst, but it will never be enough.

The most confusing thing is, why things have to change? Is all men the same? They just made the best effort before they get you, and after that it's all bullshit. Am i too demanding if i want him to treat me the same way he treat me when we first started dating? Is it too much to ask? Is it the rules of universe that men just got fedup after some amount of time in relationship? Does beauty really matter in this case? When time flies, even the most beautiful woman can't keep her man loyal, because his love will just fade. Don't you just think that this is a FACT. not just my two cents of opinion.

Is there such thing as happily ever after? I don't think so. Right now, i sort of believe that love fades through time. Men will always get bored of their woman no matter what she did, No matter how much she sacrifies for him and no matter how much she have loved him. Maybe they're just blinded with the fakeness of the world. Or maybe the relationship that we all started is wrong in the first place? If so, what went wrong? Where did i do my mistake? By putting so much trust and hope on a man? By opening my heart so wide that he get the chance to steal it away and fool around with it?

Trust me, it's not worth it to have someone beside you, but not having him devoted to you. Even the smallest thing that hurt you or touch your heart. If he can't handle even the smallest responsibility, neither can't he on a big on, right? Am i asking too much from a relationship.

In life, i do believe that there's a ladder in every relationship. Friendship, lovers and family. You'll somehow develop a strange bonding, and the relationship will grow higher and higher. Relationship CAN'T stay static. It's either you climb up the ladder, or you climb down. Which will you prefer? from what i can see, most relationship among us are always declining. Why?

Imagine that you're put in that position. What will you do?

Take it, or leave it?

Archived of 26th April 2011, written via E71, by the beach.

Valentine's spoiler!

2012-02-14T01:39:00.000+08:00

Last year was maroon. This year I'm going for purple :)

1. Dark purple dress
2. Gold accessories
3. Blue-purple nail color
4. Swarovski watch
5. Silk stilettos
6. MAC Vera - Dessert Cloud: deep blue purple
7. A surprise gift.

Happy Valentine's Day.
Hope everything turns out well.
Please please please turn out gorgeous Tash.

Word of wisdom of today

2012-02-12T09:32:00.000+08:00

1. Hot
2. Pretty
3. Gorgeous
4. Not good looking person
5. Someone else is better than me
6. LOYAL
7. You're BLIND.

Courtesy of A.H.

And they said woman are complicated?

I rest my case.

Which one?

2012-02-09T10:17:00.000+08:00

Torn in between this;

and this;

so which one? :)

Al-Quran

2012-01-12T02:34:00.000+08:00

Ade beberapa persoalan timbul bila tgk video ni. So, cuba kaji lagi. tambah berminat dgn sejarah tamadun manusia. benda ni makes sense jugak. Charles Darwin menipu selama ni? Well, tak pernah percaya pun Charles Darwin tu. Manusia evolves dari monyet? LOL.

Jadi, tadi tatau kenapa pegi carik bacaan Al-Quran Surah 1 sampai 20 (sempat download sampai situ je). Then carik terjemahan. Then carik website yg ade huraian terjemahan. Carik forum perbincangan. Well, i think i know what to do for the rest of this 3 months holiday!

My brother gave me a very interesting link THE REVELATION. A very long read, so take your time reading it. As much as I would on my Al-Quran. Hopefully we'll get some answer during the long enjoyable reading.

BTW, I'm back in Penang!

Tasha

Insecure...

2012-01-09T03:23:00.001+08:00

I hate it when he abandoned me :)

I rest my case.

It's very hard to let go.

2012-01-07T06:08:00.000+08:00

Surprisingly, it's only 7th of January, and I'm already posting a sad post. Don't worry, I'm fine, just emo. I'm going back to Penang on Monday. Looking at his face, I couldn't bring my heart home.

I am being clingy? Or do i have problem letting go?

*tears*

Tasha

13 years?

2012-01-03T06:25:00.001+08:00

Dear Endy,

Today (i meant yesterday) i went out with one of my old friend from my primary school. His name is Izhar. It's been 13 years since we last met. Yes! The last time i meet him was in 1999. We were just a little kid back then. I am very happy to meet him, as we used to have such a great childhood together. We talk a lot. Reminiscing memories of our school days, our dearest friends and our moment together as kids.

First, we meet up at KLCC around 12.30p.m., had lunch at Pepper Lunch, and of course, start talking about everything. Seriously, i had a great time. It's been a while since I am this happy. It's very refreshing to meet old friends and talk bout beautiful memories. Then, we went out to the park and walk around this we got exhausted and settle down on a bench under a nice shade of tree. There, again, we continue chatting our heart out, also bout memories. Seriously, i miss primary school. I miss being that little devil i used to be. I was such a happy kid back then.

Then, Izhar suggested that we go for shisha session. So, he brought me to an arabic restaurant somewhere in KL (seriously can't recall where, I'm always lost in KL), and we get ourselves a pot of mint tea. At this point, i remembered my ex, who loves that tea. Again, we sat down and continue our story. Brought up lots of issue. Talk bout our schoolmates. Chat randomly and basically bout our current life. He told me that I changed a lot. LOL. I guess it's called growing up, my friend.

Next, we went for movie. Went to Pavilion and there's like a gazilion people there. Oh ya, note to all my readers, PLEASE DO NOT WATCH 11.11.11 because it is a nonsense movie. I actually feel sleepy watching that movie! BORING! Okay before i start blabbering on the movie, I better keep on track. My story is about my old friend, not that damn movie! LOL. We finally feel tired and decided to go back when the time hits 8.30p.m.!

Well, honestly, I really enjoy myself today. I've never been this happy for such a long time. Meeting Izhar after 13 years, really brings back such jolly memories. I love my school, and I love all of my friend. There's nothing that could replace a true friend.

**********

Dear Izhar,

Thank you very much for such a lovely day. I would like to answer your question actually. You asked me either you've change. Yes, you do not change much as a person. I could still see the same boy i used to know 13 years ago. But, i guess your parents had done an excellent job of raising you into a gentleman. Yes, indeed you are. You used to tease me to the max during school, pulled my hair, kick my chair and yada yada yada. Today, I could see that the boy i used to know is no longer there. That boy who used to bully me actually opens the door for me, letting me go through the door first, and that boy is also concern bout what i think of him (yes i told you today that i don't judge, but i observe). You did apologize for your jokes, worrying that i will take it personally. Well, you don't have to worry bout me. I'm still the same Tasha you used to know. Just that I now wear 3 inch makeups and heels. LOL. Deep inside me, I am still the same Tasha.

To be honest, I like talking to you. Sharing our point of view over life and society. Sharing our experience with jobs and workplace. Sharing just anything that came across our mind. It's seriously splendid to talk to someone who actually understand the value of quality talk. I've notice that you're very wise now. I can see that you think before you speak. I can sense that you analyze things surrounding you. That's actually a very healthy habit. I hope I didn't bore you with my stories and blabbering. I'm always a chatterbox when I'm in a comfort zone. Also, I would like to apologize if I've said something inappropriate, makes lame jokes, being to sarcastic and cynical and maybe being shallow in some point of view. But yeah, that's me.

Nevertheless, I would like to convey my highest appreciation for being such a great company today. Seriously, i had fun. I hope that you have fun too. I'm so flattered to meet you today. I hope we'll keep in touch and stay friends forever.

**********

Alright, I'm exhausted. Gotta get my arse into bed. Nite!

New Year Resolutions?

2012-01-01T22:39:00.000+08:00

This year keep it simple.

1. To know more friends in Taylor's.
2. To get 4.0 C.G.P.A.
3. To draw and paint better.
4. To drink water, instead of soda.
5. To lose 20kg. HAHAHAHA.
6. To blog religiously.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

What's yours?

Mellow down?

2011-12-31T03:48:00.001+08:00

Dear Endy,

I was reading some of my entries. some sad, some happy, mostly sarcastic and critic towards surrounding environment. Then, come to think bout it, why was I so eloquent with that? My habit? My nature? Or I am just plain rude? Am I?

Apparently, ending of the year is usually a very sentimental moment in my life. I come to think of what I've done the whole year. Was I useful to the society? Have I done enough good deeds to people surrounding me. Who have I annoy and hurt?

From where I'm standing right now, 2011 wasn't really a good year for me. Well, except for my studies. the rest is nonsense. I've been hiatus on so many things. i choose not to participate in a lot of important events. I tends to like being alone. Worst of all, i dont give a fuck on people anymore.

Have i become that heartless?

What's wrong with me?

reading through most of my posts, i feel like, i've been bad. i've been nasty. i think i could write better words. words that won't hurt people, yet hard enough to make them think of their action and consequences. I almost unpublished a few of my post because i was too embarrassed to read it. i was that mean bitch.

but then again, i refuse to delete. because, whatever it is, that was me. that is the person i used to be. I don't know either any of my friends, relatives, colleagues and schoolmates could tolerate me the way I am, or, i could be a better person? Well, yeah, obviously everyone wants to be better each passing day. But, the question is, what do i need to change? Do tell me. I'm listening.

ok, i know most of my friend will be like, WTF is Tash crapping? She's been like that her entire life. hey peeps, i'm trying to be a better person. Do help me alright? For what it's worth, I curse less, I prevent myself from being sarcastic most of the time, I start to listen to others, I'm kicking off my bad habits.

Despite all that, i still use the word FUCK and BITCH a lot.

So yeah, Tash is still Tash.

Just trying to be better. Alright?

Tash

Orientation Leader

2011-12-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

Alright, let's come clean, I sit at home all day long, thinking what to post for today's entry. I almost gave up on today's content. that's how bad I am at writing nowadays!!!

then, this email came in:

LOL..... this just made my day!

Such a good start for new year! 2012 is so gonna be a good year. It is my year btw. DRAGONNN!!!

I'm back, I promise!

2011-12-29T03:50:00.000+08:00

Hello fellow bloggers!

Yes,

i've been missing for the whole year. WTF happen to me? Truth is, i've lost interest to update my blog. but i do feel empty without having a schedule to write something everyday. So, i guess i'm back to this line. Gonna start writing starting today onwards. might be a tough one to follow though, since i've leave blogging world for so long. so pardon me for my bad grammar and lack of vocabulary. i've lost the dictionary in my head!

*****

So, what's up with you guys? How's life? Yes, i really mean this question. do drop by and comment. i do read everyone's comment. My life have been kinda crooked this year. well, there's three things that happen to me during this year.

first, i dump Jack last year. he's a total jerk. doesn't really matter now. i have someone better. oh yeah, feel free to judge me. i can jump into relationship faster than a train. life is short, why spend time to think either he's the one or not? just be with him and see if it works. for now, i'm still on a fence bout this new guy.

second, as i posted earlier, i finally continue my degree. I'm doing B.A. (Hons) Graphic Communication Design at Taylor's University, Lakeside Campus. so, if anyone happens to be there, do contact me. we could go for a drink or something. it's a nice place to hangout. i've finish my first semester, A VERY TOUGH FIRST SEMESTER, and i'm not even happy with my results. Taylor had been a different study environment for me. i mix with the right student, go to class religiously, attendance is 98%, stay back till 5a.m. just to finish up a project, meet my lecturer everyday and yada yada yada. so, i am very disappointed when i get bad result. anyways, i will make sure my next semester will be better, and more A for me! This is my dream for heaven's sake. i need to work my ass up!

(will upload the pic of the result once my internet is fine)

third, i think i lost all of my bestie. for some reason, they seems so far away. maybe it's something i did, maybe it's something i said, i don't know. i tried asking, and nobody gave me the exact answer. so yeah, i guess i'll just let it go and move on with my life. i will make new friends, which i already have, and start a really fresh new life. i will never let anyone interfere into my feelings anymore. nobody could make me feel bad, even though i lost my bestie or whatsoever.

anyways people, i will be having 3 months holiday. My next intake will be on April the 8th. i think i will enroll into drawing and painting class during this holiday. need to enhance my skills for next semester.

Lastly, Welcome back Tash to blogging world. I've missed this actually. blogging for me is like soul searching. to write what i feel, and whatever that i like. it's very refreshing. i want to have that feeling once again.

I'm back, I promise!

Till then.

Tasha Leow

Condolences

2011-12-28T07:43:00.000+08:00

My deepest condolences to Kak Mynn who lost her father on 24th December 2011.

Yaasin.

The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe

2011-10-28T10:41:00.003+08:00

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
"'Tis some visitor," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door -
Only this, and nothing more."

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore -
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating,
"'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door -
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; -
This it is, and nothing more."

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
"Sir," said I, "or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you"- here I opened wide the door; -
Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortals ever dared to dream before;
But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, "Lenore?"
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, "Lenore!" -
Merely this, and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
"Surely," said I, "surely that is something at my window lattice:
Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore -
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; -
'Tis the wind and nothing more."

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore;
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door -
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door -
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore.
"Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou," I said, "art sure no craven,
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the Nightly shore -
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning- little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blest with seeing bird above his chamber door -
Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as "Nevermore."

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered- not a feather then he fluttered -
Till I scarcely more than muttered, "other friends have flown before -
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before."
Then the bird said, "Nevermore."

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
"Doubtless," said I, "what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore -
Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore
Of 'Never - nevermore'."

But the Raven still beguiling all my fancy into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust and door;
Then upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore -
What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking "Nevermore."

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamplight gloated o'er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamplight gloating o'er,
She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then methought the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by Seraphim whose footfalls tinkled on the tufted floor.
"Wretch," I cried, "thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he hath sent thee
Respite - respite and nepenthe, from thy memories of Lenore:
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! -
Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted -
On this home by horror haunted- tell me truly, I implore -
Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil - prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore -
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore -
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore."
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Be that word our sign in parting, bird or fiend," I shrieked, upstarting -
"Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken!- quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!"
Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming,
And the lamplight o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted - nevermore!

People call it the best poem bla bla bla. i call it nonsense!

Kalau lah dunia ni takde lelaki sial dan perempuan jalang murahan.... aman dunia sampai hari kiamat

2011-10-24T07:31:00.000+08:00

(title taken from my fb status)

oh yes... aku sangat tak faham kadang-kadang. spouse korang dah cantik sangat. dah baik sangat. nak kata perfect tu tipu la. nabi je maksum. tuhan je perfect. so ada pros and cons lah everyone. ko carik la pompuan/jantan perfect cemane pun.. surely ade flaws.

the question is....
bila dah ada yg baik, yg jaga kebajikan kita, APAHAL GEDIK SANGAT NAK MENGGATAL DGN YG LAIN? ke mmg lumrah manusia, suka cari pasal? suka buat org sakit hati? sgt tak faham. dah byk sgt tgk kes mcm ni. naik fedup ah.

boleh tak for once kau blaja SETIA?

susah sgt?

ape kau perfect sgt ke sampai kau rasa betina2 atau jantan2 tu gila kat kau?

(tak pasal pepagi aku maki hamun)

bye

I hate MAC

2011-08-20T07:48:00.000+08:00

....and i bought a Macbook Pro 15 inch.

Good luck!

Seriously gonna curse a lot.
I'm in a Mac-dominated world.

now..... how do I install windows with the boot camp.

LOL.

Puasa

2011-08-14T09:20:00.003+08:00

People: Tasha, puasa tak hari ni?

Tasha: Yer... puasa.

People: Alhamdulillah, baguslah.

Tasha: You sembahyang tak hari ni?

People: (smile and walk off)

Dear PEOPLE,

Rukun Islam

Mengucap dua kalimah syahadah

Menunaikan solat fardu lima waktu

Berpuasa pada bulan Ramadan

Membayar zakat - Zakat fitrah, Zakat harta

Mengerjakan Haji di Mekah bagi mereka yang mampu

Sembahyang tu jatuh no 2, puasa jatuh no 3. hari2 perlu tanya org puasa ke tak. tp tak pernah soalkan pasal sembahyang. kenapa ek?

Nothing personal actually. just pelik dgn BUDAYA kita. puasa 30 hari berkobar2 buat, siap perli2 org tak puasa. Kalo tak puasa kena tangkap dgn jabatan, tak sembahyang camne lak? well, for me, ibadah tu just keep it to yourself. I puasa or not, sembahyang or not, I dont have to announce it to the whole world.

I'm just sick of these environment.

Selamat berpuasa to all muslim,

and also to my fellow friends yg baru blaja berpuasa.

bravo guys.

May god bless us all.

A new life ahead!

2011-07-24T06:01:00.000+08:00

Yes people! I would like to scream to the whole world. After 3 years of waiting, and working compulsively in a ridiculous field, I am finally stepping my feet into a campus once again.

(photo randomly taken from google)

Well, it's gonna be a 3 years of BA (Hons) Graphic Communication Design course in Taylor's Lakeside Campus. Trust me, I fall in love the first time i went there! Ok, this is just a graphical picture, but i promise to upload real picture taken from my DSLR! lets just hope I still know how to use a camera. lol.

I'll be driving down to Sunway later and I haven't pack a thing. LOL silly me. Will start packing after typing this entry. As promised, i will start writing on this blog once again. I've been on hiatus for too long already.Frankly speaking, I am so excited to start a new life ahead, holding up the the same title i once had, a student. However, i do need to brush up on my sketching and drawings. I hope i'll do just fine. please pray for me!

I do have one issue with nicknames though. I'm sort of in a dilemma.... either to make people still call me Tash or just Ace. lots of people been calling me Ace now. So, what do you think?

Till then, GOOD LUCK to me.

Lots of love,

Tash

Hiatus?

2011-07-17T05:19:00.000+08:00

Yes it is a long hiatus for me. Didnt really go anywhere. just got fedup of writing i guess? everytime i try to start writing, i just froze. i guess i'm no more a writer? lol.

anyways, it's great to be here. feels like home. a place that i can say out loud just anything that i want. i miss u guys so much. i miss my reader. i miss my blogger friend. thanks for supporting me all this while. thanks for sharing all my dumb story, my silliness, my sadness, my happiness over something stupid and my undeniable deep emotional feelings.

i think i will start writing here. it wont be as good as before, as i'm starting over as a writer. i will try my best.

p/s: Endy, im sorry for abandoning you dear :(
lots of love.

Tash

Zaman itu dah over ok!

2011-04-07T02:29:00.005+08:00

Step-step aku berchatting kat FB.

Orang PM aku.
aku tak kenal, so aku tanye sape?
Dia ckp nak kenal.
Aku ckp bye.
Aku bukak profile dia.
Aku delete.
Aku block.
Settle.

Yes, i am that straight-forward.

Mintak maaf la kalau ko nak ckp aku ni sombong ke, prasan lawa ke, bajet cun ke, ape-kejadah ke.
Tapi aku mmg tak boleh nak layan spesies-spesies manusia mcm ko.
Randomly add org pastu ajak chat, konon-konon nak berkenalan.
Sorry la kalau korang nak anggap aku sombong, tp aku bosan ok kalau sehari kene layan 10 malaun mcm ni.
Aku bosan dgn perangai-perangai typical mcm ni.
Kalau ko pm awek tu pastu awek tu tak berminat, tutup je chatbox tu, move on dgn awek lain plak.
Takyah nak ckp dia sombong ke, bongkak ke, ape ke.
Lagi satu, ayat2 "hi, A.S.L. pls, boleh kenal, mcm kenal la, umur brapa, tinggal mana, keje ke study, buat apa, tak tido lagi ke, awak ni mix ke" tak payah la nak tanya aku. aku dah muak chatting mcm ni zaman2 skolah dulu. I'M DONE!
Dunia ni luas, aku mungkin tak suka layan, tp pompuan lain mungkin suka layan.
So, ko gi carik ur match ok?
BTW, bukan aku gedik-gedik nak approve friend request ko. kadang-kadang aku approve sebab aku ingat member-member lama aku. tambah-tambah lak ada 100 mutual friend. rupa-rupanya ko add semua geng2 aku.
Malaun-malaun berkenaan kalau aku ter-ADD aku takkan pikiaq 2 kali nak remove.
Harap maklum.

**Edit: Beberapa minit lepas aku post entry ni, dia inbox aku kat FB pulak. malas mau cerita panjang. tgk sendiri print screen. kali ni aku malas nak censored nama dia.

Back to your root, back to ground zero.

2011-04-03T03:12:00.001+08:00

When you're successful,
always remember the ground.

When you're on top of the world,
always look down to your root.

When you're nothing,
climb up the ladder again.

When everything falls apart,
go back home.

The best place in the world!

I'm coming home, next month.
I'm done here.

back to my root.
back to ground zero.

Tasha

Answer me.

2011-04-02T04:03:00.002+08:00

Honestly,

I've been thinking bout this for a few weeks.

I don't know how to explain things. Let alone elaborating the feelings.

When you asked me,

What are you thinking?

I don't know how to answer.

Because, i don't know how to tell you.

That you've change like 180 degrees.

Yes,

We're still together.

Yes,

We're in love.

But I miss those moment when we're so deeply into each other.

Why does it have to change?

If all relationship fade day by day, then how do we go through our life?

Relationship is suppose to grow taller day by day.

Or maybe it is not true love?

Answer me.

Tasha

I love...

2011-04-01T02:51:00.000+08:00

I love...

to hold your hands.

I love...

to talk to you.

I love...

to argue with you.

I love...

to call you whenever i think of you.

I love...

to SMS you just to ask silly question.

I love...

to see you making cute faces.

I love...

it when you become a gentleman.

I love...

it when you know exactly what i like.

I love...

it when you talk bout your life for that day.

I love...

sharing food with you.

I love...

spending time with you, even we're doing nothing.

I love...

being by your side, even when you're busy doing assignment.

I love...

YOU!

Tasha

Back to December

2011-03-23T13:19:00.001+08:00

Pernah dengar lagu tu?

Back to December, by Taylor Swift.

That song brings me back to December.

To where i used to live.

To where i used to be extremely happy.

I wish, I could go back to December.

Yaasin

2011-03-19T13:41:00.002+08:00

Sumpah, aku tenang lepas berkali-kali baca surah ni.

Sepanjang minggu stress.

Sepanjang minggu otak celaru sangat.

Fikirkan solution untuk setiap masalah yang ada.

Sampai aku lupa.

Lupa kewujudan Dia.

Pencipta yang satu.

Astagfirullah al-azim.

Tasha

Apa kena dgn aku ni?

2011-03-16T07:20:00.000+08:00

Tasha,

Boleh tak dalam hidup ni jangan banyak fikir sangat?

Boleh tak cuba relax and enjoy life?

Apa kena dgn aku ni?

Benda yang dah perfect, lagi nak fikir macam-macam.

Aku perfectionist ke?

Damn. Aku bukan perfectionist.

Orang selalu cakap,

Aku bertuah ada mak bapak orang senang.

Aku bertuah sentiasa ada "someone"caring dengan aku.

Aku bertuah ada kawan-kawan yang paling setia.

Aku bertuah hidup tak perlu fikir nak survive.

Orang tak nampak,

Mak bapak aku tak mewahkan aku.

That "someone" pun need a break from relationship kadang-kadang.

Kawan-kawan kesayangan aku semua stay jauh, especially Tiqah.

Yes, tak perlu fikir nak survive. Betul la sangat kan?

Aku rasa aku dah mula jadi manusia depressed macam dulu.

Damn lah.

Aku taknak depressed.

Aku nak that Tasha yang happy.

Aku happy dengan "dia".

Sangat happy actually.

Tapi apa lagi yang aku cari?

Perfection?

I don't think so.

'coz no shit is perfect in this world.

Tapi, still, i miss that December.

Bulan yang sangat-sangat happy.

I was with my dear BFF and babes.

Then he came to Penang for a short vacation.

Things started to fall into places.

I start planning out for my new life.

*****

Right now,

I'm living that new life of mine.

It's been perfect.

Well, at least for me it is.

So what's wrong Tasha?

Stop thinking.

Boleh tak pegang prinsip hidup Alex?

Live for today, tomorrow is another story!

Tasha

Perplexed

2011-03-16T05:08:00.000+08:00

Here we are.
Back to ground zero.

I wish, we could fall in love once again.
Be as close as we used to be few months ago.

I try to figure out.
What exactly happen.
That we are so apart right now.

I think.
And think.
I rethink.

Over and over again.
Just can't dig out the answer.

This is frustrating.
Because I love you more than anything.

*****

I know.
That we're fine.
We're very happy.
We suits each other well.

The thing is,
where is our flaw?
what is our problem?
why aren't we connecting?

I've always believe,
that in every relationship,
there's always another step,
that will grow taller day-by-day.

****

Let me simplify.

I just miss you.

That "you" i used to know.

That "you" who talks to me 'bout everything.

Even a silly thing that happens surrounding him.

Like a lame auntie passing by wearing ridiculous blouse.

Where is that man?

Why aren't him here?

I'm just beside you, but i feel like we're apart.

I meet you everyday, but i still feel that you're not here.

We're in the same venue, but it feels so soulless.

Whatever happens to that environment?

Tasha.

Angel

2011-03-14T13:48:00.001+08:00

Angel,
I miss our beautiful moment.
I miss the person you used to be.
I miss that clumsy man i used to date.
I miss those cheeky smile on your face.

You rarely smile now.
You rarely talk now.
You rarely joke now.
You rarely need me now.

What's bothering you, my dear?

We used to just sit and talk our heart out.
We used to be those people who laugh a lot.
We used to send each other beautiful message.
We used to stare at each other, for hours.

What happen?
What went wrong?

Is it me?
Is it you?

Or is it just us being "apart"?
Or is this what relationship are?

They seems to torn in the middle of the bumpy road.
Leave us with a wounded heart and miserable feelings.

Can we fall in love once again?

Back to that December.

I miss all that.

I miss you.

Tasha

Jalang

2011-03-10T07:18:00.000+08:00

WARNING: THIS IS A HATRED ENTRY. GET OUT IF YOU ARE THE FAIRY PRINCESS SEEKER.

Ok, aku taktau pasaipa la aku gatai sgt tangan pi search FB pompuan gila tu. kalau follower lama blog ni, hangpa tau la aku dok ckp pasai sapa. my no 1 enemy dalam hidup aku. satu jalang yg cukup aku benci for almost 7 years now. Taktau pasaipa, maybe sebab aku boring, or sebab aku dah rasa aku sgt best dari dia (selama ni mmg aku best dari dia pun), aku tiba2 rasa nak stalk FB dia. Puncanya, ada satu minah ni, email kat aku pic2 PANAS dia few years back. harini aku buat housekeeping email, terjumpa lak email lama tu. 

Yes, berdosa dendam lama2. tapi dia ni mmg jalang tahap sial nye. sumpah kalau aku jumpa dia skarang, aku takkan fikir 2 kali nak sepak terajang dia. malangnya, 7 tahun, dia langsung tak brani tunjuk muka! haram jadah nya betina. aku tgk profile dia. tgk pic dia (jgn tanya mcm mana aku boleh access private profile, i have my ways). WTF dia still LOSER! sumpah LOSER. betina yg konon2 nya kaya tahap perdana menteri, keturunan sempoi2, cantik & seksi, and typical modern woman  (tah celah mana modern) rupa2 nya skarang life dia sgt sucks. life aku better kot. walaupun aku kena work and study. 

BF yg 2-3 years back tu still BF dia. dress up still typical nak mati. konon2 vogue la tu. singlet MNG (yg sure beli time 70%), skinny jeans and necklace yg tak penah tukar2. OMG. have you ever heard of fashion? skarang aku tgk profile pic dia, still jalang yg sama. trying her best to have a cleavage. apa hang ingat boobs ang besar sgt ka? HAKTUIH!

Dia ni sgt wannabe tau. apa aku buat dulu, semua dia nak buat. apa aku beli semua dia nak beli. apakejadah ya minah ni????? skarang aku tgk dia sgt nak berbaik dgn geng2 aku plak. come on. cermin diri tu! ada ka patut dia ckp aku ni PENIPU? dia ckp family aku org susah, lagi susah dari dia. dia ckp family aku bukan mix, aku melayu tulen. haramjadah pa nya woi? sesusah2 family aku, I WENT TO A FUCKING PRIVATE COLLEGE. hang masuk local U ja kot!!!!!!! tu pun pakai PTPTN. kaya sgt kaaaa???????? 

Ni bodo, kalau aku ni melayu tulen, celah mana mai Tasha Leow! celah mana mai mata sepet? celah mana mai kulit putih? apa bangang sgt ang ni!!! and dengki tang mana bapak aku cina? anyway, what's the big deal of being mix anyway? aku tau la ang tak boleh blah..... always under my shadow kan????? you try to steal the limelight, yet you failed even to get close to my shadow. come on la. hang dgn aku, aku CANTIK lagi (yes aku prasan lawa dari jalang ni). 

hang nak tak aku print billboard besaq2 gambaq panas ang????? i think 20k is nothing for me, asalkan hati aku puas. tp aku ni bukan jenis jalang mcm ang, nak menyibuk hal org. ang nak buat dosa tu ang punya pasai laaa! bukan pinjam bf aku pun. oh ya, speaking of bf, ingat lagi tak dulu ang sukaaaaaaa sgt kutuk bf org. bf org ni buruk, bf org tu bodo, bf budak tu miskin, and yada yada yada. skarang apa dah jadi???? BF ang mcm malaun terencat ja aku tgk. come on laaa... wei pompuan, what goes around comes around, KAN???? euwww... tadak taste toi ang ni. desperate sgt ka???? 

***

tp hati aku puas. sah2 life aku better. skarang budak2 yg dulu tak ckp dgn aku pun dah back with me. ang ada pa? obviously your CLASS is way lower than mine. you life to serve people like me. ish.... rasa mcm nak terajang ang la. ang ada mana ar? mai sini sat. aku nak tendang juboq ang 10 kali! 

to my babes, i guess you girls know la kan, aku tgh maki hamun sapa ni. ish tatau pasaipa... tiba2 dendam aku naik balik pagi ni. 

sekian terima kasih kerana membaca sampai habis maki hamun aku. sekurang2 nya marah aku kurang. tadak la aku pi sodok juboq sapa2 pasni. makasihhhhhhhhh!

p/s: komen la apa angpa mau. janji jgn dok buat ustaz/ustazah tang ni, dok nasihat aku dendam tu tak elok, musuh tu tak baik, bla bla bla. SUMPAH aku delete ja!

I still hate you bitch,

Tasha Leow

Check list

2011-02-17T04:35:00.000+08:00

I need to:

1 - make new glasses. my power increased. Grrr...
2 - get myself a new Vaio. mine is dead. R.I.P.
3 - get super comfy wedges or ballerina for classes.
~~4 - buy a big bag for classes.~~ i forgot i just bought that fuchsia bag.
5 - make a new saving account. i'm done with CIMB. so longg........
6 - change my mobile number. i'm done with Maxis.
7 - buy flip flop.
~~8 - reload my touch N go. back to KL highways which is full of tolls.~~
9 - go to LKW to push on my application to go to 3rd year.
10 - get a new place.
11 - order new contact lens.

A Fresh Start!

2011-02-16T04:05:00.001+08:00

Hi there everyone,

My apologize for the longest hiatus ever.

i'm not busy, i'm not occupied with anything, nothing, TOTALLY nothing.

What I've been doing lately then?

Well, I travel back and forth, tweaking my mind, thinking deep, WHAT'S NEXT?

Received a job offer from a company that i really want, REJECTED it.

Why? Because i still believe in that DEGREE i was waiting for.

*****

CHAPTER 23

Yes, I'm 23 this year. so, this is chapter 23 of my blog, and of my life. If you're a follower of this damn blog, you'll know what's first on my wishlist, a DEGREE.

Tomorrow, I'm leaving Penang once again. Just like what i did 4 years ago. A young girl with big dreams, stepping into Sunway University, hoping to cope among the best of education. Did i get it? Yes. Did i enjoy my college life? Definitely, Yes. Did i excel in studies, Hell yeah! Graduated class of 2008, together with Ellyshia, Melita, Su Weng, Raymond and Vishminna. Yes, only us left. we started as 14 in the class. just us left.

Gosh, how i miss Aaron and Azuan's lame joke. How i miss them floitering around with me in Subang. How i miss playing poker and pool with them. How i miss skipping class with them, and hanging out at Orange. How i miss competing in classes. how i miss being the most outstanding student in class. how i miss walking in the college and people looking at me as if i'm a freak. damn, i miss everything about college. i miss that title.

Tomorrow,

Will be a new life for me. a brand new life. i will gasp every single breath i have, with courage and with all i had to bet, to that title, once again, STUDENT. This time, it's sweeter than ever. I am nobody's burden. I'm on my own. For bad or worst, it's on me now. My decision all the way. They don't know how much this mean for me. even if i have to really suffer this 2 years of education, i will go through it, with whatever is left with me.

I've pack my bags. Settle up my documents. Got myself a job. Enrolled in February intake. Applied for scholarships. I'm fully confident that i'm almost done right here. ALMOST. i just need a proper place to stay. so far, i'm staying kinda far from college. a friend's place. an old mate. Emi. remember her?

Besides all that,

Family are getting better. Mom got herself a new civic as a birthday present from dad. it shows that their relationship is getting better. well, i better keep praying for their happiness. they deserve each other, despites whatever shit that happens to our family. Our family business are also expanding. mom open a new branch of her shop. Dad got promoted as the CEO. brothers are all fine.

I broke up with Jack. Why? I don't think i want to reveal it here. let me just say, he's a nice person, but he's not ambitious enough for me. he just wants to settle for average. you guys of all people knows it well that i'm not average. oh yes, i believe in myself. i am EXTRAORDINARY.

The truth is,

when i was with Jack, i suffered for the last few months of our relationship. Now, I'm with someone better. Someone who deserves me more than anyone else. someone that i failed to see at first. Someone, who started as a friend. For now, he wants to remains anonymous. he wants us to ride low. I respect that decision. so for now, my mouth is sealed.

******

Everything is falling into places now. things seems to be better, or wonderful, may i say. i've come this far, and, i'm not looking back. for now, i have a new plan in life. my new plan in life is to live for today, and not to worry bout tomorrow. there's always a way out. don't worry too much, dont structure yourself too hard, dont pressure your soul too bad. you deserve to sit back and enjoy this life. trust me, things will fall into places, by itself. dont try to fix anything that is not broken.

Right now,

can i finish this studies with honour? can i cope to work and support myself without my parents help? can i cope with studies? can i get used to the new environment? can i survive this new relationship with that special someone? will i actually be with him forever? will i be an ART DIRECTOR as i've always wish since i was a little girl? will i be as successful as my babes in future? will i sit in the same table as future doctor, future lawyer, future pharmaceutic, future accountant and future remizer in 5 years time? The answer is, NO. NO for, WHO THE HECK KNOWS? sit back and enjoy the ride god crafted for you.

Dont worry too much.

I've made a wrong turn once or twice.

This is my life.

Still standing, with pride,

Tasha Leow

Tolong jawab :)

2011-01-28T11:32:00.000+08:00

Freaking Update!

2011-01-26T07:23:00.002+08:00

Ok guys, sorry for the freaking long hiatus. i freaking forget my password.

I'm in KL and i didnt bring my laptop. Obviously i'm so pampered with Chrome saved password features that i forgot my password totally.

Some shits that i gotta tell you guys:

i broke up with Jack on New Year's eve.
i'm a registered student of Bachelor of Design (hons) in Visual Communication.
i'm currently with someone new, and i think he takes care of me excellently.
i'm starting to feel that my life gonna be great after this.
i don't care bout anything else, my future is my everything.
i need to go SHOPPING for Chinese New Year.
i will be back in penang by weekends.
i miss my babes, all of them.

till then...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

I'm so freaking back,
Tasha Leow

Al-Fatihah

2010-12-30T04:04:00.001+08:00

You've lost your beloved brother.
Whom you love and respect.
I hope you'll be strong and subtle.
To accept the fact that he's gone.

I believe, He's a great man.
I believe, He's a good son.
I believe, He's loved by everyone.
I believe, He's done his best in life.

Now,
He's gone.
Leaving us behind.
With lots of memories.

I want you to be strong.
Accept it with an open mind.

All we can do now is to pray for him.
Hoping that god will give him the best place.

Al-Fatihah.

Star

Bulan Mei

2010-12-22T04:09:00.001+08:00

Mostly correct, but not all.

Keras hati & degil. (BETUL)
Kuat semangat & bermotivasi tinggi. (BETUL)Pemikiran yang tajam. (BETUL)Mudah marah apabila tidak dikawal. (BETUL)Pandai menarik hati & perhatian orang lain . (SALAH)Perasaan yang amat mendalam. (BETUL)Cantik dari segi mental & fizikal. (SALAH)Tidak perlu dimotivasikan.(BETUL)Tetap pendirian, tetapi mudah dipengaruhi oleh orang lain. (SALAH)
Mudah dipujuk. (SALAH)Bersikap sistematik (otak kiri).(BETUL)Suka berangan. (BETUL)Kuat daya firasat memahami apa yang terlintas di hati orang lain tanpa diberitahu. (BETUL)Bahagian telinga & leher mudah diserang penyakit.(BETUL)Daya khayalan yang tinggi.(BETUL)
Pandai berdebat.(BETUL)Fizikal yang baik.(SALAH)Kelemahan sistem pernafasan.(BETUL)Suka sastera, seni & muzik serta melancong.(BETUL)Tidak berapa suka duduk di rumah.(BETUL)Tidak boleh duduk diam.(BETUL)Tidak punya ramai anak.(TAKNAK TERUS BOLEH?)Rajin dan bersemangat tinggi.(BETUL)Agak boros(BETUL)

5 months...

2010-12-19T23:44:00.001+08:00

Jack,
It's been 5 months.

I hope we'll be better.
I hope we grew stronger.
I hope we understand each other.
I hope you know that i just want to be together.

I've missed you at a point.
I've hated you at some point.
I've love you at a high point.
I've hope for you at that point.

I'm sorry.
For I've been such a mess.
With all my stupid attitude.
I guess, i was just being a woman.

Naturally complicated to understand.
Unpredictable feelings and attitude.
High expectation on the man I love.
Being so needy and clingy lately.

I just need you right now.
I'm going through a very tough process of my life.
Shits that i hate to admit that i'm really fucked up.
All i wanted is to be successful and shits happen.

5 months.
Happiness that we share.
Sorrow that we share.

Every single moment.
Every single routine.
Every single experience.
Every little thing.

That makes us.....US.
That Ace and Jack.
You're my Jack.
I'm your Ace.

Honestly,
I'm happy.
I'm honoured.
I'm pleased.

To be yours.
Just yours.
I'm yours.

Just sometimes,
I think you cross my limit.
You've cross that border.
That tested my patience.
and of course my love.

Sometimes,
When i need you.... you're not there.
When i want to talk to you.... you're not interested.
When i try to make you understand..... we're just not on the same page.

I love you, Jack.
And I'm the kinda person who BELIEVES in love.
And i believe we're meant to be together, forever.
That's the reason why i accepted you 5 months ago.

What I hope in the future is,
For you to put some effort for me.
For you to show that you love me.
Not just a word or promises.

You're so stiff.
Yes, you are.

I'm sorry to say,
That other man takes care of me better than you do.
That other man makes me feel comfortable to talk to.
That other man really make effort to show that they love me.

I'm not comparing.
I don't even want to compare.
Because they're nobody in my life.
Just some man trying to win my heart.

The thing is,
My heart belongs to you.
I just hope you could show me.
That you really TREASURE me as your girl.

THAT'S ALL I WANTED.

SERIOUSLY, THAT'S ALL.

Whatever it is,
Happy 5 months anniversary ;)

I love my Jack.

P/s: Please don't take this as a sad note. I'm just concluding the whole 5 months. What happen between us. Nothing sad right now. I'm fine and I'm perfectly happy right now.

Your Ace,

Tasha Leow

Tasha Leow is SO back!

2010-12-19T08:37:00.000+08:00

Yes peeps.
I am so back.
No hassle passle.
No more gloomy days.

LETS HAVE FUN!

Can you believe that this morning i dance to the tune of Basshunter, Pitbull, Usher, Taio Cruz and Black Eyed Peas for 2 straight hours?

I am so feeling good bout myself.

YES.

TASHA LEOW IS BACK.

and she's better than ever.

meet me on the dance floor next week peeps.

We'll see who have the last dance!

I'm telling ya, i can dance for 7 straight hours.

Be prepared.

OMG.

I'm back.

I'm back.

I'm back.

I'm back.

Tasha Leow.

Your Future Married Life

2010-12-12T13:29:00.000+08:00

Check it out. I think most of the thing stated there are SO true!

I am Tasha Leow.

2010-12-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

I want to be her.

I don't want to be Ace.

I want to be that Tasha who used to be happy.

I want to be that Tasha who used to be ignorance.

I want to be that Tasha who never care bout feelings.

I want to be that Tasha who love herself more than anything.

I want to stop bothering people's life.

I want to stop wondering bout others.

I want to stop being so gloomy everyday.

I want to stop being so predictable to others.

I think it's decision time.

I think i can go through this on my own.

I think Jack deserve to be free.

I think he can do better without me.

But how?

How do i do this?

I love him dearly.

I miss him dearly.

Maybe i'm being too clingy.

Maybe i'm being too weak.

Come on Tasha.

You can do this.

You've done it with Medo.

You can do it with Jack.

Stop bothering him.

Stop running to him.

You can solve your own stuff.

You can be yourself once again.

You can stand up like you used to be.

You can be the person i used to know.

Try your best Tasha.

For what it's worth.

Where is that Tasha Leow?

Who used to be so powerful.

Holding every single piece of her life.

Drawing every single path of her life.

Like there's no tomorrow.

P/s: Help me, being myself. Be that Tasha who didn't need a man in her life. That Tasha who just call her guy once a week. Giving him enough space to breath, and to live his own private life. GOOD LUCK Tasha.

I miss myself,

Tasha Leow

I am Ace. You're Jack.

2010-12-04T12:55:00.001+08:00

I'm done, calling you.
I'm done, looking for you.
I'm done, thinking bout you.
I'm done, trying to make things work.

From now on....

If you remember me, you call me.
If you need me, you look for me.
If you miss me, you'll think bout me.
If you LOVE me, you'll work things out.

For now,
i've put all my cards on the table,
played my part of the game,
just waiting for your turn,
to flip your card.

I am Ace.
You're Jack.

No matter what we played,
I have nothing to lose.

REMEMBER THAT.

Ace

Heart to Heart with Jack

2010-11-29T07:40:00.000+08:00

I know i'm not suppose to write this here.
But for the sake of remembering this event.
I'm gonna share it here with you guys.
Here it goes.

I had a fight with Jack.
A big fight, that could end our relation.

Reason?
I don't know.
I thought that he changed.
He thought that I changed.

I have an instinct.
I damn strong one.
Saying that he's hiding something.
Saying that he's up to something.

How?
I don't know.
I can't explain.
It's just my instinct.

Being us, we decided to talk.
and we did, yesterday morning.
We talked, we argued, we discussed.
and, we RECONCILE.

Yes we're fine now.
Just one thing bothering me.
One thing that Jack said to me.
Which totally slaps me into reality.

Imran had been such a great influence in my life.
That I actually feel down whenever something happens.

But with Jack, i just feel stress-out and pissed.
All i wanted is to get out of the trouble and forget it.

Jack made me realize that our relationship is so different.
That i can't never love him the way i love Imran.

NEVER.
Because he is who he is.

I've been talking bout a level.
A very high level of True Love.
I believe that Ace and Jack will be there.
One fine day. Not never. Just not now.

So, here we are.
Back to square one.
Except, things changed.
Now, I love him more.
and he loves me more.

Jack,
I hope we will survive this relationship.
Because I know that I love you so much.
I don't want any other guy in my life.
I just want you.
Only you.

Your Ace.

A letter from mom and dad.

2010-11-27T03:17:00.001+08:00

I love you, mama and abah. I promise to be there for you, till your last breath. No matter how old i will be, i am always your LITTLE GIRL. you can always talk to me, like how we used to be, and how we are now. My mama and abah is my best friend. they're the first thing i think of in my every steps.

WATCH THIS VIDEO

Tasha Leow

Aku lagi best dari ang ok!

2010-11-21T15:41:00.000+08:00

WARNING: This is a hatred entry. So, expect me to be snobbish and rude. Aku tadak niat nak menghina sapa2, kecuali pompuan gila tu. So, angpa yg len2 toksah dok buat terasa. mau penampaq ka?

Tadi aku terbukak pic kawan yang aku agak menyampah la. Well, kami tak la sampai tahap bergaduh. but, mmg nampak la dia tak suka aku, and aku pun tak suka dia. Aku sendiri pun tatau pasaipa dia mmg anti dgn aku. padahal aku mmg ok dgn dia. Tapi sejak dia menghina aku, SORRY la kan. mmg aku pangkah la betina ni.

Well, she's the type yg aku nak golongkan into 3 type of people:

1 - Settle with just an ordinary life.

2 - Thinks that she had the perfect life.

3 - Look down on others.

Ok, number 1 tu aku tak kisah sgt. definition of "happy" tu memang la sgt2 wide. very various. tapi for a belagak person like her, why do you just settle with ordinary? why didnt strive for the best? orang yg kononnya nak pakai sports car, buy houses in places like bukit antarabangsa and such.... why didnt i see the sparkle in your life? why just ordinary? well, selama ni pun dia dok kritik aku.

dia kondem brand2 yg aku pakai. not that aku peduli pun. baju RM10 pun aku pakai kalau aku suka. pasar malam pun aku pi. aku kira pa. tak percaya, pi tanya Cik Hasnas Jafri, my bff. kami pi pasar malam nak beli bihun sup sedap tu, tp on the way, nampak kedai jual earring. kami boleh pi stop, beli earring yg super cute, harga RM1 ja per pair. see, i'm not a brand victim. aku pakai apa aku nak. i dont give a heck bout brands.

Yes, aku gila Charles & Keith wedges, Christine Louboutin stilettos, Ferragamo handbag, Coach wristlet, Estee Lauder makeup, and bla bla bla. whatever shit it is la kan. aku mmg ada certain brand yg aku akan beli certain item. sebab aku rasa design dia sgt catchy. sesuai dgn jiwa aku. tp yg aku tak paham, pasaipa pompuan ni nak kepoh2 hal aku? Aku tau aku suka fashion and aku tau aku fashionable (walaupun kadang2 aku pakai benda pelik2). pompuan ni plak just pakai blouse makcik2, and beggie jeans yg aku tatau zaman bila punya dia pakai.

in short, she's trying to compare herself with me! aku tak heran pun. whatever la kan. like i care. pompuan ni dah la pendek dari aku. ok, aku 5' 3" which is sgt short, coz most my my girls mmg 5' 7". imagine that girl, i guess she's about 5' ja kot. oh ya, she's like 80kg, which is super fat! she had oily face, uneven skin tone, BLACK HEADS!, and paired up with an ugly smile. I didnt see how is she suppose to compare with me? Even aku yg buruk ni pun cakap dia buruk. OMG. tak bley blah ok spesies mcm ni.

Wait, lets compare.

Aku Graphic Designer

Hang Clerk

Aku grad Sunway University

Hang drop out of some cheap college

Aku berkawan dgn future doc, future lawyer, future tourism expert, future bla bla bla bla.

Hang.......TADAK KAWAN!

Aku baju saiz M

Hang saiz XXL?

Aku makeup sgt vouge

Hang makeup makcik2 (sumpah aku nak tergelak tgk eyeshadow tak blend ang)

Aku akan sambung study

Hang duduk rumah tak buat apa

Aku akan start career aku

Hang duduk rumah tak buat apa

Aku akan succeed dlm hidup

Hang STILL duduk rumah tak buat apa

EXCEPT ang akan cuba compare diri ang dgn aku

try your best to make me look bad in your eyes

and ended up and sendiri yg bodoh!

kan kan kan?

P/s: Jack, if we ever got married, she'll be on my VIP list. I really wanted to rub her face with my Tiffany! It's a dream come true moment!

P/s/s: Maryam sah2 tau aku tgh ckp pasai sapa! wakakakak.

Wishes

2010-11-17T07:23:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, to a guy i used to love.

Imran Quadir.

May God bless you with a beautiful life.
Because, you deserve just the best in life.
You taught me the precious meaning of love.
You've shown me such care and tender.
You've been such an amazing person.
I've never been happier in my life.
And I will never be.

We might not belong together.
Deep inside us, we're fighting the urge.
The desire of wanting each other so badly.
The desire of missing each other so badly.
The piece of every precious moment we had.

The thing between us, called chemistry.
We're seriously perfect. So perfect.
That others envy us so much.
Wishing that they have what we had.

I am sorry.
I will never turn back.
As I belong to someone else now.
Someone who has been so amazing to me.
His name is Jack. My one and only Jack.

Jack, I love you.
No one can deny that.
No one can change that.
No one will ever understand that.

Just you and me.
Cherishing our love.
Now and forever.

I believe in you.
Because I love you.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha Everyone

I'm yours, Jack,

Natasha

I love my blog - Part I

2010-11-15T10:26:00.001+08:00

For those out there, who owns a blog, a journal, or anything like that, this entry is dedicated to you guys.

Ok, i'm facing a case right here. i talk to one of my good friend on the net last night. she's a fun amazing girl. well, i hope she won't mind me writing bout her case here. just to share experience. She told me that she just deleted her blog, her 4 years blog. personally, i love her writing and i love that blog. never missed an entry. it's a personal blog, so she blog bout whatever happens around her. including the guy she had crush on, what she ate, family issue, yada yada yada. you know what i mean, right?

So, i was shocked. For me, to delete something that you work on dedicatedly, for a few years, is just insane. Yes, for some of us out there, it's just a blog. something you put on the net. that's all. for me, well, i guess, for MOST bloggers, our blog is one of our most treasured treasure. Yeah, what the heck, i just write shits here, gossip bout my friend, talk shit bout my enemy, blabber bout my fashion sense, stuff i like, my Jack, and some other unimportant stuff. i think, even though what i write is junk, i still love this blog. the place where i express myself, be honest, totally honest, and learn more bout myself. trust me, i find it fun, reading on my own journal. thinking, how silly i was, back then. of course, learning from mistakes, day by day.

Well, the reason why she deleted her blog was, she thinks that she can no more be herself there. she can no more write flawlessly. she can't be honest bout her feelings, she can't write some stuff and she have to think twice before writing anything there. Reason? Because the guy she love the most, is stalking her blog, and questioning every single piece she write there. questions like, "Why do you write that?", "Why do you do that?", "why do you think like that?" and etc. this is so frustrating. even for me. i've been through that. it feels like shit. i was like, "WTF, this is my freaking blog!". this is how i feel, deal with it. trust me, i've reach that moment, where i can no longer be myself in my blog. it's such a turn off for me. i don't know what to write. so, i decided just not to write, which is another frustrating case, because i love to write, even though i sucks in writing. i know, nobody gonna read my piece of junk here, but hey, i love this blog. deal with it.

Ok, a piece of advice for you guys/girls out there. if your man/woman owns a blog, try to read her blog with an open mind. treat yourself as one of the reader, not as their bf/gf. of course, you can question us bout anything that we write in the blog, but please be careful with your words and tone. words could be harmful, tone could make it worst. don't make us feel pressured writing. we're just having fun, sharing our piece of mind right here. nothing much. one more thing, when we write something here, please don't take it too seriously. like, when i tell you guys, i hate my mom. well, that's just a 5 minutes moment of my life. shits happen. we all have our boiling point, and i'm not ashamed to admit that my boiling point is very low. i can reach there very fast. so, don't trigger it. be smart, like my Jack. he knows how to deal with me, even when i'm angry.

All I want to do, is write, and, maybe, 20 years from now, read this blog through, before i die, thinking of years of my life. At least, there's a prove that Tasha Leow was once there in everyone's life. This blog, is a living prove. Trust me, you'll treasure this junk, one fine day. Cheers to all writers around the world. I SALUTE you guys. Never ever give up people. Don't stop writing, because, there's someone out there reading!

P/s: She retrieved her blog, and she never felt better. Never give up, babe! I'm with you.

P/s/s: I have a dream of registering for copywrights in the name of Tasha Leow, one fine day.

P/s/s/s: Wait for Part II of this issue. Gonna post it later, at night.

Blogger since August 2006,

Tasha Leow

Again....

2010-11-10T04:32:00.000+08:00

.... ade saje la korang2 ni dtg menyempit. wakakakaak. tak boleh tgk org senang 5 minit ka???

Ace Heart

Statement...

2010-11-09T07:53:00.001+08:00

aku bosan pagi-pagi ni.

so just bloghopping je la.

tiba-tiba sorang kawan lama,

rasanya last jumpa dia 2005,

PM aku kat Facebook.

sembang punya sembang,

dia cakap dia nak single.

aku rasa dia mcm takut.

aku klua satu statement.

"satu hari nanti ang akan jumpa org tu"

Dia diam. aku tambah lagi statement.

"love is beautiful"

Diam lagi.

so aku tambah lagi satu statement.

rasanya ultimate la kot statement ni.

ke statement ni sebab aku tgh in love dgn Jack?

"bagi aku la kan.... tak sempurna hidup takde cinta."

warhhhhhhhhh statement aku!!! 

betul ke weh ape aku ckp ni?

lain gile aku skang ni!

DAMN.

mcm boleh mati lak takde cinta kan? 

adeh, apa nak jadi ko ni tasha? 

btw, minah tu tak reply terussssssss!

mungkin dia terkejut dgn aku.

pompuan heartless yg dia kenai dulu,

dah berubah tahap kaw punya.

(In memories, 2 Nilam 2002, budak duduk sebelah aku, kena kantoi dgn Miss Lee. Nanti aku cerita!)

P/s: zaman skolah dulu, aku budak paling jahat skali. sampai skarang kalau cikgu-cikgu jumpa aku, depa nanti senyum panjang. pastu cerita kat student-student depa, ni student paling gila depa penah jumpa. demerit aku bersepah-sepah. boyfriend? sorry tak layan! (except for Nick). tu pun sembang aku hang dgn dia. damn. dlm kepala otak aku, nak blah class, nak lepak jamming, nak lari dari rumah. kesian mak bapak aku. ish ish ish.

Masa form 2 angpa panggil aku,

DevilTash 

30 Perkara Perempuan...

2010-11-08T21:57:00.001+08:00

Well, aku suka benda ni. si Safiza share kat wall FB. I think most of it are true ;)

Let's compare.

1. Bila sorang wanita mengatakan dia sedang bersedih,tetapi dia tidak menitiskan airmata,itu bermakna dia sedang menangis di dalam hatinya.

[not me. aku jenis tak bagitau terus aku sedih. simpan sorang lagi bagus.]

2. Bila dia tidak menghiraukan kamu selepas kamu menyakiti hatinya, lebih baik kamu beri dia masa untuk menenangkan hatinya semula sebelum kamu menegur dengan ucapan maaf.

[phew... this is soooooooo TASHA! aku benci org kacau aku bila aku tgh angin. pi dok jauh2.]

3. Wanita sukar nak cari benda yang dia benci tentang orang yang paling dia sayang (sebab itu ramai wanita yang patah hati bila hubungan itu putus di tengah jalan).

[true. even if 100 people ckp benda tu betul, we'll always be in denial. hoping that our man is just not the way they describe him. what a fool kan?]

4. Sekiranya sorang wanita jatuh cinta dengan sorang lelaki, lelaki itu akan sentiasa ada di fikirannya walaupun ketika dia sedang keluar dengan lelaki lain.

[mestilah. klua dgn my boys, my Jack is still in my head.]

5. Bila lelaki yang dia suka dan cinta merenung tajam ke dalam matanya, dia akan cair seperti coklat!!

[erghhh not me kot? i will fight back.]

6. Wanita memang sukakan pujian tetapi selalu tidak tau macam mana nak menerima pujian.

[sumpah, aku tak suka. aku rasa benda tu fake. because i know myself very well. aku tak perlu org utk bagitau aku.]

7. Jika kamu tidak suka dengan gadis yang sukakan kamu separuh mati,tolak cintanya dengan lembut,jangan berkasar sebab ada satu semangat dalam diri wanita yang kamu tak akan tahu bila dia dah buat keputusan,dia akan lakukan apa saja.

[true on most girls. definitely not me. ko tak suka aku, ko nye pasal. aku carik lain.]

8. Sekiranya sorang gadis mula menjauhkan diri darimu selepas kamu tolak cintanya,biarkan dia untuk seketika.Sekiranya kamu masih ingin menganggap dia sorang kawan,cubalah tegur dia perlahan-lahan.

[again not me. btw, aku tak pernah confess kat sapa2 pun. so aku tatau benda ni sgt]

9. Wanita suka meluahkan apa yang mereka rasa.Muzik,puisi,lukisan dan tulisan adalah cara termudah mereka meluahkan isi hati mereka.

[oh yes. so true. i write here, i have a thick notebook of poem, and aku pun melukis. yes, i can draw, perfectly.]

10. Jangan sesekali beritahu perempuan yang mereka ni lansung tak berguna.

[try bagitau aku tgk. kalau ang tak balik kaki senget, dont call me tasha!]

11. Bersikap terlalu serius boleh mematikan mood wanita.

[nope, it turns me on! yehaaaa. men looks hot when they're serious.]

12. Bila pertama kali lelaki yang dicintainya dalam diam memberikan respon positif,misalnya menghubunginya melalui telefon,si gadis akan bersikap acuh tak acuh seolah-olah tidak berminat,tetapi sebaik saja ganggang diletakkan,dia akanmenjerit kesukaan dan tak sampai sepuluh minit,semua rakan-rakannya akan tahu berita tersebut.

[yeah, benda ni penah jadi masa aku dgn imran. muka buat relek je. padahal balik umah melompat2 dgn emi & maryam. waakakakakaka.]

13. Sekuntum senyuman memberi seribu erti bagi wanita.Jadi jangan senyum sebarangan.

[ntah, aku tak pernah perasan lak benda ni.]

14. Jika kamu menyukai sorang wanita,cubalah mulakan denganpersahabatan.Kemudian biarkan dia mengenalimu dengan lebih mendalam.

[hell no!!! BIG NO for me. aku benci kapel dgn kawan.]

15. Jika sorang wanita memberi seribu satu alasan setiap kali kamu ajak keluar,tinggalkan dia sebab dia memang tak berminat denganmu.

[tak jugak. aku reject imran 7 kali sebelum aku betul2 klua on date. wakakakak. kesian budak tu.]

16. Tetapi jika dalam masa yang sama dia menghubungimu atau menunggu panggilan darimu,teruskan usahamu untuk memikatnya.

[maybe dia just menggedik kot pompuan tu? ish..]

17. Jangan sesekali mengagak apa yang dirasakannya.Tanya dia sendiri!!

[i think my Jack knows this. nak tau apa2 takyah teka2 takyah tanya org lain, DIRECT je!]

18. Selepas sorang gadis jatuh cinta,dia akan sering tertanya-tanya kenapalah aku tak jumpa lelaki ini lebih awal.

[no lah. benda ni back to basic. back to qada' and qadar.]

19. Kalau kamu masih tercari-cari cara yang paling romantik untuk memikat hati sorang gadis,cubalah rajin-rajinkan tangan menyelak buku-buku cinta.

[euwww...OMG so typical. takyah la bro. ko direct je lagi bagus kot. tak semua pompuan layan ayat2 ni.]

20. Bila setiap kali gambar kelas keluar,benda pertama yang dicari oleh wanita ialah siapa yang berdiri di sebelah buah hatinya, kemudian barulah dirinya sendiri.

[ni zaman budak skolah ke ape ni? even back in college, i never bothered who dance with my guy kat any party. aku ni pelik kot?]

21. Bekas teman lelaki akan sentiasa ada di fikirannya tetapi lelaki yang dicintainya sekarang akan berada di tempat teristimewa iaitu di hatinya!!

[yes, he will always be here in my head. tp you're my number one, Jack]

22. Satu ucapan 'Hi/Assalamualaikum' sahaja sudah cukup menceriakan harinya.

[yes true. even a simple sms. trust me, we women will just smile one whole day for that.]

23. Teman baiknya saja yang tahu apa yang sedang dia rasa dan lalui.

[pergh... kalau pi interview maryam pasal aku, dia boleh buat buku berjilid. wakakakak.]

24. Wanita paling benci lelaki yang berbaik-baik dengan mereka semata-mata nak tackle kawan mereka yang paling cantik.

[aku tau la kawan2 aku hot, aku buruk, jgn la angpa mai buat baik dgn aku sebab nak ngorat depa. sumpah tak dpt. kami semua TAKEN ok!]

25. Cinta bermaksud kesetiaan, ambil berat, jujur dan kebahagiaan tanpa sebarang kompromi.

[me and Jack, we hold strong on TRUST. we trust each other so much. yg lain2 tak kisah sgt.]

26. Semua wanita mahukan sorang lelaki yang cintakan mereka sepenuh hati..

[impossible jugak. lelaki ni selalunya distracted. even ade pompuan menggedik tepi dia, kalau dia tak sayang pun, dia akan layan jugak. YES WOMEN, this is the fact bout MAN! so jgn la menggedik dgn hak org. confirm2 la awek dia tak suka. tp kalau bf aku, pegi je la. aku tak kisah. coz i know this fact long time ago. takde effect bagi aku. eh pjg plak komen kat no 26 ni.]

27. Senjata wanita adalah airmata!!

[itu semua accusation lelaki. bagi aku tak kot. tears tu satu benda yg honest. shows our feelings. ape ingat pompuan ni suka2 nak nangis. bengap ke ko ni?]

28. Wanita suka jika sesekali orang yang disayanginya mengadakan surprisebuatnya (hadiah,bunga atau sekadar kad ucapan romantis). Mereka akan rasa terharu dan merasakan bahawa dirinya dicintai setulus hati. Dengan i! ni dia tak akan ragu-ragu terhadapmu.

[Kalau couple lelaki melayu susah kot nak dpt benda2 ni? wakakakaka. well, from my experience la kan. i dated foreigners, and i think they're such a bomb! sometimes pegi kelas, on your fav table kat lecture hall, ade post-it notes, saying i miss u. wakakakaak. malay man, aku tak penah nampak lagi kot.]

29. Wanita mudah jatuh hati pada lelaki yang ambil berat tentang mereka dan baik terhadapnya. So,kalau nak memikat wanita pandai-pandailah...

[tak jugak. most friends ambik berat gak ape? so jgn salah faham la.]

30. Sebenarnya mudah mengambil hati wanita kerana apa yang dia mahu hanyalah perasaan dicintai dan disayangi sepenuh jiwa.

[again women, aku dah tak larat nak ckp. man can never love you 100%. they're always distracted by other things. you have to settle down just by 90% of love. lagi 10% tatau pi mana. tanya dia. different guy, different answer. for my Jack, lagi 10% goes to his movies, poker, and friends. LOL.]

ok, settle. bukan nak suruh angpa paham aku. just nak emphasize that not all of us WOMEN are the same. well, i know it's kinda impossible to understand us, but at least, give it your best shot. we just need a lil of your attention, that's all.

tasha leow

Nak bercinta pun susah ke?

2010-11-08T05:05:00.001+08:00

Melita jahat!

aku baru nak mengada-ada dgn Jack.

Adeh. Abeh semua komen dia like.

Mangkok toi pompuan ni.

Nak layan jiwa skit pun susah. adeh.

Ace Heart

Is flirting considered as cheating?

2010-11-05T04:11:00.000+08:00

Situation 1:

You have a gorgeous friend, and he/she is sort of giving you a hint. Like, hey, let's go out for supper, i'm hungry! The thing is, you can obviously see that he/she is giving you the flirtatious voice. So question here, is it proper to go out with him/her, even as friends? Should we bring some friends, just to make it clear that we're just having supper. No other intention. FULL STOP?

Situation 2:

Ok Facebook issue. He/she seems interested in your activity there. Whatever you posted, whatever quizzes you take, whatever status you made, he/she will write a comment, or at least "like" it. Is he/she viewing and refreshing your page every 10 seconds or what? ok whatever. My issue here is, how do we tackle this kinda thing? I mean, we don't want to hurt our loved ones. We don't want them to feel insecure or jealous or sad. Sometimes, we don't realize that we're replying flirtatious comments too.

Situation 3:

We joke around with nicknames. You know, like calling them dear, sweetheart, beautiful, handsome, etc. Yeah, I understand it's just a joke. nothing much. but will it hurt our loved ones when they read them? Will it? Is that considered as "slightly cheating"? I mean, we might not have any intention by giving out those nicknames, but, the other party might get it wrong. He/she might think that we're interested in them. Sometimes, when i read some comments that some people wrote, it struck me, won't their bf/gf feel awkward? What do they do? Just pretend it didn't happen? Or just reply that comment with something cynical? Or just ask that person to mind their language? What do you think?

Situation 4:

He/she started asking bout your guy/girl. What is that suppose to mean? He/she wants to feel better, or he/she wants to compete with your guy/girl? I think this is another hint of flirtation. A person won't ask so much question on your guy/girl, unless if they're interested in you. So, if you detect this kind of thing, what will you do? It's obvious he/she is doing the "good character" in front of you, by asking all those so-called routine question bout your loved ones, while what they really want is actually to get you! So, if we were to reply to their question, are we cheating on our man/woman?

*********

Well, nothing much. Just an issue that i just thought of. Sometimes, i think we human failed to see the silver-lining of an issue. We might think that it's absolutely normal to act that way, but to our surprise, our spouse doesn't think that way. So, what is the best way to handle all this 4 situation, so that nobody get hurt? I admit, sometimes, i ACCIDENTALLY flirt with some guys, in a cafe, in a bar, at work, in college, even when i go jogging! Ok, what i meant by flirting here is, just giving response, not OBVIOUSLY throwing myself out there. You know what i mean right?

So, what i'm trying to say here is, i think, there's a fine line between flirting and cheating. My case, if i ever see any of this on my page, or, on Jack's page, i'll just consider it fooling around. Sometimes, i think that we human always wants attention from the opposite sex. we tends to get attracted by them, even though we know that we love our man/woman. Maybe it's just a phase.

Back to my question. Is flirting considered as cheating?

What do you think? Drop me your opinion on this ;)

Tasha Leow

Something Bout Me.

2010-11-04T08:04:00.000+08:00

Ok, I'm bored. Can't open Facebook in this stupid Crystal Crown!

The Basics:

Name: Tasha @ Ace
Age: Tough question!
School: SGGS.
Nationality: Malaysian.
Hobbies: Collecting shoes?

Love Life:
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yes.
Do you like someone?: Yes.
Does anyone like you?: Yes.
Have you ever kissed anyone?: Yes.
Hugged anyone in the past week?: Yes.

Friendships
Who is your best friend?: Maryam.
Where did you meet them?: High school.
Did you lose any friends this year?: Oh yes.... and i'm glad i did.
Gain any?: 10 times than the number i lost.
Meet a special friend?: Nobody is more special than Maryam.
Did you hang out with any friends in the past week?: Yeah, like, a lot!

New Years Eve
Did you do anything at midnight?: Flirting with the club vocalist!
Who did you spend it with?: Some friends.
Did you have any resolutions?: To lose weight. LOL.

Valentines Day
Did you have a Valentine?: This year? Hell Yeah!
Did you send out any cards/chocolates/etc?: Yes.
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend on this day?: Yes.

Summer
Did you go on vacation?: Nope.
Did you hang out on the beach with friends?: LOL, i live in an island.
How long was your summer break?: I'm still working :P
Did you get a tan?: I wish i could!
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend during the summer?: Yes.

Halloween
Did you go trick or treating?: Suppose to, but i was having a crisis.
If so, who did you go with?: -
Did you dress up?: -
Was it fun?: -

Christmas
Who did you spend it with?: Last Christmas? I was at the club dancing my ass out with my girls.
Did Santa come to your house?: WTF?
Did you stay up until midnight on Christmas Eve? Duhhh.... I was dancing with the DJ's girlfriend!

Your Birthday
Who did you spend it with?: Friends.
What did you do?: I was sick.
What did you get?: At least 300 wishes on Fb, 100 SMS wishes, some presents, a slice of cake, and roses from Nick.
When is it?: 20th May.

Have You Ever: (Yes or No)
Kissed someone: Yes.
Hugged someone: Yes.
Electricuted yourself: Yes. Fun! LOL.
Climbed more than 60 feet: Yes.
Made a Youtube video: Yes. Tutorial on gadget.
Lied to a loved one: YES! dont worry, not you, Jack!
Had a nosebleed: Yes, back in National Service.
Gotten airsick: Nope.
Been so bored, you just ate food: Ahaa.... this is how i got really fat.
Not brushed your teeth for a day: NOOOOOOOO~
Not showered for a day: NOOOOOOOOOO!
Drank alchohol: Yes.
Smoked: Yes.
Tried drugs: Yes.
Had a pet: Yes.
Ran a marathon: Yes.
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend: OMG??? YES!

5 Do’s
1. Do you play any instruments?: Bass.
2. Do you play any sports?: Hockey, Softball, Netball, Soccer, Futsal, Pool, Chess.
3. Do you believe in 2012?: No.
4. Do you like cheese?: Yes, thanks to Maryam!
5. Do you honestly like Obama?: I'm not American. Not relevant to me.

4 If’s
1. If you get $1 Million for breaking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend, would you?: Easy question, NO!
2. If you were to get $50,000 for killing a rat, would you?: LOL, YES.
3. If you were to choose between your best friend and your brother/sister, who would you choose?: BFF!
4. If you were to choose between coke/pepsi or sprite/7up, which would you choose?: Sprite, Maryam you know why, right?

3 How’s
1. How old do you want to be when you get married?: Ask him ;)
2. How many siblings do you have?: Two.
3. How did your last Christmas go? A blasttttt!

2 When’s
1. When did you have your first kiss?: Errr... when was it, Nick?
2. When did you last have a piece of cake?: Longggg longggg time ago!

1 What
1. What would you say if the guy/girl you like right now kissed you?: You're amazing :P

Be Honest!

2010-11-04T07:37:00.002+08:00

Damn... it was a dare!!

Here it goes.

This is seriously going to get personal, you ready? Yes.

If you were caught cheating, would you fess up? Already did, and we had a BIG fight!

The last time you felt honestly broken? 2007, when someone went back to his country, for good.

Are you craving something? Koko Crunch!

If you could have one thing right now what would it be? Time with my Jack!

Would you rather have ten kids, or none? This is an easy one. NONE.

What do you hear right now? People snoring.

Is your bed against more than one of your walls? Nope.

What’s on your mind right now? Shit I forgot my nail color remover and i need to attend a funeral!

Are you there for your friends? DEFINITELY.

Last person to see you cry? My parents.

What do you do when you get nervous? Rare occasion that is, but, i'll just drink lots of water.

Be honest, do you like people in general? No.

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? Darn.... this question again?

Does anyone completely understand you? Yes, Maryam ;)

Do you have a reason to smile right now? YES. My Jack!

Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you? Yes, but they did.

Would you be happier if life had a rewind button? Ah definitely. i'll be in heaven!

Do you tell your mum or dad everything? Hell no!

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes? LOL, silly question.

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone? I think so. Prediction.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked? Yes.

Do you think more about the past, present, or future? Right now? FUTURE!

How many hours of sleep do you get a night? Errr.... about 2 to 4 hours.

Are you easy to get along with? Yes.

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? Last girl was Dura, so, NOPE!

What was the last drink that you put in your mouth? Nescafe Ais. LOL.

What size bed do you have? King.

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in? When i got in.

Do you like the rain? No. Prefer cloudy day.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Sure thing, YES.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do? Countless times!

Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither? My nickname in college is Devil. What do you think?

Who were you last in the car with, besides family? LOL, My Jack.

What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who? Devil, with Melita and Ivy.

Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend? Yes.

Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you? Yes!

Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party? No, rather go to the club. No mess for me ;)

Do you regret a past relationship? Never. All of them are wonderful.

Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party? Crazy party!

Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over? Sort of...

Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry? YES!

Do you care too much about your appearance? Absolutely!

Are you a jealous person? No.

Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? LOL, Yes.

Do you miss anyone? Jack :(

Last person who made you cry? Ah shit.... i hate this question. Well, to that person, you know yourself.

Does your ex piss you off? YES!

What are you doing tomorrow? Working.

Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week? No.

Is there anyone you want to come see you? Not at the moment.

Have you ever been cheated on? Countless times. Yet, i don't care.

Ever given your all to someone who walked away? Yes, i've learn my lesson, not to fall 100% in love with someone.

Do you like cotton candy? YESSSSSS!

Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with? Jack.

Are you planning to get knocked up or knock someone up by age 17? Hello... not relevan. I'm way over that age.

Do you have siblings? Yes. Two annoying brothers :P

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? Yes!

How has the past week been for you? Full of drama.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? Oh yes, lots of them.

What’s on your mind right now? Again same question? I can't remember things from scrap ok!

What were you doing at midnight last night? Spending time with my Jack.

What is your current mood? Referring to previous question, what do you think? LOL.

Who was the first person you talked to today? Mom.

Will this week be a good one? I guess so. Can you predict future? Call me if you can!

Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy? Yes. Launch our shawl shop on 10.10.10

Who were you with last night? My Jack. Damn how many times do i have to repeat his name?

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? No.

Next time you will kiss someone? Errrr.... Seriously, I don't know!

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy? OMG. Seriously asking this?

Do you have any plans for the weekend? Working :(

Quick Update.

2010-11-03T21:48:00.000+08:00

I'm in Crystal Crown, PJ.
Internet sucks here, can't open FACEBOOK!
Just came back from KL.
Bought new stock for my shop.
Went shopping with my mom.

Dinner with my JACK.

*****

On the other hand....
one of my grandpa passed away today.

May he rest in peace.
Al-Fatihah.

I'm going back to Ipoh tomorrow.
To pay my last respect to him.

Tasha Leow

Someone

2010-10-31T04:55:00.000+08:00

Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang. Setelah ia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya. Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja. Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu. Apabila sekali dia melakukan KESILAPAN bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya. akhirnya kamu KECEWA dan meninggalkannya. Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga ke akhirnya.Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan, yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu. MENYAYANGIMU, MENGASIHIMU. Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain.Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan. Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain.

Nicely said. Something to look over. Read it somewhere in Facebook. Thanks to Izan for sharing this :)

Facebook

2010-10-30T05:49:00.001+08:00

Facebook.

One word.
Such a big influence in our life.

We do silly things there.
We chat with our friends.
We share our love there.
We meet new people.

Some people break up because of facebook.
Some people have a fight because of facebook.
Some find out that their man is not loyal, on facebook.
Some find out their loved ones history on facebook.
Some find the truth, even it hurts, on facebook.

Question is..... how do we deal with it?

Do we just leave?
Do we confront the person?
Do we just pretend it never happen?

What say you?

[LEAVE YOUR COMMENT]

Tasha Leow

Guess who?

2010-10-29T06:37:00.001+08:00

Tadi aku rasa tak sedap hati.
Ntah feeling insecure.
or maybe it's just my hormone.
i PM one of my friend.
because i know he would tell me the truth.
even if it'll crush my head.

and, he came out with a very convincing words.
something that calm me straightaway.
seriously, he's so direct.
well, that's why we're best friend.

wakakakakak tak bagi aku copy tu. too bad. i just have to share this. kawan aku puji aku ok! i have to share this. thanks!

obviously, this is just part of the conversation.
and obviously i scratch all names, except mine.
i dont have to tell the world what's my issue.

so, let the game begin.
whoever can guess correctly,
i belanja you makan.

ok?

P/s: Sometimes i just miss being Tasha Leow, instead of Ace Heart. Jack, can i be single for a day? LOL.

Tasha Leow

THE BOYFRIEND SURVEY

2010-10-26T00:56:00.002+08:00

THE BOYFRIEND SURVEY
Answer every question fast – put down your first answer.

What is his name? Jack.
How old is he? 28.
Height? Definitely taller than me ;)
Eye Color? Black.
Hair Color? Black.
Is he pretty? Nope.
Is he cute? Nooooooo!
Is he funny? YES!
Is he unique? One of a kind :)
How long have you been going out? 3 months.
Do you love him? Yes.
Who said I love you first? He did.
How long do you plan on being with him? Good question, but I never plan to leave him :)
Would you steal or lie for him? NO!
Would you stand up for him? Hell yeah.
Would you protect him even if they were at fault? Depends.
If some one touched him in the wrong way what would you do? Ah come on, he's a big boy :P
Do you trust him? Wow. Trust is always an issue for us. I'm gonna answer Yes!
Whats your favorite thing about him? He respects me :)
Whats his favorite music? Some malay song that I will never understand.
Whats his favorite food? Malay food? LOL.
Would you stop doing something for them? Already did.
Is he a jealous person? Oh yes. Back to "Fakta #1" entry!
How often do you think of them? As much as i blink my eyes ;)
Have you sang for them? NO! Never!
Would you let some one or something keep you from seeing him? Maybe.
Does he call you every day? Yes. Thanks Jack!
Do they smoke? Yes.
Name one thing you would change about him? His mindset.
Has he changed you? A lil bit.
When was the last time you saw him? 18.10.10 :(
Does he go to your school or work with you? No.
Would you love him no matter what? Unless if I see him happy with someone else.
What would make you break up with him? If he's not honest with me, about anything.
Have you seen him cry? Errrr....
Has he bitten you? WTF? Why do you care?
Does he hate you? WTF? If he hates me, WTF he calls me sayang for?
Does he trust you? YES!
Does he let you touch him? What a question. Hahahahahaha.
Is he dedicated to you? Yes.
Is he some one you want to be with for a long time? I think so.
How long have you known him? About a year.
Why did you choose him? He promise to love and care bout me. Actually, the main reason is, his SINCERITY.
What would be the perfect date with him? A nice dinner, followed by drinks, just us there.
Have you met his parents? Nope.
Has he met your parents? Yes.
Do your best friends like him? Yup.

P/s: Jack, I answered without thinking twice okay. The answer might not be as complete as it should be.

Your Ace

44 Odd Things

2010-10-25T04:37:00.001+08:00

1. Do you like blue cheese? Yes!

2. Have you ever smoked? Yes!
3. Do you own a gun? Semi-automatic .44 :))
4. What is your favourite cordial flavour? Orange
5. Do you get nervous before Doctor appointments? No.
6. What do you think of hot dogs? Smoked black pepper cheese!
7. Favourite Christmas movie? The Grinch.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? COFFEE!
9. Do you do push-ups? Sometimes.
10.What’s you favourite piece of jewellery? EARRING! duhhh....
11. Favourite hobby? Watching TV Series.
12. Do you have A.D.D? NO!
13. What’s the one thing you hate about yourself? Trust issue.
14. Middle name? Farhana.
15.Name three thoughts at this exact moment? Jack, Jack, Jack.
16.Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? Coffee, lemon tea, Screwdriver.
17. Current worry? Future.
18. Current hate right now? One bitch in Facebook.
19. Favourite place to be? Home.
20.How do you ring in the new year? Find out yourself ;)
21.Where would you like to go? Maldives.
22.Name three people who will complete this? No, I won't name any.
23.Do you own slipper? Yes.
24. What colour shirt are you wearing right now? Black.
25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Always always always go for Egyptian cotton for sheets and satin for comforter.
26. Can you whistle? Hell yeah.
27. Favourite Colour? Red, Purple, Black ( ahh so typical)

28. Would you be a pirate? No.
29.What songs do you sing in the shower? None.
30.Favouite girls name? Isabelle!
31. Favourite boys name? None.
32.What’s in your pocket right now? No pocket.
33. Last thing that made you laugh? My Jack ;)
34. Best bed sheets as a child? Errr...
35.Worst injury you have ever had? In an accident, back in 2005.
36. Do you love where you live? Ohhhhh YES!
37. How many TV’s do you have in your house? Three.
38. Who is your loudest friend? Tiqah?
39. How many dogs do you have? How i wish i could have them!
40. Does someone have a crush on you? Always. LOL. (I'm not joking, they always make me annoyed)
41.What book are you reading at the moment? Just finished Saris in the City.
42.What’s your favourite candy? I don't like candy.
43.What’s your favourite sports team? Barca!
44.What song do you want played at your funeral? WTF??

P/s: Just for fun. Don't take it seriously. Do this if you want :)

Mas Kahwin :)

2010-10-25T00:38:00.002+08:00

nothing much.

small talk kat FB.

thought of sharing it here.

baca kalau rajin :)

komen kalau rasa perlu.

P/s: For those who don't know.... Ace Heart tu aku. Don't get confused which one is me, aite? :)

P/s/s: click utk besarkan pic. don't worry, angpa tak rabun lagi. mmg gambaq ni kecik. wakakaka.

NON-MUSLIM

2010-10-22T01:51:00.000+08:00

I was looking for a room in Seri Kembangan.
So i was just browsing through some room rental sites.
and i found this.
out of the bunch.
interesting.

Prefers female/couple, non-Muslim, MYOB.
Working adults only.
Email/sms to view. Unit viewing after office hours only. Parking is rent-able.
Deposit: 1mth+1 mth’s rent+MYR100 utilities=MYR700

WOW I BET THIS LADY GOT AN ISSUE WITH MUSLIM. WTF IS THAT? NON-MUSLIM??????? YOU SHOULD BE KICK OUT FROM MALAYSIA, LADY!

and yes,

I AM SO FUCKING OFFENDED :)